emotional hopeful medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
dark emotional hopeful inspiring reflective sad medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

I want to preface this by saying that this book hit me really hard personally. So many of the themes are things I am dealing with myself, and it was hard to keep my mind from wandering to my own situation. I can easily imagine that if you don't relate to the experiences depicted in this book, you might have a very different experience reading it.

With that said, I loved it a lot. It was hard to keep the smile of my face for the first third or so, and when it devolved into darkness and anxiety it was hard to keep myself from crying. I loved the prose and the characters are very likeable. It has a poetic quality to it, which is sometimes a little overdone but I found it worked extremely well in most places. 

I found the romance nice, but a little... off? I mostly just went with it but I couldn't get engrossed in it. It just didn't hit the places I wanted it to, and I think it had more potential than it was given. This fits with a more general trend in this book, where things may or may not happen and the book draws too little attention to those things given how relevant they could be to Grace's character development. For a book that's all about identity and breakdowns and being lost, I think those things are more than a little relevant; way more relevant than the book makes them out to be. This includes a bunch of little discrepancies that are never fully elaborated on.

So while I really liked this book, it didn't end up being quite my favorite. Which is a shame because I think it had all the makings of becoming just that for me. I also don't think this book is for just about everyone, but I think that for the right people, it could be extremely important. 
emotional funny hopeful inspiring reflective tense medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

**2.5**

This fell really flat for me. I understand that this was a debut novel for the author and I look forward to seeing their writing evolve with more experience.

There was way too much repetition in the book for things like the characters' last name (I don't ever want to here the name Porter for a loooong time). I understand what the author was trying to do by repeating Porter/Colonel/Porter's don't cry, in an attempt to really hone in on the coldness and militant style relationship/expectations Grace experiences. But I think using that in moderation and not on seemingly every other page would make it more impactful and wouldn't annoy the reader nearly as much.

The storyline has so much potential but repetitive (repetitiveness is the theme in my experience with the text) phrases and themes really stalled this book out less then half of the way through. The interactions throughout the entire book felt like a hallmark movie/telenovela and just overall not realistic.

I love Grace's friend group and her relationship with Yuki. I wish Yuki's podcast was real, I would turn in to every episode.
emotional hopeful reflective sad medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
reflective slow-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Diverse cast of characters: Yes

Whenever we got a tiny glimpse of the romance it was very sweet but overall it was really repetitive and I double checked to make sure it wasn’t YA bc it felt like it was. I wish the romance and her career stuff was more fleshed out because it felt like she kept complaining about the same things without giving us much info. I guess that’s an accurate portrayal of anxiety spirals but I was hoping for a little more story.

I started playing bingo in my head each chapter to see if she would mention 

1. Grace’s hair 
2. Sea salt & herbs
3. Rosebud cheeks
4. What it means to be a “Porter”
5. “lonely creatures” 

And she pretty much mentioned all of them every chapter. 

This book tries to deal with some mayor topics. Parental pressure, racism, depression, self mutilation and what makes a life worth living. These are a lot of topics for one book to deal with and the book ends up only scratching the surface. This felt as a missed opportunity to me.

The characters also lacked a deep dive. For example Agnes. We know the color of her skin, that she has claws, and we know she is sick. Only these three things are brought up when she is in play. At the end of the book we don’t know her any more then at the beginning. We don’t get any insight into who she is. It’s the same for the other characters. The characters skin color, cultural backgrounds, sexual orientation felt like gimmicks. Beside this and one or two attributes we don’t learn anything and therefore don’t get to know them. We simply don’t know why they behave the way they do. Why did the mom need to go and find herself? What are Yuki’s dreams for her future? It sometimes felt like I was reading from a teenagers perspective.

To leave this review on a high note. The part where Grace explains her state of mind to Yuki by telling her about the Mars rover was beautifully written.

Whew it was a journey… great story…but it reads soo slowly and my goodness the protagonist’s name is said at least 1000x. I thought the other reviews were exaggerated…I hope I never meet anyone named GRACE PORTER! Lol
emotional reflective medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

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