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this is my first ever Mariana Zapata book and I'm obsessed with it. at first I was drawn to her because we share our first name with the exact same spelling and it's not often that I see someone with my name outside of my country. then I decided to add a few of her books to my tbr over time and then I went to the Lisbon book fair and I saw this one and decided to buy it and I decided to immediately start reading it (yes I have 1100+ books on my tbr and yes I still did this).
and I'm in love. I love Aurora. and I'm in love with Rhodes 😭❤️
I'm not even an age gap girlie (even tho this age gap wasn't that big, she was 33/34 and he was 42/43) but I loved this SO much. I understand why people call Mariana the slow burn queen because WOW. this had me at the edge of my seat the whole time. I mean.... at the 400 page mark they hadn't even kissed yet 😭. I honestly had no idea I would love a slow burn like this as much as I did but omg. I want all my slow burns to be like this now. I'M OBSESSED.
but as I said before, I loved Aurora and Rhodes and their whole relationship from the beginning but I also loved Amos and Clara and Jackie and Yuki and all the other good side characters. these people are my family fr.
can't wait to read more Mariana Zapata books 🫶🏼
Graphic: Death, Toxic relationship, Grief, Death of parent
Moderate: Child abuse, Domestic abuse
Minor: Animal cruelty, Animal death, Mental illness, Physical abuse, Self harm, Sexual content, Suicide, Terminal illness, Suicide attempt, Toxic friendship
- Rhodes, who wouldn’t love him?
- A strong and independent woman as FMC, take that patriarchy and famous people thinking money can buy everything
- THE ROMANCE!
- The found family dynamics, prepare your heart to melt many times
- Small town vibes (without the usual neighbour overload that comes with it), outdoor vibes
- The growth arc for Aurora, I was truly happy for this character to heal, find herself centered again and loved
- The chemistry between both MCs, genuine and strong bond described over the book
- No excessive smut scenes used as filler chapters, we cheered! Like they waited until it felt right and not just instincts and attraction?
What I liked less:
- Things which were said too many times:
calling him my landlord, Why does she have to pee so many times, why do we get excessive repetitions of how hot is Rhodes (even if I still can’t imagine fully what he looks like), is it a way to compensate the age gap? I don’t know if it’s the lack of dual POV but I did not see the shift in their relationship, especially from Rhodes’. It’s like he fell before we even knew but just did not show it. I don’t like that shortcut to use a kind of grumpy x sunshine excuse and then make the grumpy say he fell first but did not show. Also he’s not really grumpy. And she’s not really sunshine by default, it’s more she’s become the one she felt was right going on a hike and get in trouble, trying to put the bat house and get trouble.. it felt a bit reckless from her the third act break up trope almost? I didn’t get how both guys would get angry when they found out about her ex, by that time they were already on the same page
Graphic: Death of parent
Moderate: Sexual content, Stalking
Minor: Emotional abuse, Infertility, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Pregnancy, Gaslighting, Abandonment
Graphic: Death, Sexual content, Toxic relationship, Death of parent
Moderate: Death, Infertility, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Sexual content, Toxic relationship, Medical content, Grief, Death of parent, Injury/Injury detail
Minor: Animal death, Child abuse, Toxic relationship, Stalking, Pregnancy
I adored Rhodes, whose gruff standoffish demeanour hides his warmhearted and cinnamon roll centre. His love and support for his son was heart meltingly good too and as he and Aurora get to know one another (and Aurora breaks down his defences) we see a quietly protective side to him that I absolutely loved.
And given everything Aurora has experienced in her life, and emotional journey shes still working through — Rhodes, Amos (Rhodes’ teenage son) and the other Residents of Pagosa are just what she needs to fully heal and finally find a place she can call home.
