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i thought all the tiktoks and hype was glazing.
NO THE FUCK IT WASNT!!!!!
this book has done irreversible damage to me because there was genuinely no reason for it to be THAT addicting like holy shit i finished this entire thing in a day even though i was busy as hell. like. i was reading this shit in public. i picked this up in barnes and noble and expected to read the first few pages, maybe to buy and download it on my phone, but i genuinely couldn’t put it down. what the fuck. i hate buying physical books especially at full price. so this was me exploring a new part of me just like bran HA HA
okay okay now i need to get into what genuinely made this probably my #1 book of the year:
NIKOLAI AND BRANDON DONT FIX EACH OTHER THEY HEAL EACH OTHER
it is so easy to create a plot which revolves around both LIs being fucked in the head and to just have them magically fixed with #power of love, and to an untrained eye this book MAY seem like it fits in that category. but absolutely FUCKING not!!! they STRUGGLE, they RELAPSE, THEY ARE REAL
and also…the PROGRESSION… wow…to see them both evolve, to become more like each other and admire each others’ lifestyle but while staying true and authentic to themselves..???? peak. just peak.
i genuinely really liked both characters SO MUCH from the literal get go, which i think is a major factor in how enjoyable this book was. i literally cannot choose if i like nikolai or brandon more as a character because they’re both like their own seasoning, they completely excel at what they are, but they’re completely different and somehow infinitely better when combined. ik some people found nikolai naming his dingaling weird but i fear this isn’t the weirdest thing he’s done guys 😭😭 also i fear ive named both of my boobs years before i read this book so like it’s not that uncommon guys! nikolai is me in another universe. anyways BRANDON wow he’s chefs kiss, i completely enjoyed all of his POVs because he’s absolutely nothing like me and i love seeing different ways of thinking. also, his entire arc, backstory, thoughts…dude i was in the TRENCHES for this guy, i was looking all melancholy out the window like i knew him personally!!!
additionally i fear opposites attract and grumpy x sunshine are my two ABSOLUTE FAVORITE tropes so like no wonder im glazing the fuck out of this
TL;DR
READ RHE FUCKING BOOK ALREADYYYYYYYY 😁
Graphic: Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Alcoholism, Cursing, Emotional abuse, Panic attacks/disorders, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Toxic relationship, Blood, Stalking, Suicide attempt, Murder, Alcohol, Sexual harassment, Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Homophobia, Sexism, Acephobia/Arophobia
Graphic: Self harm, Sexual assault
Moderate: Mental illness
Minor: Addiction
Graphic: Addiction, Alcoholism, Body shaming, Bullying, Child abuse, Death, Drug abuse, Eating disorder, Emotional abuse, Gore, Gun violence, Homophobia, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Violence, Blood, Grief, Suicide attempt, Murder, Gaslighting, Abandonment, Alcohol, Sexual harassment, Dysphoria, Injury/Injury detail
Graphic: Mental illness, Pedophilia, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Suicide attempt, Sexual harassment
Moderate: Addiction, Panic attacks/disorders, Suicide, Toxic relationship, Violence
Graphic: Addiction, Biphobia, Cursing, Drug use, Emotional abuse, Gore, Homophobia, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Pedophilia, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Torture, Toxic relationship, Blood, Grief, Stalking, Suicide attempt, Murder, Gaslighting, Alcohol, Injury/Injury detail
Graphic: Child abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Murder
Moderate: Panic attacks/disorders, Pedophilia, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide attempt
Minor: Addiction, Classism
Graphic: Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Homophobia, Pedophilia, Rape, Self harm, Sexual content, Suicidal thoughts, Violence, Blood, Medical trauma, Stalking, Suicide attempt
Moderate: Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Self harm, Sexual assault, Suicidal thoughts, Violence, Blood, Suicide attempt
Graphic: Addiction, Cursing, Drug use, Emotional abuse, Homophobia, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Suicidal thoughts, Violence, Suicide attempt, Murder, Injury/Injury detail
ok look i kinda ate this up
they were very messy! but the drama is part of the fun and tbh each time they got angry at each other i believed in the reasons lmao
the mental health stuff was very sad in this but i do think it was handled respectfully, especially for a mafia romance
“college romance” and they never really went
spoilers for the second half:
grace is DUMB AS HELL. why would you leak out evidence of you grooming someone just to prove a point 😭 dumbest mofo ive ever seen
ALSO i live for father son and son in law bonding while killing the nonce. and then not burdening bran with the knowledge they killed her for him. look, imma give respect where it is due ok. it couldve easily been a drama plot point and i was happy bran never found out. some secrets ie killing ur boyfriends abuser is all good
Graphic: Mental illness, Self harm, Sexual content, Suicide attempt
Moderate: Adult/minor relationship, Homophobia, Panic attacks/disorders, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Torture, Violence, Injury/Injury detail
Minor: Addiction, Biphobia, Stalking, Fire/Fire injury, Abandonment