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Graphic: Suicidal thoughts, Violence, Stalking, Outing, Alcohol
I'll give this book 2/5 Stars.
The plot is described with a plot at page 220: "I'm weak and weird and lonely and an idiot."
The plot summarized: (SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO AND YOU DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME LIKE I DID):
Frances is learning and then doing her year 12 finals. She's head girl (but we never see her do anything for/with it). She has no real friends and likes Universe City, a podcast on YT. She then meets Aled, and they become friends, and she makes animations for the podcast. They (Daniel, Aled, Frances) get drunk on Aleds 18th birthday and post a drunken episode. A few weeks later, someone finds out that Frances is the anonymous artist for the podcast. She's not head girl anymore. Everybody finds out that Aled is the creator of universe city and they fight. They fight some more and don't speak to each other again. She's doing her Cambridge interview. She's back and talked to Aled after 3-4-5? Months of silence. His doing worse but isn't responding to anyone. After 4 more months (or so), his 4 friends drive to him and talk. The end.
Things I liked:
- I like Frances in the first third of the book. She reminded me a lot about myself when I was her age (I'm in my twenties now). I still think I'm boring, weird, and don't like partying either. So that's that.
- I like Aled as well in the beginning.
- I liked Frances mother a lot. She seemed like a good mom. But in the middle of the book - especially when she is not head girl anymore - the mother is missing from the plot
- The plot so far (until page 103) is good, too. It's not super exciting or spectacular, but ok. We get little hints about something that happened but not the full story yet.
- Carol - Aleds mother - I absolutely hated her. What she did to his hair... boundaries and human decency aren't known to her. And that's just so maddening and sad for him.
- At first, I was confused about the Universe City Episodes trough out the book. I didn't necessarily like nor hated them. They did seem a bit strange to me. But about halfway through the book, I started to realize that they are probably about his situation at home with his mom? Like the monsters chasing him and not leaving him alone. "I can take a little beating..." That this story is actually about their messed up relationship...
Things I didn't like;
- The plot after the first third of the book. It was boring, annoying, WAY TO LONG FOR NOTHING TO HAPPEN, and overall not well written. Would the characters have been like 12-13? Maybe i could excuse their actions. But not with 17-18+ year olds.
- There should definitely be a trigger warning for alcohol consumption or light alcohol drinking. Because Frances and / or Aled are like 3 times really really drunk. To the point of not remembering doing something, etc. AND BEING UNDERAGE AS WELL. How is this considered normal or not? It's definitely completely wrong!?!?! If the target of the book are teenagers, it should 100% be said in the beginning, that that is, behavior is wrong!
HE IS FREACKING SUICIDAL AND THERE IS NO TIGGER WARNING EITHER. ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME?!?!??!?! They skim over the fact that he was so unwell and even at the end (the "happy end") they didn't talkt about what happen, how he got help, where he lives now, etc.
- It was mentioned from Frances like 4 times in the first quarter of the Book that she has a weird internet history... but never what exactly she searches for?
- AND THE CONSTANTLY USE OF "HAHA XXX" DOESN'T STOP I'M GOING TO LOSE MY MIND. It's making me so angry. No one is talking and using HaHa so often. Stop it.
- The writing style isn't my favorite so far (page 230). It could be the fact that it is targeted to a younger audience group, and I'm not used to it. But it gives me a weird feeling while reading, like there is somehow something missing in every sentence...
- And can somebody please explain to me why EVERYBODY uses the word rucksack and not backpack anymore? I'm so confused and annoyed at the word (for literary no reason other than it bothers me).
- Lorraine is annoying to me. At first she was ok but she thinks very immature. She is probably like 16/17, but can't she understand that not everybody's goal is to get famous? Some don't want to? And she's not even considering it.
- I don't know where Frances got her delusional idea from that Aled forgave her!?!? He didn't say so, nor did he indicate in that regard!?!?
- The last half of the book is so shitty (sorry, not sorry). You're telling me that 4 teenagers/young adults drive 6 hours to a friend that they are afraid of, maybe killing himself... and Frances mother - THE ACTUAL ADULT - Isn't coming with them?!?!?
Graphic: Child abuse, Emotional abuse, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide attempt, Outing, Abandonment, Alcohol
Graphic: Child abuse, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Suicidal thoughts, Toxic relationship
Moderate: Animal death, Grief, Outing
Minor: Fire/Fire injury, Injury/Injury detail
Graphic: Child abuse, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Physical abuse, Grief, Gaslighting, Abandonment, Alcohol
Moderate: Cursing, Panic attacks/disorders, Suicidal thoughts
Minor: Animal death, Fire/Fire injury, Outing
This is a reflective coming-of-age young adult/teen fiction story told by Frances and explores themes of sexuality, friendship, identity, virtual spaces, choices, and meaning.
