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Graphic: Animal death
Graphic: Animal death, Death, Racism, Fire/Fire injury
Moderate: Drug use, Suicidal thoughts, Medical content, Toxic friendship
Graphic: Animal death, Death, Mental illness, Fire/Fire injury, Gaslighting
Graphic: Animal death
unfortunately, that first half of the book does keep the rating "lowish". the jumbled timeline might have been easier to keep up with if i'd had a physical copy rather than an audiobook, so i won't put too much pressure on that. i also struggled to care about the main 'pairing' for a number of reasons, so whenever the focus was on that, i was uninvested and ready for it to move on to something else.
if this were out of 10, it'd be a 7 (overall positive feelings, might come back to it just to re-read with the knowledge i now have). the narrator also did a fantastic job in the final chapters. like, she did great overall, but you could feel those last few chapters.
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things i liked:
i really loved mirren and johnny. my love for mirren was more or less immediate, but johnny took a bit more warming up to. the twist genuinely took me off guard. i'd written down a handful of suspicions for what could have happened or why gat and cady couldn't be together. i was devastated along with cady when she remembered the dogs had died in the fire. so, when you get to that semi-final fairytale, and the witch starts handing out matches, there's this deep feeling of dread that starts to form in your stomach. it was effective, and a nightmare to think about. the overall reflection toward the end of the book was very nice. i still can't quite tell if the liars were actual... ghosts that cady was interacting with, or if they were more something she was only experiencing in her own head. i guess it doesn't matter? i don't remember if she ever caused uncomfortable moments in the "present day" sections by mentioning she'd been hanging out with the liars to the other family members. i liked the concept of writing phrases on the back of your hand. THAT was a "teenage thing" that felt nostalgic or familiar to me (bringing this up due to other things i'll mention below). and i like both that the book ends with her writing a phrase on her hands, and with a nice one as well.
what didn't jive:
like i said, the first half of the book felt... slow. and it was frustrating in the sense that so many scenes kind of felt like they went nowhere, and even with the perspective of how things end, i think the book could have been a bit tighter. the only thing that really kept me engaged WAS the possibility of answers being dangled in front of me like a carrot on a stick. again, i liked mirren and johnny well enough, but most everyone else fell quite flat. considering who's left in the end, i'm kind of bummed there was so little exploration of her relationship with her remaining family members. her only real relationships were with the liars. that being said: i very much did not care about gat/cady. it made the moments where she'd be like "my gat" kind of exhausting or dramatic in that teenage life-or-death kind of way that, yes, i'll admit i never experiences and therefore can't really understand. i have so many notes in my journal consisting of variations of "go away, gat" or "shut up, gat". his behavior DOES make more sense once you get to the twist, but not enough so that i believe in how much they cared for each other or that they were in love or whatever. out of all the liars, her relationship with gat felt the weakest. some of the prose was quite melodramatic on cady's end. albeit, i'm sure this could also be connected back to her being a teenager and my personal eye-rolling comes from that inability to understand, again. like, saying that she gets her blood everywhere as a way of just saying she's sad. it was... interesting? the first time, but i quickly got a bit irritated with it.
yep! that's all i can really think of right now. this one's been on my list for a while, and even though i was discouraged and kind of frustrated in the first half, i'm super glad i stuck it out and got to finish it. maybe i'll circle back to it and find that with Knowledgeâ„¢, the earlier sections will be a bit less of a drag.
Graphic: Death, Fire/Fire injury
Moderate: Animal death, Emotional abuse, Grief, Classism
Minor: Alcoholism, Racism, Medical content, Injury/Injury detail
Graphic: Fire/Fire injury
Moderate: Alcoholism, Animal death, Child death, Grief
Graphic: Addiction, Animal death, Child death, Medical trauma
Moderate: Alcoholism, Animal death, Child death, Death, Drug use, Dementia, Fire/Fire injury, Alcohol
Moderate: Alcoholism, Animal death, Child death, Death, Racism, Blood, Alcohol, Classism
Graphic: Animal death, Child death, Death, Mental illness, Blood, Fire/Fire injury, Alcohol, Classism
Moderate: Dementia