3.44 AVERAGE


Not a simple or easy read, in fact viscerally uncomfortable at times! But I honestly am always impressed that a work can do that and the writing itself is great, gonna be thinking on this one

Okay thought for 5 more seconds, after the beginning chapters I was like woah not sure I'm gonna make it through this, but kept reading, and it becomes about million different interest and complex things don't think I've ever read a book like this before! Gonna go read the author's other work
challenging tense medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: No
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

Siri, play Iris. Another novel about a musician who martyrs themself for art and is surprised that it sucks and doesn't work out for them. (I hate novels that pedestal the music industry, but that's not what I thought I was reading.) 
Joan Vole is a c-list folk musician who goes too far and assaults a fan onstage at a performance. Instead of taking any accountability for her misdeed, she throws her possessions in the garbage and flees the state to take a job teaching songwriting at a high school summer camp. You go, Joan! Cancel yourself before they can cancel you! She spends tons of energy worrying and trying to prevent everyone from finding out what she did, it gets exhausting to read. 
I kept going through the story despite labeling multiple highlights of this character simply as "ew." I hated living in this pathetic ho's head! She's avoidant, jealous, supremely vain to the point of maybe delusion? about her music, an emotional toddler, incapable of accountability, inexplicably disdainful of cheap instruments... I could go on. I normally like a deeply flawed main character but it's usually because I can tell they either have a big transformation coming or the author clearly intended us to despise their ass. I can't figure that out with this book. God, Joan fuckin sucks. Besides a couple sentences in the last few chapters that start to hint at accountability and change, she spends the whole book avoiding vulnerability to the detriment of herself and others, finding young people to mentor (aka push around) so she can feel important, pretending she's queer to retain a lesbian fan base, and having sex she doesn't want to avoid hard conversations. And because every review will mention this: her piss fetish is indeed too present. How you gonna go 40-some years with access to the internet and dozens of pee-related sexual encounters and not even file down the sharp edges of your shame about your kink? Grow up. Read a book. Jesus. 
So taters? I am, above all else, a hater. I enjoyed hating Joan and I enjoyed complaining to you about it. So 3 taters and a swift kick to Joan's piss-soaked groin 🥔🥔🥔🦵/🥔🥔🥔🥔🥔

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xosammibeth's review

3.75
emotional reflective slow-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

ilysespieces's review


Too much piss fetish

too much pee. not enough atonement for the SA. 

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I find the main character exhausting and urophilia uninteresting. 
tense medium-paced
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

Joan is a confounding character. 

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