Frances has always been laser-focused on getting into Cambridge, but her best friend Carys ran away (and she knows why), and then she begins working on the anonymous podcast project Universe City, with Aled, Carys’ brother. Aled’s online persona is Radio Silence, and Radio mentions many cryptic messages to February Friday on the podcast. Once the podcast gains traction and one of their identities is revealed, their trust for this new friendship is broken and they must reckon with their uncertain futures alone.
I really appreciated the conversations that Frances had not only with Aled, but with Daniel (Aled’s best friend) & Rain. They discuss miscommunication, relationships, online infamy, curiosity & high school. It felt authentic to how messy high school felt for me, & I’m sure it will ring true for so many others. AO writes incredibly tender stories about young people with great care, & as a chronically online human, I thoroughly enjoyed the commentary on respecting online creators’ privacy & parasocial relationships.
content warnings below ❤️🩹
Graphic: Animal death, Child abuse, Mental illness, Suicidal thoughts, Grief, Acephobia/Arophobia, Outing, Toxic friendship
Graphic: Child abuse, Emotional abuse, Mental illness
Moderate: Suicide, Grief, Stalking, Fire/Fire injury, Outing, Alcohol
Minor: Homophobia, Racism, Acephobia/Arophobia, Classism
Moderate: Domestic abuse, Outing, Abandonment
this book was exactly what i needed right now.
i read this in two days time. i couldn't put it down, really; i was fueled by the fun story, the short chapters and the general boredom i experience in my day-to-day life.
as someone who's roughly frances' age, thrives off academic validation and is addicted to it like bad drugs, i found the whole academia aspect covered very relatable and ergo also comforting in a way.
truly a nice read.
but i also want to get a little bit into the things i didn't enjoy, because unfortunately the similarities between the characters and me end there.
this book was undoubtedly and so very obviously young adult that some parts of it i just couldn't stand. frances' quirkiness, her constant complains about how 'no one really knows her', the melodramatic way all the characters react to anything happening in their lives, and their childish and uncommunicative behavior - it was a lot.
what i generally dislike about young adult books is that the authors tend to spell everything out for the supposedly young target audience, as was the case here.
most things were super on the nose, sort of cliché and there was a lot of telling instead of showing. whole sentences were sometimes repeated word by word a weird amount of times.
i also had a couple of issues with the story. started strong and stayed strong for a good 3/5 of the book, but ended up getting sillier and sillier as it neared its conclusion.
the climax was disappointing, actually goofy, fairly unrealistic, the characters' motivations utterly incomprehensible. most of the 'plot twists' and revelations were a little predictable as well.
now all of this sounds like i didn't enjoy the book, but i did. i really, really did. i liked the commentary on academia, which i think is still not talked about enough; i liked the dialogue and chemistry between the characters, especially between aled and daniel. at the beginning i didn't like daniel a lot obviously, but he grew to be my favorite character as the story progressed and my hate for aled, his personality and unpredictable character arc developed.
still, their dynamic was one of the things i enjoyed the most. i liked how intertwined their lives seemed to be and the way they communicated.
to sum it up: this one's easy to read, a little silly and frustrating sometimes, but still quick, enjoyable and occasionally really relatable. i know i just gave a hell lot of critique, but believe me, i'm giving this book four stars for a reason. it's got a certain charm to it that i can't quite put my finger on, nor name.
you'll simply have to take my word for it - or don't.
I can take a little beating now and then. I'm a tough one. [...] Even when my bone dust drifts over the City walls, I'll be living and I'll be flying, and I will wave and laugh. (p. 203)
Graphic: Emotional abuse
Moderate: Bullying, Grief, Outing, Abandonment, Alcohol
Minor: Animal death, Child abuse, Suicidal thoughts, Violence, Vomit, Fire/Fire injury
The characters were definitely my favourite part, I thought they were all really good.
Some thoughts on the ending:
Graphic: Child abuse, Emotional abuse, Physical abuse, Fire/Fire injury, Gaslighting, Alcohol
Moderate: Animal cruelty, Animal death, Racism, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Blood, Outing, Injury/Injury detail
Minor: Confinement, Drug use, Homophobia, Panic attacks/disorders, Sexual content
I really think I would have enjoyed this book while I was doing my A-Levels, though it does cover quite a few potentially triggering topics.
Moderate: Animal death, Bullying, Child abuse, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Homophobia, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Physical abuse, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Fire/Fire injury, Outing, Gaslighting, Toxic friendship, Alcohol
Minor: Stalking, Acephobia/Arophobia