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Graphic: Sexual content
Moderate: Sexual assault, Sexual harassment
Minor: Sexual violence, Violence
Graphic: Death, Drug abuse, Pedophilia, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Violence, Stalking, Death of parent, Murder
Moderate: Car accident, Alcohol
Graphic: Sexual content, Violence
Moderate: Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Stalking
Graphic: Rape, Sexual assault
Moderate: Drug use, Sexual content, Violence
Minor: Murder
Graphic: Sexual assault, Sexual content
Moderate: Violence, Stalking
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"𝙄𝙛 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙩𝙤𝙪𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙨 𝙝𝙚𝙧, 𝙄 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙠𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙮𝙤𝙪. 𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙁𝙡𝙞𝙧𝙩 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙝𝙚𝙧, 𝙄 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙠𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙮𝙤𝙪. 𝘿𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙚𝙧. 𝘿𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙠 𝙩𝙤 𝙝𝙚𝙧. 𝘿𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙛𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙝𝙚𝙧."
Ok, I went into this book completely blind. All I knew was that it was dark, a hockey romance and had a shopping list of trigger warnings. Tick, tick and a big ol’ tick!! This book was fantastic. I truly felt all of the emotions from the characters. It did feel like a bit of a puzzle at times, trying to piece together what happened. The only reason I gave it 4 stars was because…
SPOILER ALERT
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Lachlan found Lyla aka De-lil-ah way too easy. I feel like the angst of that scenario could have been prolonged and we could have delved a little deeper into the past as well as into the three years she was MIA but overall, I thoroughly enjoyed this one.
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✨️ Hockey Romance
✨️ Dark Romance
✨️ Possessive MMC
✨️ He Falls First
✨️ Revenge
✨️ Anti Hero
✨️ Reformed Playboy
✨️ Touch Her and D!e
Graphic: Child abuse, Cursing, Death, Emotional abuse, Physical abuse, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Suicide, Violence, Grief, Stalking, Car accident, Death of parent, Murder, Gaslighting
Graphic: Cursing, Death, Drug abuse, Panic attacks/disorders, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Violence, Medical content, Grief, Stalking, Car accident, Death of parent, Abandonment, Injury/Injury detail
Minor: Pregnancy
Both MCs were unlikable and neither really demonstrated growth until perhaps the epilogue (at which point I was already desperate for it to be done). Their instant love story didn’t feel believable. Yes, their chemistry was instantaneous, but they don’t actually get to know each other and their time together is so short that it doesn’t make sense they would still be holding a candle for the other 3 years later.
No one connected to Lyla was likeable either - definitely not anyone I’d want in a friend group. For all the people (powerful rich people) who knew Lyla’s secret and how dangerous it is, none use their power to help her in a meaningful way or to take care of/prepare Lachlan for the risk they were taking and the danger she (they) put him in by lying about everything.
The villain doesn’t really appear to have any motive; their actions seem to be more “… because I can…” or “that’s just how I am.” And for all the talk about the villain’s connections and how they’re able to skirt above the law, the resolution of conflict doesn’t seem to address whether the villain’s influence has ended and if their protectors and coconspirators will face consequences.
Graphic: Physical abuse, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Suicidal thoughts, Stalking
Graphic: Child abuse, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Violence, Grief, Stalking, Car accident, Death of parent, Injury/Injury detail
It's one of those books that's hard to explain and is a good one to go in as blind as possible. However, it is a dark book; you must look up the trigger warnings before picking it up. So, in the first half, we are in a college setting. We're seeing the two main characters meet, but it's the end of their college careers. Lachlan is getting ready to go pro and is an open book, but Lyla has a lot of secrets and is very guarded. But we see these two meet and fall for one another. But then we do a time skip, and suddenly, it's about four years later, and Lachlan has achieved all of his goals and is working on finding Lyla. We learn all of her secrets during this reunion, and the book gets dark. The book is mysterious and tense, but we don't learn just how bad it is until, towards the end, the truth starts coming out. I wish there were more books in this world.
Initial Read
I need to read more Clare Conteras books! This one was amazing, and it's one of those books you feel wrong about loving so much because it's super dark. So I picked it up right after Conteras was announced to be at Sweetgrass next year because it's been on my radar since it got some traction on TikTok. Still, it was just sitting on my KU TBR. I'm so glad that pushed me to pick it up. It's hard to explain this one because it spans over a few years, and it's split into two parts. So, in the first part, we are with Lyla and Lachlan while they are in the last semester of college. He's a pretty big hockey player for the school and has plans to go pro.
Meanwhile, we know quickly that something is going on with Lyla, but we need to know what. It's initially played off like she's just a big homebody, but we soon learn what's happening with her. But these two hit it off really fast, and we see it go from 0-60 super-fast between them. It was so much fun, but things with Lyla hit a whole new level, which caused her to run away and start over. She literally vanishes, which starts part two. We see her in this new life she's created, and she's flourishing but living at the same time, she's been keeping everyone an arm's length away.
Meanwhile, Lachlan went pro and has been living out his ice hockey dreams. But he never forgot about her, and she was always the one that got away. Eventually, he finds her, and we see the whole truth emerge. It is insane just how much she's gone through over the years. By the end of the book, we do get a HEA because this is standalone, but we tie up everything to the point where she finally gets to live a happy, carefree life with him, and it's just amazing. This is another one I need to reread. I bought the physical copy to take and get signed, and it would be fun to annotate it since I have the physical copy now.
Graphic: Rape, Sexual content, Violence, Medical content, Stalking, Car accident, Gaslighting
Moderate: Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Death of parent, Murder