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Li's unflinching ability to sit in the abyss after the death of both of her sons to suicide makes this a hard read. But it is also a relief to read a work of mourning that refuses to follow our cultural patterns of grief (in one striking moment, Li rejects the word grief because it implies that there should be a process and an end to her grieving). It feels strange to call such a stark book beautiful, but it is. 
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I’m not going to rate because this book is so deeply personal and individual that I don’t think it’s rate-able. 

As the author notes, this book is not and cannot be for most people. And some parts of the book certainly did not resonate with me, but many parts did. I was especially moved by discussions of how cliche and language fail us, how true compassion requires courage and dealing with our own discomfort, and the importance of meaningful, fearless friendship. I can see myself returning to this book and getting something different from it many times over the course of my life.  
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I was scared to read this book. I lost one of my best mates to suicide a few years ago and I speak to his mum regularly. I wasn’t sure I could handle this book right now, but it turned out to be one of the most illuminating things I’ve ever read. It’s always very beautiful to read a book that connects with every feeling in your body - the kind of book you instantly message people about, thinking about the people we love and the ones we love and lose. I’ve been in a cloud of fog while coming off of my anti-depressants and this book shone through that with an empathy and clarity that feels transformative.
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It feels impossible to me to rate or review this book. It will stick with me for a long while.
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