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nicholasl_'s review against another edition
dark
emotional
reflective
sad
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Plot
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
4.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Transphobia, Bullying, Dysphoria, Homophobia, Hate crime, Outing, Sexual assault, and Suicide attempt
Minor: Religious bigotry
cryscries's review against another edition
emotional
hopeful
informative
inspiring
reflective
sad
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
5.0
A very wonderful book and I couldn’t believe this was a debut novel. It was very well written and really tugged at the heartstrings to the very end - like literally, it built up with so much joy and then boom sad bomb. In a way I like the way it ended - grant and Amanda don’t exactly have a for sure “they got back together” like what I feel most romances do (even tho I totally believe they did get back together in my hope let me have this and be a hopeless romantic) but I feel in a “realistic sense” it was right for that to happen because it’s something new that a cis straight man has to understand and learn. Definitely wasn’t expecting it but I was super happy with the decision
Overall I was glad to read this book (finally) and highly recommend if anyone wants to start off reading a book from a trans author.
Overall I was glad to read this book (finally) and highly recommend if anyone wants to start off reading a book from a trans author.
Content Warnings
Moderate: Homophobia, Outing, Transphobia, Rape, Racial slurs, Sexual assault, Religious bigotry, Suicide, Suicidal thoughts, and Bullying
Minor: Drug use and Dysphoria
jesikasbookshelf's review against another edition
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? No
- Loveable characters? No
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
Nope.
Nope.
Nope, Nope, Nope, Nope, Nope.
For the first quarter or so I thought this book was underwhelming representation in a YA novel. God, I wish I'd quit still thinking that.
This book is nothing short of irresponsible publishing.
For a book marketed as a light and sweet YA romance, this book is nothing, and I truly mean nothing, other than protracted queer trauma. The main character is trans - not only does this book make her ONLY identifiable 'personality' the idea that she is pretty and trans, it perpetuates harmful misunderstandings of the trans community from the singular need for top and bottom surgery, through the lack of ongoing therapy to the young and apparently extremely quick uptake of accessible surgery.
So in some ways, this book manages to completely gloss over the very real fight transgender people go through to live as themselves in western society, thereby failing to reflect on the ways in which the main character has had to be traumatised at a young age.
What it does instead is focus entirely on the trauma she experiences socially. Her dad continually deadnames and misgenders her. There is a long scene depicting her suicide attempt not from an explanation of how often she has learned her trans friends have succeeded. There is depictions of religious prejudice and societal homophobia/transphobia that culminate in a girl offering to be her friend even though "I think it's a sin"...and the main character THANKS HER. A bi character is shown telling people that all homophones are secretly gay, a disturbing thing to be telling kids in a book, only to progress to publically outing everyone she can think of when turned down by the straight main character. The love interests mum calls the main character a slur, he makes horrendous comments about her gender and genitalia and then offers to stick by her anyway...for which she is endlessly grateful. Her parents allow her to return to a school that has failed to protect her in a community that has harmed her.
I'm so angry. None of this is OK, particularly when none of it is then dealt with. There's no emotional arc or growth or character development here. No one learns anything or meaningfully changes their behaviour, exception only the main characters dad. There is no reflection on the trauma being unacceptable, on the need for change or the need for support and protection of rights. The book just uses trans and queer pain as plot points and acts as though that is acceptable.
And then, in this anger, I looked up the author after finishing the book and I just cannot believe any publisher is allowing this person to speak about their community with a book that includes sexual assault. Horrendous.
Nope.
Nope, Nope, Nope, Nope, Nope.
For the first quarter or so I thought this book was underwhelming representation in a YA novel. God, I wish I'd quit still thinking that.
This book is nothing short of irresponsible publishing.
For a book marketed as a light and sweet YA romance, this book is nothing, and I truly mean nothing, other than protracted queer trauma. The main character is trans - not only does this book make her ONLY identifiable 'personality' the idea that she is pretty and trans, it perpetuates harmful misunderstandings of the trans community from the singular need for top and bottom surgery, through the lack of ongoing therapy to the young and apparently extremely quick uptake of accessible surgery.
So in some ways, this book manages to completely gloss over the very real fight transgender people go through to live as themselves in western society, thereby failing to reflect on the ways in which the main character has had to be traumatised at a young age.
What it does instead is focus entirely on the trauma she experiences socially. Her dad continually deadnames and misgenders her. There is a long scene depicting her suicide attempt not from an explanation of how often she has learned her trans friends have succeeded. There is depictions of religious prejudice and societal homophobia/transphobia that culminate in a girl offering to be her friend even though "I think it's a sin"...and the main character THANKS HER. A bi character is shown telling people that all homophones are secretly gay, a disturbing thing to be telling kids in a book, only to progress to publically outing everyone she can think of when turned down by the straight main character. The love interests mum calls the main character a slur, he makes horrendous comments about her gender and genitalia and then offers to stick by her anyway...for which she is endlessly grateful. Her parents allow her to return to a school that has failed to protect her in a community that has harmed her.
I'm so angry. None of this is OK, particularly when none of it is then dealt with. There's no emotional arc or growth or character development here. No one learns anything or meaningfully changes their behaviour, exception only the main characters dad. There is no reflection on the trauma being unacceptable, on the need for change or the need for support and protection of rights. The book just uses trans and queer pain as plot points and acts as though that is acceptable.
