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Pageboy by Elliot Page

139 reviews

vixenreader's review against another edition

dark emotional hopeful informative inspiring reflective sad tense fast-paced

4.25

A structure based on the journey towards self-love, this memoir is deeply poignant, unflinching, and vulnerable, and a honest experience about how wilful ignorance and prejudice ultimately perpetrates the bigotry experienced by the trans community. 

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Abandonment, Alcohol, Eating disorder, Emotional abuse, Misogyny, Bullying, Toxic friendship, Lesbophobia, Dysphoria, Toxic relationship, Transphobia, Outing, Panic attacks/disorders, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Body shaming, Child abuse, Cursing, Deadnaming, and Sexism

Moderate: Death, Medical content, Mental illness, Suicidal thoughts, Homophobia, Cancer, Stalking, Fire/Fire injury, Grief, Injury/Injury detail, Pedophilia, and Pregnancy

Minor: Self harm, Drug use, Medical trauma, Pandemic/Epidemic, Biphobia, Alcoholism, Violence, Blood, Classism, and Drug abuse

Be aware that there are themes of parental neglect, rejecting a trans child, bi-erasure, putting actors in harm’s way, the influence of the internet, tension within unhealthy relationships, unhealthy polyamory, heartbreak, threats towards trans and queer folks, nudity in film, erasure of queer identity, and being forced back into the closet.

runbeck's review against another edition

challenging emotional reflective medium-paced

4.5

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Bullying, Panic attacks/disorders, Stalking, Sexual assault, Lesbophobia, Sexual content, Medical content, Transphobia, and Body shaming

Minor: Excrement, Gaslighting, Drug use, Alcohol, Deadnaming, Eating disorder, Outing, Pandemic/Epidemic, and Suicidal thoughts

fanboyriot's review against another edition

emotional inspiring reflective slow-paced

4.0

Deciding to love yourself was the whole point of this book.  All the ups and downs of life, the self discovery of a trans person.  The pain of being trans and living in a world not built for trans people.

While some of the pacing was a bit awkward and the timeline was difficult to follow but I ended up loving listening to this; especially since the author was also the narrator. 

I learned a lot about this author and I’m so happy that he was in a place to write this book and share it with the world.  I also liked how he mentioned several times about his privilege in a very genuine way, actually acknowledging the problems with trans healthcare and other issues as well.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Outing, Toxic relationship, Dysphoria, Sexual violence, Homophobia, Emotional abuse, Suicidal thoughts, Sexual assault, Hate crime, Transphobia, Self harm, Sexual content, and Cursing

Moderate: Eating disorder, Lesbophobia, Blood, Deadnaming, Mental illness, Stalking, Rape, Alcohol, Injury/Injury detail, Grief, Bullying, Child abuse, Panic attacks/disorders, Abandonment, Sexism, and Sexual harassment

Minor: Misogyny, Body shaming, Pandemic/Epidemic, Religious bigotry, Classism, Medical content, and Drug use

halem13's review against another edition

dark emotional hopeful inspiring sad tense medium-paced

4.5

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Dysphoria, Emotional abuse, Hate crime, Homophobia, Panic attacks/disorders, Rape, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Transphobia, Child abuse, Bullying, Eating disorder, Sexual assault, Sexual content, and Stalking

lindsaymck's review against another edition

challenging dark emotional inspiring reflective sad tense slow-paced

3.75

It feels odd to give a rating to a memoir, especially one that handles such sensitive experiences. I appreciated the insights EP was willing to share about coming of age in the movie industry and how he constantly navigated his gender inside their rigid expectations. His writing style is sometimes concise and simple, staying towards the surface level of reflection, and other times he includes some poetic prose and dives deep, truly changing my perceptions. 

The non-linear structure took a minute to adjust to, but I tried to see that through the lens of natural storytelling as memories and details and revelations came to him. I wonder if a chronological storytelling could’ve helped me understand him better, but think it being non-linear lends itself to the chaos of his hard-fought journey towards his true self. 

I am very glad I listened to the book rather than read it myself. Hearing him share his story increases my connection to it. That being said, there is still so much I feel like I don’t know about him, things that could’ve absolutely been explored. The book did take a very personal approach to all of the complex issues he has faced - identity, gender, sexuality, eating disorders, and mental health, among others - but I still felt like I didn’t know him at the end. That thought, though, made me check my own entitlement - I am not entitled to know anything about his experiences other than what he chooses to share - and I do appreciate what he does share for what it reveals about him and all that he has gone through to become who he is. 

