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I only know one other person who watched "Girls Next Door", so I had slim picking on talking to anyone about the book. Although I was conscious that the women protrayer on the show were characters of themselves, this gave more insight to what life really was/is like inside the mansion. Seeing as Holly wrote this, she comes off very well and presents as always trying to be the " bigger person", whether with Hef or Criss Angel, I appreciated her perspective. Entertaining read.

Wow, I had more respect for her until I got towards the end of the book…so much hate for these women and I just don’t get it.

Hard to rate, but 3/3.5 stars for me

This book is pretty much what I expected, but I was surprised at how naive Holly comes across when she first visits and after starts living at the mansion. This isn't an insult to her, and being naive myself means that I can understand, but I can see how this might seem dubious, as I would think any 20 year old would understand that the relationships between the girlfriends and Hef were obviously fake, but then I'm not her so I don't know.

I also think more than being a victim (I don't like people being victimised/making themselves victimised anyway, because from person experience it's a slippery slope) Holly was either quite naive and/or involved to try to make a life for herself. I'm not judging her and I'm not judging her for leaving either, but while I think Hef took advantage of naive young women, I can also see how they benefited from it.

That being said, the relationships developed from control and co-dependance would explain their bitchy behaviour and I can empathise to a point with them, because while yes, they're getting free, easy, luxurious living, it also can mean losing a sense of self and therefore create fixations with drama and fake livelihoods. I strongly believe all material devotions and petty dramas derive from a stable grounding and lack of self-image, so I'm happy that Holly learned that money isn't worth being controlled, considered beautiful and co-dependant
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Don’t like to rate memoirs but this wasn’t one of my favorite. Majorly skipped through parts that seemed repetitive. I loved Girls Next Door and found Crystal’s book powerful. Tbh I wasn’t a huge Holly girlie but I expected to like this more - she often said she wasn’t judging the other girls but then proceeded to judge them. And then excused her behavior and didn’t extend any empathy as to why the other girls behaved the way they did. Didn’t love that!! 

This book is so beyond terrible. Holly spends the entirety of the book putting down and trash talking all other women around her, while maintaining that she was innocent in every single thing that ever happened. Every conflict, every argument, every publicity stunt. It’s. Basically just one giant rant about how she was way better than all the other women around her.