And then, in this anger, I looked up the author after finishing the book and I just cannot believe any publisher is allowing this person to speak about their community with a book that includes sexual assault. Horrendous.
Content Warnings
Moderate: Sexual violence, Violence, Toxic friendship, Physical abuse, Drug abuse, Homophobia, Deadnaming, Transphobia, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide attempt, Bullying, Religious bigotry, Outing, Hate crime, Suicide, and Sexual assault
babudarabu's review against another edition
emotional
hopeful
inspiring
sad
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
4.5
Content Warnings
Graphic: Medical content, Suicide attempt, Transphobia, and Outing
Moderate: Deadnaming, Homophobia, Sexual content, Dysphoria, and Violence
Minor: Alcohol, Mental illness, and Blood
fireheart_2010's review against another edition
emotional
inspiring
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? No
5.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Sexual assault, Transphobia, and Homophobia
bash5617's review against another edition
emotional
hopeful
inspiring
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? No
4.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Transphobia and Homophobia
Moderate: Suicide attempt
Minor: Suicide
reclusivebookslug's review against another edition
emotional
hopeful
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
3.5
You gotta love a book with a trans main character, written by a trans author, with a trans model on the cover.
This was one of the first books I read about trans people when I was younger, at a time when I didn't hold any animosity toward them but was deeply uninformed on the topic. Looking back now as someone with a better grasp on the queer community, I still enjoy it. In many ways, Amanda's experience is rare, in a way that makes her story more understandable and palatable to those innocently ignorant. I admire how the author addresses this at the end of the book. I think there's some merit to introducing people to a new concept by starting with something they're more familiar with, as long as that image does not invalidate others. At the same time, Amanda is not the platonic ideal of a trans person for a cis audience, either, which balances things out for me. The book discusses her dysphoria, mental health issues, bullying, experience with transphobic hate crime, fear of rejection, and guilt about how her gender has affected her family and for "hiding" her identity from her peers in a new town.
I can't comment on the realism or relatability of the trans issues discussed, except to say that I have heard similar from other trans people, but I will say that the description of mental health issues, in particular suicidal ideation, mirrors my own experiences.
The ending, or lack thereof, is both frustrating and thematically important. It doesn't matter if she gets the guy at the end, that's out of her control. The important thing is that she has learned to accept herself and realize that she deserves love (whether or not that love comes from a specific person being mostly irrelevant). Grant does not get to determine whether or not her story has a happy ending, she does. On the other hand... I was rooting for them to be together and part of me desperately wants a fluffy monologue. The closure we get about her friends sticking by her in part makes up for the lack of romantic closure, and the friendship aspect is in many ways more important for her character.
This was one of the first books I read about trans people when I was younger, at a time when I didn't hold any animosity toward them but was deeply uninformed on the topic. Looking back now as someone with a better grasp on the queer community, I still enjoy it. In many ways, Amanda's experience is rare, in a way that makes her story more understandable and palatable to those innocently ignorant. I admire how the author addresses this at the end of the book. I think there's some merit to introducing people to a new concept by starting with something they're more familiar with, as long as that image does not invalidate others. At the same time, Amanda is not the platonic ideal of a trans person for a cis audience, either, which balances things out for me. The book discusses her dysphoria, mental health issues, bullying, experience with transphobic hate crime, fear of rejection, and guilt about how her gender has affected her family and for "hiding" her identity from her peers in a new town.
I can't comment on the realism or relatability of the trans issues discussed, except to say that I have heard similar from other trans people, but I will say that the description of mental health issues, in particular suicidal ideation, mirrors my own experiences.
Content Warnings
Moderate: Suicide attempt
Minor: Homophobia, Hate crime, and Transphobia
lilikamasha's review against another edition
dark
emotional
hopeful
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
4.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Outing, Bullying, Suicide attempt, and Transphobia
Moderate: Rape, Dysphoria, Sexual assault, Suicidal thoughts, Homophobia, Religious bigotry, Sexual violence, Biphobia, Gun violence, Deadnaming, Hate crime, Mental illness, and Violence
Minor: Suicide
queenfury's review against another edition
emotional
hopeful
reflective
sad
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
3.5
Content Warnings
Graphic: Transphobia, Deadnaming, Suicide attempt, and Homophobia
Moderate: Hate crime, Sexual assault, Outing, Religious bigotry, and Bullying
bronsonmh's review against another edition
challenging
dark
emotional
informative
sad
tense
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.5
This book was just wow. I really enjoyed reading it. It was very raw and powerful. I thought it was a great character based book. Amanda was such a strong character with a great voice. Granted this is the first book that I have read in which the main character was trans so I did not know so much about what they really go through. This book was a start of a great education for me. I would love to learn more about them and try to understand them to the best of my abilities. I listened to it as an audio book and thought it was a great choice. Also I highly recommend people to read or listen to the authors note. She talks about how this is her telling a story and things might not happen so easy in real life, but it really is a great positive way for people to think. I also liked the idea of flash back chapters to when Amanda was Andrew and her journey to become who she really wanted to be. The only issue I have with the book is some of the writing style and a little bit with the plot. For awhile I was trying to figure out what the main plot story was, but since this was character based I understand. And sometimes I did not like how the chapters jumped sometimes like from one scene to the next so fast you have no idea how you got there. Other than that I think it is a great read and a great debut novel. Hope to read more from her soon.
Content Warnings
Moderate: Drug use, Mental illness, Outing, Transphobia, Hate crime, and Homophobia