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hlessiroo's review against another edition
dark
sad
5.0
This is likely going to get 5 stars from me eventually, but it was one of the most disturbing books I’ve ever read (and I read a lot of horror), so I just feel like I need to sit and digest it for a while. It was brilliantly written. The unique format really drove home the emotion.
Edit: I don’t see a content warning option for this, but if you struggle with feelings of unreality or helplessness or gaslighting, this is going to be a rough read. It was a rough read for me.
Edit: I don’t see a content warning option for this, but if you struggle with feelings of unreality or helplessness or gaslighting, this is going to be a rough read. It was a rough read for me.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Ableism, Child abuse, Gaslighting, Domestic abuse, and Racism
thatenbyisisreads's review against another edition
challenging
dark
emotional
hopeful
mysterious
reflective
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.0
As I read this book, I was genuinely confused with the timing of events because of the "The Before" and "The After" sequences. The story became muddled together which lead me to believe that Claudia was an unreliable narrator. Once the plot twist was revealed, the timing of events started to make a lot more sense to me which makes me want to reread the book! However, one thing that I found to be disturbing was the fact that Claudia's parents met when her mother was 19 years old and her father was 29 years old. I thought this was extremely unnecessary and they could've been written with a more appropriate age range. Overall, I thought the story was written cohesively in a way that left many readers, including myself, at a loss for words.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Child abuse, Grief, Homophobia, Violence, Ableism, Bullying, Child death, Domestic abuse, Lesbophobia, Mental illness, and Racism
Moderate: Addiction
keelsrn's review against another edition
dark
emotional
reflective
sad
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.5
A beautiful, emotional read. The writing is so captivating and authentic to a 13 year old’s voice. Highly recommend checking the trigger warnings in advance before deciding to read.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Murder, Child abuse, Violence, Physical abuse, Homophobia, Grief, Emotional abuse, Confinement, Panic attacks/disorders, Racism, Death, and Child death
Moderate: Sexual content and Classism
Minor: Alcohol and Blood
geesreadingcorner's review against another edition
challenging
dark
informative
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
4.5
Content Warnings
Graphic: Homophobia, Racism, and Child abuse
jetregan's review against another edition
dark
mysterious
sad
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? N/A
3.0
Content Warnings
Minor: Confinement, Emotional abuse, Grief, Miscarriage, Physical abuse, Homophobia, Mental illness, Murder, Racism, Sexual content, Violence, Child abuse, Child death, Domestic abuse, Injury/Injury detail, Racial slurs, Torture, Bullying, Cursing, and Death
bedtimesandbooks's review against another edition
dark
mysterious
sad
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.25
Content Warnings
Graphic: Ableism, Bullying, Injury/Injury detail, Grief, Child death, Classism, Child abuse, Racism, Homophobia, Miscarriage, and Murder
Moderate: Alcohol, Drug use, and Abandonment
athenathestorier's review against another edition
emotional
mysterious
reflective
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? No
5.0
This book does exactly what it sets out to do, and more. Throughout the work I was waiting for the ball to drop, chills gathering by the chapter. And had nothing but tears for those last few sections. It’s a heart-wrenching tale of connection that transcends friendship, romance, and sisterhood. A tale of loss that’s impossible to bounce back from. Throughout the work, Claudia just wanted to be taken seriously. Just wanted to know what was going on. Desperate to know if she was right. But sometimes being right comes with more pain than satisfaction.
Besides how palatable the emotion was on the pages, how desperation and fear permeated nearly every word, I think what really hurt the most was how real this scenario felt. How many kids are ignored and left in states of living hell all because of people applying “ain’t our business” logic to situations it shouldn’t apply. How it’s funny that “ain’t our business” logic never seems to apply to gossip. How people pretend to be blind when things get serious. How “ain’t our business” gets spouted even by the very systems meant to protect people, in order to protect reputation and time instead.
And how I know/n kids to this day who should’ve had state and school intervention. But received nothing other than a scheduled knock on the door and a “could be worse.” And I know it’s even worse in other areas. In other communities. So much needs to get fixed.
“𝑰 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒊𝒕 𝒃𝒐𝒊𝒍𝒔 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒕𝒐 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏: 𝒘𝒉𝒐’𝒔 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒑𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍-𝒃𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈—𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒇𝒂𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒚, 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒈𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒏𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕, 𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒖𝒏𝒊𝒕𝒚?”
Our protagonist is Claudia. Daughter of a southern mother and a trucker father. Tragic fan of go-go music. Beautiful dancer and overall artist. She sees the world in colors. And words tend to escape her. She fears speaking. Fears standing out. Monday is her safety net from the world. And Claudia is hers. They shared a dynamic that perhaps wasn’t the most honest or healthy, but was nonetheless crucial. Nonetheless genuine. I absolutely loved how the author explored this relationship, and how deep-seated and confusing it was, without ever turning it into something it wasn’t.
