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Knapp is a skillful writer. I was particularly interested inhow she describes the difference between a heavy drinker and an alcoholic, as well as the many rationalizations one makes to keep oneself in the former camp. While not without its flaws, I thought it successful as a window into the mindset of a problem drinker, and gave me some insight into how I might understand people in my life with substance abuse issues.
I read this a few years ago, and I think this was one of my first memoirs. It was very well written and described Knapp's struggle with addiction beautifully.
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This is very well written and the story itself is engaging. It reads a little bit like gossip because it is so engaging - you want to know what will happen, it has its tawdry bits, its family drama. It's really a strong person who can pull herself out of this downward spiral, and at least in part it's Knapp's intelligence and insight that save her.
No pun intended but the writing is a little dry, not in a bad way, but in a journalistic way.
No pun intended but the writing is a little dry, not in a bad way, but in a journalistic way.
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What a poignant, tragic story.
Very brave & raw; an important voice for women who suffer in silence with alcoholism. It’s an older book & the author died many years ago but still relevant & valuable today.
What a poignant, tragic story.
Very brave & raw; an important voice for women who suffer in silence with alcoholism. It’s an older book & the author died many years ago but still relevant & valuable today.
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“Drinking: A Love Story” – even the title is compelling. And the first line – “It happened this way: I fell in love and then, because the love was ruining everything I cared about, I had to fall out.” And the love to which she is referring is, of course, with alcohol.
And she’s right…although I never thought about alcoholism that way before. There are many similarities between this love and the love for someone who seems perfect at first but turns out to be life changing in the most destructive ways.
“I loved the way drink made me feel, and I loved its special power of deflection; its ability to shift my focus away from my own awareness of self and onto something else, something less painful than my own feeling. I loved the sounds of drink: the slide of a cork as it eased out of a wine bottle, the distinct glug-glug of booze pouring into a glass, the clatter of ice cubes in a tumbler. I loved the rituals, the camaraderie of drinking with others, the warming, melting feelings of ease and courage it gave me.”
Seductive, isn’t it?
Caroline Knapp is painfully honest as she tells her story, seemingly holding nothing back as she tells the reader about her theories on her own alcoholism, about the factors in her life, physical, emotional and circumstantial that may have contributed to this deadly love. While I am very fortunate to not share that love, I sympathized with her many times as she described her life.
“Growing up, I never heard my parents say “I love you,” not to us and not to each other. I never heard them fight either. That’s something else.”
I must have read that line a dozen times in disbelief. While she never describes any physical abuse, the idea that a child grows up not hearing “I love you” several times a day from their parent just breaks my heart.
I once worked with a man who was a recovering alcoholic, and I remember him asking me if I was able to have just one drink at a sitting. I told him I was, that sometimes that drink would go unfinished. He shook his head and told me that he couldn’t imagine taking a first sip of a drink and then not ending up blacking out at the end of an evening. So this section resonated with me.
“My mother didn’t drink that way. Neither did my sister. They’d have a glass of wine at dinner – a single glass – and if you tried to pour more, they’d cover the glass with a hand and say, “No, thanks. I’ve had enough”. Enough? That’s a foreign word to an alcoholic, absolutely unknown. There is never enough, no such thing.”
That thought is chilling to me – that once the drinking starts – it never stops.
The description of the elaborate planning that goes into being a “high functioning alcoholic” (as Knapp describes herself) seemed exhausting to me. Visiting different liquor stores each day, making up parties and events to explain the volume of the purchases, hiding booze in closets and plants. Though much of Knapp’s story comes through in the carefully strengthening voice of someone who has lived through a nightmare and is carefully rebuilding, sometimes she is able to look at her past life with humor.
“Recycling is a problem to the active alcoholic: you have to see all those bottles, heaped together in the recycling bin, and that can be a disconcerting image. Luckily, I did most of my solitary, alcoholic drinking in communities that didn’t then recycle, so I’d pile the bottles into a heavy plastic garbage bag and lug them out to the curb or heave them into a Dumpster, hoping no one nearby heard all the glass clinking and rattling as I went along.”
Caroline Knapp’s story is a compelling one, a look at the destruction that the love of drink can have on a life, on several lives as she talks to people she meets in AA, on a country as she gives chilling statistics and facts. And it’s a story that doesn’t have a happy ending.
As the book comes to a close, she is still sober, but she is the first to admit that the odds are against her and that it is a daily, hourly fight to stay that way.
“I once heard a woman say that as an alcoholic, a part of her will always be deeply attracted to alcohol, which seemed a very simple way of putting it, and very true. The attraction – the pull, the hunger, the yearning – doesn’t die when you say goodbye to the drink, any more than the pull toward a bad lover dies when you finally walk out the door.”
Because, of course, while closed, that door is still there, and can be opened once again.
And she’s right…although I never thought about alcoholism that way before. There are many similarities between this love and the love for someone who seems perfect at first but turns out to be life changing in the most destructive ways.
“I loved the way drink made me feel, and I loved its special power of deflection; its ability to shift my focus away from my own awareness of self and onto something else, something less painful than my own feeling. I loved the sounds of drink: the slide of a cork as it eased out of a wine bottle, the distinct glug-glug of booze pouring into a glass, the clatter of ice cubes in a tumbler. I loved the rituals, the camaraderie of drinking with others, the warming, melting feelings of ease and courage it gave me.”
