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beccabees's review against another edition
5.0
Graphic: Homophobia, Emotional abuse, Racial slurs, Religious bigotry, Sexism, Toxic relationship, Injury/Injury detail, Blood, Body horror, Car accident, Domestic abuse, Violence, Child abuse, Animal cruelty, Fire/Fire injury, Gaslighting, Medical trauma, and Misogyny
scoobygirl93's review against another edition
4.0
Graphic: Body horror, Body shaming, Gore, Grief, Violence, Xenophobia, Chronic illness, Cursing, Abandonment, Ableism, Gaslighting, Animal cruelty, Animal death, Antisemitism, Blood, Bullying, Cancer, Car accident, Child abuse, Domestic abuse, Racism, Stalking, Gun violence, Injury/Injury detail, Medical trauma, Police brutality, Vomit, Fire/Fire injury, Misogyny, Panic attacks/disorders, Racial slurs, Religious bigotry, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Terminal illness, Torture, Toxic relationship, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Physical abuse, Death, Medical content, Pregnancy, and Sexism
matonnhermann's review against another edition
4.75
Graphic: Animal death, Child abuse, Gaslighting, Blood, Medical trauma, Misogyny, Animal cruelty, Body horror, Body shaming, Pregnancy, Adult/minor relationship, Car accident, Emotional abuse, Injury/Injury detail, Mental illness, Abandonment, Hate crime, Panic attacks/disorders, Toxic relationship, Violence, and Physical abuse
Moderate: Fire/Fire injury
genderqueer_hiker's review against another edition
0.5
I very much hope the author has found peace and safety outside of this story, but this unfiltered, unconsidered childhood narrative seems intent on titillating rather than offering anything of substance. We're encouraging to gawk, as if this is truly uncommon or unheard of. It sells the lie that only the mix of fundamentalism and (possible) mental health issues are to blame for these outcomes. The author is either unaware of her readers or just doesn't care about us - she has not done any work to tell this story without retraumatizing. She never owns any of her family's behavior as abuse - she makes excuses for them at every point. Bipolar disorder is offered up as a weak foil, but even she undermines that partial explanation by using her current voice to dismiss it as an immature consideration. She still seems incredibly early or stalled in her process.
Also, when did she attend college, that she could work a cheap summer job and have money to pay for college by herself? A lot of the money details don't make sense. It was also weird to not find out until she goes to college that she doesn't wash, and that's the norm in her family? Comments are made about her family house smelling like rot later on, but no consideration of why that might be.
This story really just felt like the author trying to find an audience for her to repeat the narrative and lore she's created to cushion her psyche. It lacked authenticity, and it's rather unusual to have a clearly unreliable narrator in a memoir. After reading it, I felt like the entire book was meant to pull a fast one, telling me a very creative fiction.
With more thought, it also bothers me that there is no mention of the police or social services being called. Perhaps Idaho is different than other places; perhaps their family was known and feared. But it doesn't make sense that particularly Shawn's publicly violent assaults of both family and local youth and their two car accidents with unregistered and uninsured vehicles never met with closer scrutiny from law enforcement. Also, given her family environment as described, I suspect sexual abuse was also part of her and/or her sister's experiences, but that is not mentioned at any point.
I also don't understand why people went out of their way to be nice to her after she left home. She writes her younger self as very abrasive, judgemental, and rude, yet people reached out and tried to nuture and take care of her (e.g., Robin and the Bishop at college). She's very socially awkward; people don't like that. Maybe BYU is more used to trying to tame feral young people from fundamentalist sects? Maybe she was very pretty? There's no reflection on why she was granted far more opportunities than most other children of separatist households (or even her own).
Graphic: Fire/Fire injury, Child abuse, Domestic abuse, Misogyny, Racial slurs, Religious bigotry, Sexism, Bullying, Medical trauma, Emotional abuse, Animal cruelty, Animal death, Gore, Physical abuse, Toxic relationship, Violence, Blood, Body horror, Car accident, Gaslighting, Injury/Injury detail, and Medical content
rebah's review against another edition
5.0
Graphic: Religious bigotry, Fire/Fire injury, Blood, Torture, Abandonment, Medical trauma, Mental illness, Animal cruelty, Death, Domestic abuse, Gaslighting, Racial slurs, Body shaming, Sexism, Child abuse, Sexual violence, Grief, Gun violence, Cancer, Car accident, Injury/Injury detail, Emotional abuse, Medical content, Animal death, Body horror, Bullying, Genocide, Classism, Cursing, Dementia, Toxic relationship, Violence, Adult/minor relationship, Hate crime, Physical abuse, and Schizophrenia/Psychosis
gypdrop's review against another edition
5.0
Graphic: Emotional abuse, Child abuse, and Domestic abuse
Moderate: Emotional abuse and Body horror
Minor: Animal cruelty and Animal death
scanlona's review against another edition
5.0
Graphic: Fire/Fire injury, Animal cruelty, Animal death, Domestic abuse, Body horror, Gaslighting, Bullying, Child abuse, and Emotional abuse
ameliannelise99's review against another edition
4.5
Graphic: Racial slurs, Violence, Religious bigotry, Animal cruelty, Xenophobia, and Body horror
tigerkind's review against another edition
4.5
Graphic: Fire/Fire injury, Child death, Death, Animal death, Antisemitism, Blood, Car accident, Mental illness, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Gore, Grief, Physical abuse, Racism, Religious bigotry, Toxic relationship, Violence, Injury/Injury detail, Racial slurs, Animal cruelty, Body shaming, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Self harm, Sexism, Gaslighting, Body horror, Medical trauma, Misogyny, Panic attacks/disorders, Bullying, Child abuse, and Medical content
Moderate: Classism, Slavery, Pregnancy, Gun violence, Cancer, and Terminal illness
Minor: Genocide, Islamophobia, Murder, and Police brutality
erisouls's review against another edition
5.0
Graphic: Emotional abuse, Gaslighting, Injury/Injury detail, Mental illness, Physical abuse, Violence, Panic attacks/disorders, Domestic abuse, Fire/Fire injury, Religious bigotry, Toxic relationship, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Misogyny, Blood, Car accident, Abandonment, Animal death, and Body horror