We get some pretty humorous moments too which really helped with easing the tenser more emotionally scenes (my faves being the Bat and golden eagle scenes)
Overall another incredible read that slow-burn romance lovers will definitely enjoy. Just be sure to check the TWs
Also a massive thank you to Sophie (@SophieB_Reads on TikTok) for book fairying this to me, I absolutely loved it 😍❤️
Graphic: Toxic relationship, Grief, Death of parent
Moderate: Emotional abuse, Sexual content, Injury/Injury detail
Minor: Child abuse, Mental illness, Pregnancy
Moderate: Death of parent
Minor: Domestic abuse, Mental illness
Graphic: Cursing, Emotional abuse, Sexual content, Toxic relationship, Grief, Gaslighting, Toxic friendship
Moderate: Child abuse, Domestic abuse, Mental illness, Physical abuse, Death of parent, Pregnancy, Injury/Injury detail
Minor: Body shaming, Fatphobia, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Blood, Stalking
Things I did like about the book:
•teenaged characters actually acted like teenagers
•Zapata’s depiction of the fallout of dealing with narcissistic/self-centered adults and parental figures was handled well and in a realistic manner (the scenes where
Things I did not like about the book:
•non-teenaged characters also acted like teenagers; namely, Ora was incredibly immature and WAY overly emotional, to the point of being worrisome. She’d get teary-eyed and gushy about absolutely everything. No one could even pay her a nice, normal compliment without her crying out that it was “the nicest thing anyone ever said” to her and hugging them while snotting on their shirt collar. I get that she’s supposed to be this cutesy, bubbly, sunshine-y person, but… she’s also a 33 year old woman. Take it down a notch or ten. If I knew anyone like this in real life, especially at that age, I’d seriously worry about their mental health.
•The repetition and inconsistencies in the writing. We are told so many times about how 1) Kaden was a bad boyfriend/life partner/whatever they were, 2) Mrs. Jones is the Antichrist, 3) Ora has to pee, 4) Rhodes is grumpy, 5) Ora doesn’t know anything about the outdoors despite wanting to go hiking all the time and working at an outdoors supply store, 6) Ora somehow thinks Rhodes barely tolerates her even after he starts calling her “angel” (the only GOOD nickname he calls her, btw - we’ll get to that)… the list goes on and on. I felt like we were being beaten over the head with certain pieces of information and it felt almost insulting. There was a lot, and I mean a LOT, of telling rather than showing. As for inconsistencies, they were fairly minor - little things like her telling Rhodes at their first meeting that she’d only ever gotten one traffic ticket in her lifetime (in an attempt to convince him she wasn’t a criminal, which, to be fair, he did think she was breaking into his garage at the time) then musing a few chapters later about how she’d never gotten a traffic ticket despite the fact that she usually drove above the speed limit (a random piece of information that we didn’t need to know, and also, is apparently untrue, assuming she was telling Rhodes the truth earlier in the book - and why would she lie to him about having only gotten one ticket if she’d never actually gotten any??). But there was also
•The nicknames, oh my god. Yikes. Rhodes calling her “angel” was fine, and I even thought it was cute (at first) that she just thought he’d misremembered her name and corrected him, but the whole ditzy “I didn’t know you were calling me an affectionate nickname this whole time!!!” thing got old real fast. And then he started calling her *shudders* Buddy…. now THAT was the most cringeworthy thing I’ve read in a while.
•all spoilers (and lots of capslock) ahead:
•way, way too many mentions of pee, diarrhea, and farts. Like what the hell. Do people actually find that funny?
I could keep going, but this review is long enough. If you’re new to Mariana Zapata, do yourself a favor and skip this one. Read The Wall of Winnipeg and Me - it’s actually good and has great character development. Nothing at all like this one.
Moderate: Grief
Minor: Mental illness, Death of parent, Injury/Injury detail
I would love to be able to get something like what Aurora and Rhodes have 😔🫶
Moderate: Death of parent
Minor: Mental illness, Sexual content, Pregnancy
I hate to say this, because I love me a slow-burn romance, but it possibly could have been a little quicker. Near the three-quarter mark, it began to feel like we'd make romantic progress and then back track again and again. But it was still believable and enjoyable. All of the characters have such a great fleshed out back story that you can tell this was a loved book by Zapata. While I don't think that I loved Aurora as much as I was supposed to, it was because she acts like a real person. She's messy and sometimes a little too selfish, but so are a lot of people. And Amos and Rhodes's family situation? Gosh, I wish I had Zapata's skill. Wonderfully created and I will be looking out for other works of hers in the future.
Graphic: Blood, Grief, Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Death of parent, Pregnancy
Minor: Infidelity, Mental illness, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Medical content, Suicide attempt
Graphic: Toxic relationship, Death of parent
Moderate: Mental illness