Seductive, isn’t it?
Caroline Knapp is painfully honest as she tells her story, seemingly holding nothing back as she tells the reader about her theories on her own alcoholism, about the factors in her life, physical, emotional and circumstantial that may have contributed to this deadly love. While I am very fortunate to not share that love, I sympathized with her many times as she described her life.
“Growing up, I never heard my parents say “I love you,” not to us and not to each other. I never heard them fight either. That’s something else.”
I must have read that line a dozen times in disbelief. While she never describes any physical abuse, the idea that a child grows up not hearing “I love you” several times a day from their parent just breaks my heart.
I once worked with a man who was a recovering alcoholic, and I remember him asking me if I was able to have just one drink at a sitting. I told him I was, that sometimes that drink would go unfinished. He shook his head and told me that he couldn’t imagine taking a first sip of a drink and then not ending up blacking out at the end of an evening. So this section resonated with me.
“My mother didn’t drink that way. Neither did my sister. They’d have a glass of wine at dinner – a single glass – and if you tried to pour more, they’d cover the glass with a hand and say, “No, thanks. I’ve had enough”. Enough? That’s a foreign word to an alcoholic, absolutely unknown. There is never enough, no such thing.”
That thought is chilling to me – that once the drinking starts – it never stops.
The description of the elaborate planning that goes into being a “high functioning alcoholic” (as Knapp describes herself) seemed exhausting to me. Visiting different liquor stores each day, making up parties and events to explain the volume of the purchases, hiding booze in closets and plants. Though much of Knapp’s story comes through in the carefully strengthening voice of someone who has lived through a nightmare and is carefully rebuilding, sometimes she is able to look at her past life with humor.
“Recycling is a problem to the active alcoholic: you have to see all those bottles, heaped together in the recycling bin, and that can be a disconcerting image. Luckily, I did most of my solitary, alcoholic drinking in communities that didn’t then recycle, so I’d pile the bottles into a heavy plastic garbage bag and lug them out to the curb or heave them into a Dumpster, hoping no one nearby heard all the glass clinking and rattling as I went along.”
Caroline Knapp’s story is a compelling one, a look at the destruction that the love of drink can have on a life, on several lives as she talks to people she meets in AA, on a country as she gives chilling statistics and facts. And it’s a story that doesn’t have a happy ending.
As the book comes to a close, she is still sober, but she is the first to admit that the odds are against her and that it is a daily, hourly fight to stay that way.
“I once heard a woman say that as an alcoholic, a part of her will always be deeply attracted to alcohol, which seemed a very simple way of putting it, and very true. The attraction – the pull, the hunger, the yearning – doesn’t die when you say goodbye to the drink, any more than the pull toward a bad lover dies when you finally walk out the door.”
Because, of course, while closed, that door is still there, and can be opened once again.
Chronicling the progression of alcoholism, Caroline Knapp writes a memoir that engaged me in style and substance. While never clearly stating conclusions (My dad was also an alcoholic, Alcohol is more addicting than...because...) she paints a "sober" reality of the slow seducing power of life with alcohol and why some of us can handle it and some of us just can't. I really appreciated how she set up the time-line of her story...chronological yet interspersing dramatic scenes to illustrate the narrative, as in opening with the scene of her last drunk Thanksgiving where she almost killed her friend's daughter while taking a walk. Anyone who resonates with the power that drink can provide will resonate with the psychological rationale fueling the progression and those who can't understand how it can ever get "that bad" or thinks it's a matter of will can appreciate her description, especially if you have a loved one that suffers or you suffer by.
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I found this an incredibly moving and enlightening look at life from the inside of a recovering alcoholic's mind. Do we really stop to notice how amazing it is that humans can explore their own abnormal mental states? That they can choose to turn themselves around and move towards health? Too often we focus on the failures and look down on those who are "weaker" than us, while ignoring the true strength that can shine through in the greatest darkness.
In terms of alcohol use and abuse in particular, some people may have that particular susceptibility that makes them helpless "alcoholics", but why are so many people using alcohol to wash away their feelings so much of the time? Is this really a good thing? I think the question needs to be much broader than how to prevent or treat alcoholism. The reluctance to feel one's real feelings is a spiritual ailment that has many ramifications.
"You often hear in AA meetings that denial is the disease of alcoholism, not just its primary symptom." I'd say denial is the disease, and alcoholism is the symptom. There are countless other symptoms, but we've got to get to the heart of this illness.
In terms of alcohol use and abuse in particular, some people may have that particular susceptibility that makes them helpless "alcoholics", but why are so many people using alcohol to wash away their feelings so much of the time? Is this really a good thing? I think the question needs to be much broader than how to prevent or treat alcoholism. The reluctance to feel one's real feelings is a spiritual ailment that has many ramifications.
"You often hear in AA meetings that denial is the disease of alcoholism, not just its primary symptom." I'd say denial is the disease, and alcoholism is the symptom. There are countless other symptoms, but we've got to get to the heart of this illness.
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