3.93 AVERAGE

dark reflective sad tense medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
challenging dark emotional medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
challenging emotional sad medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: N/A
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

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dark sad tense medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

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challenging emotional sad tense medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

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challenging dark emotional hopeful sad tense medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

Truly hard to recommend this book. It was a extremely tough read with lots of triggering content. Please read with caution and check trigger warnings first. 

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dark emotional inspiring reflective sad tense fast-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

A deeply moving, emotional and beautiful book.

I feel enjoyed is the wrong word to use for a book like this, but I did enjoy reading it. Charlie's story was so deeply relatable and I devoured every second of it. At times yes, it was triggering and upsetting, I had to put the book down and give myself space to process before I kept reading - but it was so understanding and healing to read. As someone who spent nearly 4 years clean before they relapsed, her journey through recovery puts exactly how I felt/feel into words. Reading a book about something I've been through, its as I said, healing.

I felt the clunky sort of writing style at the start, in my opinion, reflects her mental state. As we watch her grow and heal, the chapters become more regular and flow. When she's struggling, the chapters are short and lots of metaphors are used - I'm interpretation that as her mind is shattered and all over the place, like the writing style. I don't know if that was the intention, but it really fits with the story.

First of all,
Mikey is a terrible friend. I understand he had his own life going on, but you're still going to take in and then DITCH an extremely vulnerable person, espically when you know Riley was lurking around?? And he got married without telling her ??? Like what ?? Worst friend of the century.


Secondly, Riley was such an interesting character.
I'd seen minor spoilers that he wasnt good for her, but despite this I felt drawn in by his charms and witts - like Charlie, and often I was going "oh hes calling her sweetheart thats so cute". Obviously as the book went on it was clear his intentions were more malicious, but I do feel sorry for him. In his own way, he was struggling. I'm not condoning that behaviour by any means - and what he did was awful, but I cant help but feel sympathetic for his own issues. That doesn't excuse what he did to Charlie, though.


This gorgeous book captivated the recovery process so perfectly, and I'm glad
not only Charlie got her happy ending, but Blue too. Her character growth was good
- and I'm happy with the ending. It was quite bittersweet. She gained and lost so much in such a short amount of time.

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"Everyone has that moment, I think, the moment when something so...momentous happens that it rips your very being into small pieces. And then you have to stop. For a long time. To gather your pieces."