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Where I Was from

Joan Didion

3.79 AVERAGE

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What a fucking writer. Didion's command over language and sentence structure is really something. I had heard that all before. But as a political thinker, she's just as interesting. She has complicated impulses โ€” weary of change, but too clear-eyed to see the past of California as the kitschy hotel art would depict it. Dry, ironic, unsentimental in dispatching bullshit but she's not heartless. She writes lean, winding sentences but she layers so much meaning them through context that I wasn't expecting to be so affected by those last few lines at her mother's death bed.

I saw a blurb on the cover refer to this as a love song to California. I think that's not quite it: it's a break-up song for someone you love but you can't stay with anymore. Where you were from, not where you are from. 
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"๐˜”๐˜ถ๐˜ค๐˜ฉ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜Š๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฏ๐˜ช๐˜ข ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ง ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ฑ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ, ๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜บ: ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ๐˜ธ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด, ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜”๐˜ฐ๐˜ซ๐˜ข๐˜ท๐˜ฆ (๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ง๐˜ฆ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ฉ), ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜‰๐˜ช๐˜จ ๐˜š๐˜ถ๐˜ณ, ๐˜”๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ ๐˜“๐˜ข๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ, ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜จ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ท๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜š๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ณ๐˜ข.., ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ค๐˜ฉ, ๐˜’๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜š๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฐ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต, "๐˜ฐ๐˜ง๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜Š๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฏ๐˜ช๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ด ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฃ๐˜ซ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ช๐˜ณ ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฎ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ด: ๐˜ข ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฑ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฃ๐˜บ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ช๐˜ค ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ด."

I read this years ago when I did not appreciate Didion, when I did not even appreciate California, where I'm from. For the longest time, I did not like where I was from. I went north for school, San Francisco. Then I went south, sometimes, for friends, the frat parties in Santa Barbara and a boy down in San Diego. When I think back, look back, a lot of heart overwhelms me. The golden shimmers of Isla Vista, the sunsets in LA. All of it overwhelms me.

Years after, and even years after for Didion to compile this book, it's tough to piece together what California really is. Didion looks at her own history, the history of California, and half of it is a bit dull, until she gets to how she formed Run River and, finally, about her mother and the death of her mother.

"๐˜ž๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ง๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฑ๐˜ต ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ท๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ. ๐˜ž๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ญ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต."

I wish she stayed here, more, in the last few pages of the book because it's then you really get the sense of what California is for her. What she has carried with her, how she has created legacy.

It is no fault by Didion, but California is just an impossible thing to capture. Past its mountains and through its valleys. It's beaches and it's people. God, the people. The food. The single season.

I'm so proud to say I'm from California because it contains multitudes no one will understand unless you've driven down the gnarled streets of Mulholland Drive or spent a 4/20 weekend in Isla Vista or have cried at the top of Land's End, on a clear day, seeing the Golden Gate Bridge imagining the future as a stretched possibility, people coming people going, into your life.

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this maybe wasnโ€™t the best joan didion to start my journey on, but it was lovely nonetheless. a mural of california history from the perspective of her family. made me think about what it means to be from where you are from. 
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I absolutely adored it, but it feels disingenuous to give it 5. No one write in such a way as Joan Didion, itโ€™s like reading a journal of your older, wiser, far more intelligent, Californian self. Itโ€™s entrancing and achingly beautiful and earnest. 
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This one took me a while to get into, but it is an interesting and insightful account of Didion's America.

 Joan Didion was a phenomenal writer, but Americans just arenโ€™t as interesting as they think they are