It seems to me that he did not want his book to be a voice for all transgender people or a source of education for those wishing to learn more about transgenderism. He could have just wanted it to be a cathartic collection of his own experiences, the act of putting them into words adding to the catharsis and giving him the freedom he deserves to feel. 

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Content Warnings

Moderate: Bullying, Eating disorder, Emotional abuse, Panic attacks/disorders, Body shaming, Transphobia, Outing, and Self harm

Minor: Suicidal thoughts

exhumedprince's review against another edition

adventurous dark emotional funny hopeful inspiring reflective sad medium-paced

5.0

I'd die for Elliot Page

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Homophobia, Self harm, Dysphoria, Stalking, Emotional abuse, Transphobia, Bullying, Lesbophobia, and Sexual assault

Moderate: Eating disorder, Panic attacks/disorders, and Medical content

Minor: Alcohol, Suicidal thoughts, Pandemic/Epidemic, and Drug use

phouka's review against another edition

funny hopeful informative inspiring reflective medium-paced

3.25

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Lesbophobia, Dysphoria, Deadnaming, Eating disorder, Hate crime, Child death, Homophobia, Stalking, Transphobia, Child abuse, and Sexual content

Moderate: Emotional abuse, Sexual assault, Sexual harassment, Suicide, Drug use, Medical content, Body shaming, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Violence, Bullying, Car accident, and Rape

Minor: Pedophilia, Religious bigotry, Panic attacks/disorders, Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Blood, Abandonment, Alcohol, Cancer, Self harm, Sexism, Mental illness, and Pandemic/Epidemic

mels_reading_log's review against another edition

challenging emotional hopeful inspiring medium-paced

5.0

This book was so good, but in that way that breaks your heart. I hate that Elliot had to deal with everything he has and didn’t always have people around him to make him feel safe. I’m so happy that he had the courage to write this book and that it has become so popular. It’s so important and empowering to hear queer and trans voices. This is just one trans person’s story, but hearing the joy and relief in his voice when he talked of being out and surgery gives me hope for others, that they feel safe enough to be themselves as well.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Misogyny, Sexual violence, Transphobia, Homophobia, Medical content, Mental illness, Sexism, Body horror, Eating disorder, Gaslighting, Sexual content, Alcohol, Hate crime, Self harm, Toxic relationship, Bullying, Panic attacks/disorders, Sexual harassment, Toxic friendship, Deadnaming, Sexual assault, Drug use, Emotional abuse, Outing, and Suicidal thoughts

stephmcoakley's review against another edition

challenging emotional hopeful informative inspiring reflective medium-paced

4.25

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Emotional abuse, Abandonment, Ableism, Addiction, Blood, Body horror, Suicidal thoughts, Biphobia, Deadnaming, Drug use, Stalking, Injury/Injury detail, Alcoholism, Hate crime, Medical trauma, Sexual assault, Vomit, Body shaming, Self harm, Rape, Sexual content, Sexual harassment, Death, Dysphoria, Eating disorder, Homophobia, Excrement, Lesbophobia, Mental illness, Misogyny, Outing, Panic attacks/disorders, and Transphobia

stevia333k's review against another edition

dark tense slow-paced

4.25

The last 3rd was good, and i say this because the first 2 thirds were violent as hell. I had to learn that he was in a lot of action movies basically in order to handle it & i also could only listen 10 minutes at a time at triple speed. 

Anyways, after a while certain parts about being trans were like oh good my transfemme self isn't alone. 

The relationships though & the shadow work kinda went over my head because I'm aromantic but the workplace accident (because of how wreckless the directors were to black & queer lives) helped connect me to the kind of stuff he meant, so I am thankful he included workplace incidents like that.

Also the memoir isn't told as chronologically, so basically if you're taking notes then I recommend trying to make a character list sort of glossary since the time dimension doesn't sort them, but some segments are like public letters.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Homophobia, Adult/minor relationship, Terminal illness, Dysphoria, Kidnapping, Medical content, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Rape, Toxic relationship, Vomit, War, Medical trauma, Misogyny, Physical abuse, Racism, Sexism, Confinement, Death, Body shaming, Gaslighting, Xenophobia, Fire/Fire injury, Infidelity, Cancer, Death of parent, Domestic abuse, Stalking, Torture, Violence, Blood, Hate crime, Sexual content, Transphobia, Bullying, Child abuse, Child death, Drug use, Emotional abuse, Animal death, Injury/Injury detail, Murder, Panic attacks/disorders, Sexual harassment, Suicidal thoughts, Lesbophobia, Religious bigotry, Car accident, Gore, Grief, Body horror, Pandemic/Epidemic, and Self harm