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By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead by Julie Anne Peters

booklover160's review against another edition

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3.0

I found and read this book at a very dark time in my life (surprise!) and I have to admit, I never finished it. It scared me how much I identified with Daelyn and I didn't want to finish the book if it meant she died (when I read it, I was determined that if she went through with it, I would too).

This is a good read in the way that it is eye opening. It's painful, raw, and emotional. I need to go back and reread it, but if you're in the wrong mindset, it could do more harm than good.

Don't be afraid to use this resource: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

sidnarwhal's review against another edition

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1.0

This book is a tragic waste of time. The character is a spoiled, annoying brat and the writing style is very blunt, lacking the necessary depth that is needed in these type of stories.
Disclaimer: I'm not saying this because of any bias against suicide or suicide victims or depressed individuals or any other nonsense.
The book did not establish any emotional depth in any of the characters, thus destroying any possibility of experiencing any empathy or connection with any of the characters. Also, because of the basic language used throughout, it was very difficult to become absorbed into the story.

hikool101's review against another edition

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1.0

3/10

itsrafaela's review against another edition

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3.0

"Eu sou o produto de todas as dores que alguma vez me foram impostas."

Este livro dá-me mixed feelings. Por um lado, consegui espelhar-me nesta protagonista e compreender os seus sentimentos e a sua forma de pensar; por outro, não pude deixar de sentir que esta abordagem não era a melhor para contar a história dela. Nem considero que este livro seja adequado a adolescentes ou jovens particularmente sensíveis. Na verdade, mesmo para adultos ele é pesado demais.

Há duas formas de olhar para ele, e elas são tão opostas que é realmente difícil decidir qual delas é dominante.

1) É um retrato cru, frio, duro de uma adolescência extremamente depressiva e com pensamentos su1c1das profundamente perturbadores. E nesse sentido, é uma forma prática de entrar na cabeça do que uma menina de 14 anos, que vivencia o bullying e não consegue escapar da dor dentro dela, e entender e sentir o que ela sente, o seu desespero, o seu desgosto com a vida.

2) É um retrato insensível, demasiado gráfico, com detalhes que podem colocar leitores sensíveis em perigo, com pouco ou nenhum cuidado em ser respeitoso para com o problema que procura debater. Chegaria a considerá-lo um manual de como cometer su1c1d1o camuflado sob a premissa de uma história realista.

Creio que é um pouco dos dois e, ao mesmo tempo, sinto que só pode ser um. Por isso dei-lhe três estrelas: pelo benefício da dúvida, e pelo perigo que representa para as pessoas que procura representar.

captkaty's review against another edition

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3.0

Provocative, but not for the sake of being provocative. Honest about a really disturbing issue.

I really hated the ending, though. I think it was obvious that she was going to kill herself and the open ending was just an excuse for her not to have to write that uber-depressing ending.

stinamirabilis's review against another edition

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3.0

While the author did quite a good job capturing the inner thought process of a suicidal teenager, I think she forgets the fragility of her audience at times. The likelihood is that a large part of the her audience are going to be impressionable and possibly suicidal teenagers, and writing explicitly about suicide methods can be risky. However, I think she treated the plot and the characters well, and I did enjoy the story.

marco_dexie's review against another edition

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dark slow-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? No
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

2.0

mellabella's review against another edition

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4.0

The ending was what kept me from giving me this book 5 stars. By the Time You Read This I'll Be Dead is about Daelyn Rice and the relentless bullying that she endured from about elementary school to her current teenage years. The bullying that ultimately led her to attempt suicide a few times. When the book starts she is recovering from drinking an ammonia/bleach combo and wearing a neck brace. It's a painful read. There are far too many kids that feel alone and that are being bullied to the point of suicide all the time. You get to know Daelyn. The things that have been done to her in the past. All the times she trusted someone only to have them betray her trust horribly. Her parents were absolutely clueless. Then a nice, cute guy turns up that wants to get to know her. She can't even let her guard down a little. Not even when she finds out he's sick. The ending was ambiguous to me. I understand that she was dead set on "completing" her suicide this time. Most clues point to her actually going trough with it. But at the same time, there was a little spark of hope that she may not have. Santana's character was my favorite. I've known people like him. Even when faced with a possible terminal illness, they still put on a positive face. This would be a good read for just about anyone regardless of age.

kice7788's review against another edition

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5.0

This was my second time reading this and I still love it! great book to deal with bulling! Julie anne peters is such a great author and truly knows how to make people feel the exact emotions the characters are feeling.

scearceka's review against another edition

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5.0

This is such a powerful, yet heartbreaking, book about the effects of bullying and how it can ultimately lead someone to commit suicide, or "bullycide". It also has wonderful resources at the end, including discussion questions about the book, as well as statistics about bullying and suicide and hotlines/websites for those who are being bullied or contemplating suicide. I would highly recommend this book to anyone who is involved in education, especially at the middle/high school levels, as well as those who have children at that age, but I also think everyone could benefit from seeing this perspective. It'll make you think twice (or, it *should*, anyway) before using that derogatory term to refer to your friends when they do something stupid, or before laughing at someone because they're different than you. Five stars.