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Hijab Butch Blues: A Memoir by Lamya H

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dragonlilly's review against another edition

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dark medium-paced

3.0

This is a brave memoir about a multitude of things, addressing existence, racism, islamophobia, love and dating, family, queerness, the choice to wear hijab, the desire to fight for what is right, among smaller subtopics. I thought the comparison between the author's situations and stories from the Quran was interesting and extremely well done, and is a good example for others who are religious and use the word to connect with God and make better sense of their situation without feeling alone. It was also interesting seeing the differences between the Bible and Quran, mostly with the story of Mary/Maryam. I was unsure about the author's specific interpretations of these stories at times, mainly with the author saying Mary must not have an attraction to men at all when it was probably more so her devotion to God that overpowered any feelings she would have for the angel that appeared to her. I really did enjoy the Quran comparisons, but was also somehow expecting more from them as well as a discussion of other sections. There was however a very explicit scene of self-harm that is not performed, if I am remembering it correctly, but imagined by the author's younger self who in a way idealized death as a way to disappear. This scene happened so suddenly and I am surprised I got through some of it on the audiobook before hurriedly skipping it. 

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amina_writes_books's review against another edition

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3.0

this books written narrative style is not at all unique from a literary point of view. There's allot of harsh transitions initially from the writers early days to present day at the start of the narrative, then this drops off entirely. The focus on the various prophets is unique, however Ill executed. And as the author "radicalizes" in her journey, her interpretations of the Quran become more and more abstract, and less and less backed by the tasfirs she supposedly has read. As someone who was raised a practicing Muslim and who is also queer, this book only highlights the abusive and oppressive nature of Islam as a whole. Very let down by this read as it had so much promise for many like me.

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starduststyx's review against another edition

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hopeful reflective medium-paced

5.0

This was an absolutely beautiful book and I'm so grateful to have gotten to read it through libby. The way Lamya's queerness and the stories from the Quran tie together is absolutely perfectly ( and I learned sooo many stories are similar in the bible because I grew up Christian haha )

This memoir was so hopeful and just inspired me to be more kind especially towards myself. We don't all need to make ourselves indispensable. 

I'm so excited to get to hear from them this May because they're doing a talk for OIT's bookclub!! And for the fiction work when it eventually comes out 💖

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wanderlust_romance's review against another edition

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4.25

I really enjoyed this. I want to be completely forthright and say that if you are the sort of reader who is put off by discussion of organized religion, reflection on religious texts, or recounting of any religious stories, this memoir is not going to be your cup of tea.

Hijab Butch Blues examines a bevy of intersections: immigrant, South Asian, Muslim, queer, feminist, and gender nonconformity, to name just a few. It was absolutely fascinating to read the parallels between the stories of the Quran, their teachings, interpretations, and moral questions, and see those interwoven with anecdotes of the author's own life. The memoir is a reflection on what it has meant to live as a queer, gender non-conforming, and in their own description a "visible Muslim" (ie. hijab wearing) immigrant both within and outside of the United States. They enumerate the specific challenges in navigating relationships with the queer community, being made to feel "not gay enough," being critiqued for adhering to an organized religion. They discuss their struggles to come out, how their coming out is received, how it can change or sever relationships. They relate with openness and vulnerability their racist experiences within the United States (New York in particular) as a brown skinned visibly Muslim person. They relay the challenges of navigating immigration, unceasing bureaucracy, ridiculous medical examinations required by their visa reapplications, and how early on they were explicitly instructed on what documents to carry and how to comport themself when faced with questioning from authorities. Most profoundly, Hijab Butch Blues reinforces that there is no set timeline for any of these reflections. That they are all a meaningful part of learning, unlearning, growth, and maturity. There is no perfect path. There is the one we take; the one we learn from; the bonds we form along the way.

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hamletslover's review against another edition

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4.75


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matmatmatty's review against another edition

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challenging emotional inspiring reflective medium-paced

5.0

Beautiful narrative, weaving in stories of Prophets from the Quran with stories from the author's life.

Really showed what it meant to be a queer Muslim, to be an immigrant, to be an "other" in your community. 

This one really got me.

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ren_the_hobbit's review against another edition

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emotional hopeful inspiring medium-paced

5.0

This book hit really hard. It’s insanely well written and I cried multiple times just from feeling so seen. I also appreciated chapters about experiences different from mine as I am a white person born in the USA and so it’s extra important to listen to other viewpoints. 

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sheridan_powell's review against another edition

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emotional informative reflective fast-paced

5.0

Can already tell this will be one of my favorite reads this year. The intersection of religion & queerness was so tender & honest it made me cry. For now, I am here <3 

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4.5


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lizziaha's review against another edition

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4.25

I have a lot of respect and admiration for religious queer people. I think it requires a great deal of introspection and hope and trust in a higher power; I envy that kind of faith. And I think it can make your queerness more complicated and also more beautiful. And I think that’s a line that Lamya walks in this book. The format of her experiences intertwined with parables from the Quran worked really well for this. And for me it was interesting to see this aspect of religion. Since I was raised Christian, many of the stories were familiar, with additions, subtractions, and adjustments that occasionally changed the whole shape of the story. And Lamya’s interpretations turn them into something even more powerful. This too feels familiar. I remember shaping my own faith in a way that many other members of my religion did not relate to. It is such a holy act of love and self-love and I’m glad to see it recorded her. 

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