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hazelgrace2411's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Where to start? Firstly the writing. I cannot stress enough that Hanya's writing is terrific. It is so subtle yet so merciless. She has done an incredible job of laying out the cruel reality of life. She keeps us readers engaged from the start till the very end. Her book is like an onion, peeling away each aspect of life.
I was so immersed in the story and all of the characters. I love Jude and Willem, and Harold, Julia, Andy, Malcolm, and JB. All of their dynamics with Jude and their selfless love and genuine care for him almost balanced out the traumatising parts of the book. This book is dark and whenever I came across those details, I had to put away the book and just stare blankly at the wall, wondering how can a human being be capable of such cruelty. I was so angry at those parts that I genuinely wanted to physically harm each one of them and make them pay for every bad thing they ever did to a child. Jude went through so much at such a small age. He didn't deserve any of those things. Nobody deserves it.
I am glad that Jude got to experience friendship and the true love and care of his parents. I feel for him. He didn't deserve any of it and the severe trauma he went through defined his whole life. He was never able to overcome any of it his entire life.
I thought I would ugly cry reading this book but I braved it all: Jude's past trauma, his abusive relationship with Cardan, Willem's death. But I broke at the very end. I thought Jude would live but he took his life after all. It was Harold's words that broke me and made me cry. Jude took away his life because he couldn't tolerate life anymore and he died believing all those words that his abusers wanted him to believe. He died thinking he was unworthy of all the love. He died believing he was worthless and this breaks my heart so much. Jude is going to be one of the fictional characters that I will have the most empathy for. He deserves all the love in the world.
This book is a reality check. These things happening to Jude are not fiction. My favorite John Green quote is- Life is not a wish-granting factory. We live among monsters and this world is surviving only because of people like Willem, Harold, Julia, Andy, Malcolm, JB, Irvines, and Richard.
This book breaks your heart and takes away a part of your soul. It is eye-opening. I know I will think about this book. I will think about Jude and how much he endured, and how evil men could be.
Favorite Quotes~
'Friendship, companionship: it so often defied logic, so often eluded the deserving, so often settled itself on the odd, the bad, the peculiar, the damaged.' (pg 91-92)
'... things get broken, and sometimes they get repaired, and in most cases, you realize that no matter what gets damaged, life rearranges itself to compensate for your loss, sometimes wonderfully.' (pg 133-134)
'... because to be alive was to worry. Life was scary; it was unknowable.' (pg 500)
'We're all dying. He just knew his death would come sooner than he had planned. But that doesn't mean they weren't happy years, that it wasn't a happy life.' (pg 621)
'He had looked at Jude, then, and had felt that same sensation he sometimes did when he thought, really thought of Jude and what his life had been: a sadness, he might have called it, but it wasn't a pitying sadness; it was a larger sadness, one that seemed to encompass all the poor striving people, the billions he didn't know, all living their lives, a sadness that mingled with a wonder and awe at how hard humans everywhere tried to live, even when their days were so very difficult, even when their circumstances were so wretched. Life is so sad, he would think in those moments. It's so sad, and yet we all do it. We all cling to it; we all search for something to give us solace.' (pg 621)
'It isn't only that he died, or how he died; it is what he died believing. And so I try to be kind to everything I see, and in everything I see, I see him.' (pg 720)
Graphic: Child abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Toxic relationship, Violence, and Suicide attempt
maeve_simone's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.75
Graphic: Child abuse, Rape, Self harm, and Suicidal thoughts
Moderate: Death, Domestic abuse, Eating disorder, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Physical abuse, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Suicide, Toxic relationship, Grief, and Suicide attempt
Minor: Child death, Drug use, Toxic relationship, and Vomit
ajseyler's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? No
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Graphic: Ableism, Child abuse, Drug use, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, and Toxic relationship
slincoln26's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Graphic: Adult/minor relationship, Body horror, Child abuse, Death, Domestic abuse, Pedophilia, Rape, Self harm, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Blood, Trafficking, Kidnapping, Suicide attempt, and Injury/Injury detail
lizreads10's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.0
Graphic: Addiction, Child abuse, Death, Drug abuse, Drug use, Eating disorder, Panic attacks/disorders, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Blood, Vomit, Medical content, Trafficking, Grief, Medical trauma, Suicide attempt, and Injury/Injury detail
honeyjackets's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
3.5
Graphic: Adult/minor relationship, Body shaming, Bullying, Child abuse, Chronic illness, Emotional abuse, Homophobia, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Toxic relationship, Violence, Grief, Medical trauma, Suicide attempt, Toxic friendship, Sexual harassment, and Injury/Injury detail
chrisstibbs's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Graphic: Ableism, Adult/minor relationship, Body shaming, Child abuse, Chronic illness, Emotional abuse, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Toxic relationship, Violence, Grief, Car accident, Suicide attempt, Abandonment, and Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Cursing, Drug use, Eating disorder, and Forced institutionalization
rachel_emily22's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Graphic: Ableism, Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Biphobia, Body horror, Body shaming, Bullying, Child abuse, Chronic illness, Confinement, Cursing, Deadnaming, Death, Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Eating disorder, Emotional abuse, Gore, Homophobia, Incest, Infidelity, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Forced institutionalization, Blood, Vomit, Medical content, Dementia, Trafficking, Kidnapping, Grief, Religious bigotry, Medical trauma, Car accident, Suicide attempt, Death of parent, Acephobia/Arophobia, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Fire/Fire injury, Outing, Gaslighting, Abandonment, Alcohol, Sexual harassment, Dysphoria, and Injury/Injury detail
leiloooni's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.0
Graphic: Death, Drug abuse, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Toxic relationship, Violence, Car accident, Suicide attempt, and Injury/Injury detail
cturn's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.0
Atmosphere - 6
Writing - 9
Plot - 9
Intrigue - 7
Logic - 8
Enjoyment - 7
CAWPILE score - 7.9
Sad is an understatement for this book. Its hard to rate such a sad book for enjoyment lol. I see what people mean when they call it trauma porn but I don't see it as quite that. However I found that as a reader, the effect of each revelation of Jude's past was less and less each reveal, as if I was desensitised to it as more was revealed. I particularly enjoyed when characters were introspective and reflecting on their actions and both positives and negatives of their own personality, when they knew they were being irrational, etc - I think those were my favourite parts to read about. I didn't sob over this book like you see a lot of people on tiktok doing, but I did cry at the end and I will think about this story, these characters that we got to know so well, for a long time.
Graphic: Adult/minor relationship, Body shaming, Child abuse, Death, Mental illness, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Toxic relationship, Trafficking, Grief, Suicide attempt, and Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Addiction, Child death, Drug abuse, Drug use, Infidelity, Panic attacks/disorders, Religious bigotry, Car accident, and Death of parent
Minor: Vomit and Abandonment