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camicarreno's review against another edition
4.0
Qué doloroso es leer este libro. Es una novela en parte sobre el bullying, sobre la amistad, sobre crecer, sobre las relaciones entre adolescentes y entre adolescentes y sus padres. A ratos cuesta leerlo, pero vale la pena.
sweetsxrrxw's review against another edition
dark
emotional
reflective
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
3.75
this was both my first kieko kawakmi book and the first book i've read after a very long slump. to avoid falling back into a slump, i kinda overstimulated myself and i decided to read the english edition (while listening to the audiobook) and also the spanish one. and yeah i feel like this hyperstimulation made me understand the book better although i noticed a couple differences between the editions which me feel like ??? the most jarring one was by the end of the book: while in the spanish edition the narrator has seen his biological mother and, therefore, knows she had a lazy eye too, in the english edition he doesn't. and i thought that's such a small but important detail because it can build or destroy a solid reason to explain his choices.
anyway, have i enjoyed reading this? pretty much! would i reccomend the book? hmmm, it depends; not to everyone, that's for sure. and, of course, check the trigger warnings, because most of them are pretty graphic.
i believe on the main points of the story was to show us a somewhat flat character surrounded by differing opinions on what to do or how to cope with his situation and which one was better to settle for. personally, i like reading stories about characters facing hardships and their choping mechanisms to deal with them and i don't dislike stories that talk about bullying. and i really enjoyed the premise of two hurt people bonding over fear. their friendship was beautiful and, even though it didn't suffer huge changes, it was nice to see how it evolved with time and how they found a safe space in each other's company.it's a shame that by the end of the book they never got to meet again
but definitely my favorite part was the second half of the book.i just felt so many emotions while reading it. the volleyball bullying scene was totally the most devastating one in the book and i felt a knot in my stomach while reading it (i even had to take a little pause before i kept reading). however that same gut-wrenching scene led to many outstanding scenes such as the portrayal of the kids' philosophies. while i did not specially agree with their ways, i understood kojima and momose's opposed ideals. i mean, they both made good points at some part of their monologues.
oh and i think one of my favorite relationships in the book was the one the narrator had with his stepmom. at first she seemed like a distant person but by the end of the book both mother and son could find some kind of comfort in each other. and trust me, i was so so happy when he finally told her about the bullying and she made him change schools and later also supported him in the surgery process.
as for the last scene, it was a perfect bittersweet ending to the story.once again i felt so happy that the main character was healed and saw the beauty of some parts of the city he used to hate so much. but at the same time it was heartbreaking to realize he didn't have anyone to share that beauty with :(
i feel like this could have been a 4 star read if it wasn't for a couple reasons:
anyway, have i enjoyed reading this? pretty much! would i reccomend the book? hmmm, it depends; not to everyone, that's for sure. and, of course, check the trigger warnings, because most of them are pretty graphic.
i believe on the main points of the story was to show us a somewhat flat character surrounded by differing opinions on what to do or how to cope with his situation and which one was better to settle for. personally, i like reading stories about characters facing hardships and their choping mechanisms to deal with them and i don't dislike stories that talk about bullying. and i really enjoyed the premise of two hurt people bonding over fear. their friendship was beautiful and, even though it didn't suffer huge changes, it was nice to see how it evolved with time and how they found a safe space in each other's company.
but definitely my favorite part was the second half of the book.
oh and i think one of my favorite relationships in the book was the one the narrator had with his stepmom. at first she seemed like a distant person but by the end of the book both mother and son could find some kind of comfort in each other. and trust me, i was so so happy when he finally told her about the bullying and she made him change schools and later also supported him in the surgery process.
as for the last scene, it was a perfect bittersweet ending to the story.
i feel like this could have been a 4 star read if it wasn't for a couple reasons:
- the two scenes where we get a fairly detailed description of the narrator, a 14 year old, masturbating.
like yeah i understand how he does it only to calm down when he is feeling super tense and distressed but they could have totally been black out scenes. - i know i said the philosophy of some characters was interesting (and so is the polarity between them) but.. they're 14. i think at that age one might be able to think of some of those points, but it would have felt more truthful if they were, at least, two years older.
but yeah, overall, i think it's a worthy read!
Content Warnings
Graphic: Medical content, Physical abuse, Blood, Ableism, Bullying, Injury/Injury detail, Violence, and Suicidal thoughts
Moderate: Eating disorder, Self harm, Sexual harassment, and Suicide
whitneysederberg's review against another edition
dark
reflective
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
3.25
agonizing. beautiful prose. but i was definitely expecting more substance from this, was prepared for something profound. their friendship wasn’t totally convincing to me and i didn’t understand it to be that different from any other transient relationship we make at this age. but kojima’s philosophy about absorbing the bullies’ actions was compelling,, her discussion of true strength and desperation to derive meaning from suffering. would have loved more development on the heaven motif.
mellbutrin's review against another edition
emotional
reflective
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? No
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
3.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Bullying and Suicidal thoughts
Minor: Self harm
antra's review against another edition
5.0
heartbreaking the way trauma binds and that your pain can serve a meaning without u having yourself so immersed in it that u loose on life and that nothing really ever has a meaning just living the way u want does i still believe that dont hurt others tho ovio
sonyatheultimatereadinggod's review against another edition
challenging
dark
emotional
reflective
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? No
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.5
The descriptions hurt me physically and the writing kept me hooked. No sentence was filler. I liked the students’ philosophical POVs even though some were a bit crazy and unrealistic for 14 year olds. I like the way the author paints imagery and tells the story in a succinct but powerful way.
jenniey3's review against another edition
4.0
once again, judging a book by its cover is a strategy that continues to pay off.
clovermoon's review against another edition
dark
emotional
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.0