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xarson's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
5.0
Graphic: Transphobia, Panic attacks/disorders, Emotional abuse, Dysphoria, Religious bigotry, Mental illness, Abandonment, Domestic abuse, Violence, Homophobia, and Bullying
Moderate: Alcohol
Minor: Pregnancy and Islamophobia
mavemarie's review
- Plot- or character-driven? Plot
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.25
Moderate: Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Deadnaming, Dysphoria, Outing, Child abuse, Emotional abuse, Homophobia, and Islamophobia
Minor: Islamophobia, Transphobia, Racism, Mental illness, and Panic attacks/disorders
elerireads's review
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? No
3.0
Graphic: Transphobia
Moderate: Homophobia
Minor: Islamophobia, Mental illness, and Child abuse
torispring's review
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? No
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.5
Graphic: Panic attacks/disorders, Mental illness, and Transphobia
Moderate: Homophobia, Gaslighting, Abandonment, Dysphoria, and Religious bigotry
Minor: Child abuse and Islamophobia
emily_mh's review
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? No
3.25
On the other hand, I think some other rep and information was not done well. For example, I really wish Nathan had been fleshed out as a character. It kind of felt like Deaver took the stereotypical "golden retriever" LI archetype and left it at that, giving him no motivations or desires unrelated to Ben. While it was obvious Ben and Nathan had a connection, one I was rooting for, it still felt like I barely knew Nathan. This is the book's biggest issue, because I think it is an example of the situation that readers and reviewers of the global majority have been pointing out for ages, where white authors write a LI of the global majority whose only purpose in the book is to assist the white MC in their development. If I am wrong here or out of my lane, I will fully delete this review. I wanted to flag it in case I wasn't.
On top of this, the book presents some misinformation about being gay, ace, and aro. It implies that a nonbinary person like Ben cannot be gay because being gay is about being attracted to the same gender, and as Ben doesn't have a gender, they cannot experience same-gender attraction. In reality, being gay is simply about non-women being attracted to non-women. This is the quote I am referring to:
"And besides, I don’t exactly have a gender, and being gay implies being interested in the same gender."
It also implies that to be ace or aro is to be touch averse, when only some aces and aros are touch averse - it's this very piece of misinformation that means so many aces and aros don't realise they are asexual or aromantic for ages. Literally a simple "some" in this sentence would have fixed this misinformation:
“'Touch aversion can be common in people who deal with panic attacks, or people dealing with anxiety. In fact, there are some people who are just born or develop that way, like asexual or aromantic people.'”
So, yeah. Do with this what you will.
Rep: bisexual NB MC, bisexual LI of the global majority (ethnicity not explicitly stated), Bahraini Shia Muslim pansexual NB SC, Chinese-American SC, SC of the global majority (Ben's therapist Dr. Taylor, whose ethnicity is also not explicitly stated), Black SC (implied, ethnicity not explicitly stated), Korean-American SC with ADHD
Graphic: Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, and Transphobia
Moderate: Abandonment and Cursing
Minor: Ableism, Alcohol, Death, Physical abuse, Drug use, Medical content, Misogyny, Outing, Pregnancy, Sexual content, Domestic abuse, Injury/Injury detail, Islamophobia, Sexual assault, Homophobia, Suicidal thoughts, and Vomit
Major: disownment, misgendering (mostly uninformed as Ben isn't out to most people) Moderate: body dysmorphia Minor: one implied use of the transphobic t-slur, suicidal ideation, off-page use of the homophobic f-slur, 1 HP reference, menstruationpsliz's review
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Graphic: Transphobia, Panic attacks/disorders, Homophobia, Mental illness, Child abuse, and Dysphoria
Moderate: Suicidal thoughts
Minor: Islamophobia, Alcohol, and Vomit
alexlily's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
5.0
Graphic: Abandonment, Emotional abuse, Outing, Deadnaming, Panic attacks/disorders, Dysphoria, Gaslighting, Homophobia, Mental illness, and Transphobia
Moderate: Stalking and Physical abuse
Minor: Pregnancy, Islamophobia, and Religious bigotry
sam_crl's review
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
I knew I would probably like this book because of its premise but I never thought it would hit me quite so hard. Ben is just so similar to me in almost every aspect that I felt their pain way too hard. I cried more than once and I almost never cry when reading, so that‘s something to consider.
Seeing someone like me, a queer non-binary teen who struggles with mental disorders, find love and friends and people who make them happy made me so emotional because I realized that this was the first time I‘d actually seen something like that in books. It felt like the author looked into my mind and brought the thoughts to paper in the form of this book.
I can sincerely say that this book changed my life and I thank Mason Deaver with all my heart for writing it because it made me believe that people like me can actually have a life worth writing stories about.
Graphic: Abandonment, Dysphoria, Outing, Transphobia, Gaslighting, Homophobia, Panic attacks/disorders, and Islamophobia
kaii's review
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
3.75
Graphic: Panic attacks/disorders, Transphobia, and Mental illness
Moderate: Dysphoria, Emotional abuse, Homophobia, and Abandonment
Minor: Islamophobia, Outing, Physical abuse, Stalking, Misogyny, and Alcohol
dhwani's review
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
4.0
Graphic: Abandonment, Panic attacks/disorders, and Transphobia
Moderate: Islamophobia