This is the YA revenge fic I needed. Wish all the real life SA stories ended in such a satisfying way. Queer and neurodivergent POC characters kick ass.

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dark emotional hopeful medium-paced

Plot- or character-driven? Character
Strong character development? Yes
Loveable characters? Yes
Diverse cast of characters? Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus? No

5.0

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challenging informative tense fast-paced

Plot- or character-driven? Plot
Strong character development? Yes
Loveable characters? It's complicated
Diverse cast of characters? Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated

2.0

Disappointed

I picked this book up after seeing Reyes’ name attached because I had a great time reading Lesbiana’s Guide to Catholic School. I knew this book would be fast paced considering my previous knowledge of their work, but this was too fast even for me. I absolutely loved the empowering plot and the way the characters developed overtime, but there was so much going on it became hard to keep track. I wish this book would’ve been a series that covers Ari’s family issues, exposing of Lewis, and blooming relationship in 3 different books. This would’ve allowed for so much more development in a more reasonable amount of time. The only other complaint I have is that the first half of the book feels forced. Labels are added in so frequently it begins to just feel like buzzwords.

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informative inspiring medium-paced

Plot- or character-driven? Character
Loveable characters? Yes
Diverse cast of characters? Yes

4.25

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challenging emotional funny reflective sad tense medium-paced

Plot- or character-driven? Character
Strong character development? Yes
Loveable characters? Yes
Diverse cast of characters? Yes

disclaimer: I don’t really give starred reviews. I enjoy most books for what they are, & I extract lessons from them all. Everyone’s reading experiences are subjective, so I hope my reviews provide enough information to let you know if a book is for you or not. Find me on Instagram: @bookish.millennial or tiktok: @bookishmillennial

I listened to the audiobook on Kobo & absolutely loved that experience. I will say that my reading experience was absolutely biased because I am a survivor. I was raped when I was 16 years old, and I did everything "wrong" in society's eyes. I did everything that people assume when women are raped:

I was drunk out of my mind
I was taking my shirt off, and acting belligerent
I was asking people to kiss me
I was heartbroken and didn't know how to cope with rejection, so I was seeking attention/validation elsewhere
I lied to my parents about what me and my friends were doing that night - we had a party at my friend's house, we did not have a quiet sleepover
It was late at night

And after this, no one believed me. I lost friends. My senior year was the worst year of high school due to the isolation and way I was dismissed by everyone else. I even gaslighted myself into thinking that I did deserve it because of all of the poor decisions my 16-year-old self made that night. The first time anyone ever said they believed me was when I was well into my 20s, probably about a decade later. To see Ariana be believed by her new found family so quickly and so kindly was staggering in contrast to my experience, and it made me so relieved for Ari.

So I will say that my read and my review of this book is fully biased, because I feel seen, heard, and validated every time I read a book like this, about survivors. There is a profound power in being believed, and an incredibly healing aspect of reading about teens experiencing a similar trauma that you did. For others, maybe this book may not work or may not be their favorite. For me, this hit incredibly close to home, and I was continually nodding my head, saying "That's exactly how that felt!" Not every book is for us or about us, I know that.

However, I haven't read many books about teenage survivors of rape, and this book was what I needed at this particular point in my healing journey, so thank you to Sonora Reyes (who I now consider family because we share the surname Reyes hehehe) for writing such an authentic story about rape culture, finding the words to name what happened to you, and for the hope of moving forward and healing.

Ari's selective mutism and autistic experience is another factor of her journey, as Reyes shows how insidiously predators take advantage of those they see are already isolated, not protected, or seeking validation from others. Luis was such a familiar character, because I think we have all met toxic men like him. The way he speaks and behaves -both in front of others and 1:1 with his victims- illustrate how perfectly he has mastered this art of manipulation, guilt, and emotional abuse. Rape culture allows him to succeed in his violence, and I really appreciated how Reyes showed this is not always about the act of rape. Rape culture and toxic masculinity seep into so many parts of daily life, especially for hormone-wild teens who are navigating new feelings without a guidebook! It seeps into other areas because it is enforced by others, while others remain silent and complicit.

I loved that Ari found community in her new friends, and that they were so focused on revenge, and making Luis pay for his crimes. The power of words and sharing your story was a central theme, and Ari's fear of people thinking she was lying was so important to show, because so many victims second-guess themselves already! They are questioning if people will be mad at *them*, when they did nothing wrong. We are so deeply programmed to appease men, and to perform sexuality for men, that our minds automatically revert to, "ugh, I feel bad that I said no to him," or "I feel bad that I wanted this, and then I changed my mind". I need more stories for teens like this, to show them that you're allowed to change your mind, and that consent is REAL and is a REQUIREMENT!

Overall, I'd say that this book was so moving, healing, and a breath of fresh air. Sonora Reyes wrote Ari's voice so authentically - I do not have selective mutism but I am also autistic so I appreciated her voice, and her inner thoughts. This book also made me giggle because of the unrequited love between two side characters/best friends, and because Ari was finally finding her footing in social settings. The side plot of Ari's parents' marital woes were so realistic too! I just think that Sonora Reyes did a phenomenal job with this, and I will continue to read anything they publish!

cw: the main character is raped, but it's not on-page. it's referred to multiple times afterwards; sexism, misogyny, ableism (the main character's selective mutism is used against them and made fun of), toxic relationships/friendships, sexual violence is discussed throughout the book, bullying, infidelity, panic attacks

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emotional hopeful inspiring reflective sad fast-paced

Plot- or character-driven? Character
Strong character development? Yes
Loveable characters? Yes
Diverse cast of characters? Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated

4.5

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emotional funny medium-paced

Plot- or character-driven? A mix
Strong character development? Yes
Loveable characters? Yes
Diverse cast of characters? Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.75

I didn’t enjoy this book as much as I did Lesbiana’s Guide to Catholic School, but I still think it was a solid book. The content itself was strong and important, I just didn’t always vibe with the writing style, which I was surprised about considering how much I liked their other book. I feel like I wasn’t as invested with certain things bc the writing felt so direct. I’m thinking that might be because it was told from Ari’s voice, so that would make sense, but it didn’t always grab me. I also felt like I didn’t really get to know Ari’s friends as much as I wanted to.
I did really enjoy Ari’s relationship with Shawni, and I liked how understanding she was of Ari and her needs.

I thought the core message was really impactful, that victims of assault aren’t alone and that speaking up is powerful. It made me really happy that there was positive autistic rep in this book. While I didn’t relate to every trait that Ari had, having that representation as someone who is probably undiagnosed autistic was really nice to read. I don’t think I ever put into words the issues I had about people touching me and some of the things I do to stim until I saw them in this book. Ari’s development throughout the story was really strong, and I liked how empowered she was at the end.
Even though this wasn’t a 5-star read for me, I’m glad it exists and I think for anyone who thinks their voice doesn’t matter, or won’t do anything, this will be a powerful read.

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