tentatively putting this down as a 3.9 but my thoughts are all over the place and i am not actually sure how i feel

reads as if nausea (jean-paul sartre) and the idiot (elif batuman) had a book baby. successfully left me with a mounting sense of dread and disturbance
 
there is so much to pick apart in this but i simply do not have the time or gumption to give it the thorough dissection it deserves. i hope some group of lit majors somewhere out there is having a field day with it

DNF, 50%

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Published by Granta. 
challenging reflective slow-paced
challenging dark mysterious medium-paced
challenging dark mysterious tense medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: No
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

2023 Booker Longlist Read Through: 1/12

3.5(?) Stars

Yeah I’m definitely gonna need someone much smarter than I to explain this to me.
After adjusting to the juxtaposition between the writing style and time period, I really started to get engrossed in this book. I got really invested in the story of this woman who’s spent her life being repressed first by others then by herself. A woman who wants only to be helpful, to have an impact. But also wants for self-annihilation.
Again, I was really enjoying this story. I found it interesting how language and cultural barriers, along with unfortunate timing can really ostracize someone.

But I started to get a bit lost in the final quarter of the book. I just couldn’t quite piece together what I should’ve been getting from the end and subsequently how I should understand the book as a whole, leaving me…unsatisfied?

Perhaps if I had a bigger brain this would be a 5 star read, but I don’t so it’s not (for me at least). That being said, I’ll definitely keep up with this book and author. I want to read others’ opinions/analyses because I do think there’s something worthwhile in these pages. I just didn’t quite unlock it.

Also, props to the book for searing a disturbing image into my brain that I hope I can scrub away. And for setting a very “visually” scene at the climax.
mysterious reflective slow-paced

annaelliot's review

3.0
dark sad slow-paced
Plot or Character Driven: N/A
Strong character development: No
Loveable characters: No
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: N/A