“𝑰𝒇 𝑴𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒂 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒐𝒓, 𝒔𝒉𝒆'𝒅 𝒃𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒅. 𝑪𝒓𝒊𝒔𝒑, 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈, 𝒗𝒊𝒗𝒊𝒅, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒔 𝒉𝒆𝒓—𝒂 𝒃𝒖𝒍𝒍'𝒔-𝒆𝒚𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒓𝒐𝒐𝒎, 𝒂 𝒄𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒌𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒍𝒂𝒎𝒆. 𝑰 𝒔𝒂𝒘 𝒔𝒐 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒃𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒇𝒍𝒂𝒈𝒔.”
“𝑰𝒇 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒂 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒐𝒓, 𝑰 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒃𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒕𝒆, 𝒗𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒌𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔. 𝑷𝒖𝒓𝒆, 𝒘𝒉𝒐𝒍𝒆, 𝒗𝒊𝒓𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒍, 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒅𝒊𝒄𝒕𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒆. 𝑩𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈. 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒐𝒓𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒆 𝒅𝒊𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒃𝒍𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒚 𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒗𝒂𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒌. 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒐𝒓𝒔 𝒘𝒂𝒔𝒉𝒆𝒅 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒓. 𝑻𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒚 𝒔𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒓𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓. 𝑰𝒕'𝒔 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂 𝒎𝒊𝒓𝒓𝒐𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒂𝒃𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒃.”
Overall, this story was excellently crafted. It really spoke to how kids notice a lot. But they often lack the focus and emphasis that comes with experience—the focus that establishes importance. This style made it spectacularly well-suited to a mystery thriller.
I also loved how the story used AAVE. I think this might actually be the first book I’ve read that used it consistently throughout. It was interesting to see how similar it was to my southern dialect—enough so that I would occasionally slip into it while reading—but also simultaneously so different that I had to use context to understand the general meaning.
And the detail is *chef’s kiss.* After reading a certain revelation, I am tempted to go back and re-read to see what details I may have missed, or forgotten about while waiting for all the simultaneous timelines to come together. I’ve already seen a few while getting quotes for this review, so I know they’re there. But I’ll do that reread when I get the physical book for my shelf.
“𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒊𝒏’𝒕 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒑 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒉𝒆𝒓. 𝑵𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓.”
“Lastly, missing children of color, we have not forgotten about you. We will continue to fight and give you a voice. You matter.” – Tiffany D. Jackson, Acknowledgments
Besides how palatable the emotion was on the pages, how desperation and fear permeated nearly every word, I think what really hurt the most was how real this scenario felt. How many kids are ignored and left in states of living hell all because of people applying “ain’t our business” logic to situations it shouldn’t apply. How it’s funny that “ain’t our business” logic never seems to apply to gossip. How people pretend to be blind when things get serious. How “ain’t our business” gets spouted even by the very systems meant to protect people, in order to protect reputation and time instead.
And how I know/n kids to this day who should’ve had state and school intervention. But received nothing other than a scheduled knock on the door and a “could be worse.” And I know it’s even worse in other areas. In other communities. So much needs to get fixed.
“𝑰 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒊𝒕 𝒃𝒐𝒊𝒍𝒔 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒕𝒐 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏: 𝒘𝒉𝒐’𝒔 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒑𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍-𝒃𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈—𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒇𝒂𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒚, 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒈𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒏𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕, 𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒖𝒏𝒊𝒕𝒚?”
Our protagonist is Claudia. Daughter of a southern mother and a trucker father. Tragic fan of go-go music. Beautiful dancer and overall artist. She sees the world in colors. And words tend to escape her. She fears speaking. Fears standing out. Monday is her safety net from the world. And Claudia is hers. They shared a dynamic that perhaps wasn’t the most honest or healthy, but was nonetheless crucial. Nonetheless genuine. I absolutely loved how the author explored this relationship, and how deep-seated and confusing it was, without ever turning it into something it wasn’t.
“𝑰𝒇 𝑴𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒂 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒐𝒓, 𝒔𝒉𝒆'𝒅 𝒃𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒅. 𝑪𝒓𝒊𝒔𝒑, 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈, 𝒗𝒊𝒗𝒊𝒅, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒔 𝒉𝒆𝒓—𝒂 𝒃𝒖𝒍𝒍'𝒔-𝒆𝒚𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒓𝒐𝒐𝒎, 𝒂 𝒄𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒌𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒍𝒂𝒎𝒆. 𝑰 𝒔𝒂𝒘 𝒔𝒐 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒃𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒇𝒍𝒂𝒈𝒔.”
“𝑰𝒇 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒂 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒐𝒓, 𝑰 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒃𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒕𝒆, 𝒗𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒌𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔. 𝑷𝒖𝒓𝒆, 𝒘𝒉𝒐𝒍𝒆, 𝒗𝒊𝒓𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒍, 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒅𝒊𝒄𝒕𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒆. 𝑩𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈. 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒐𝒓𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒆 𝒅𝒊𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒃𝒍𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒚 𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒗𝒂𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒌. 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒐𝒓𝒔 𝒘𝒂𝒔𝒉𝒆𝒅 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒓. 𝑻𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒚 𝒔𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒓𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓. 𝑰𝒕'𝒔 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂 𝒎𝒊𝒓𝒓𝒐𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒂𝒃𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒃.”
Overall, this story was excellently crafted. It really spoke to how kids notice a lot. But they often lack the focus and emphasis that comes with experience—the focus that establishes importance. This style made it spectacularly well-suited to a mystery thriller.
I also loved how the story used AAVE. I think this might actually be the first book I’ve read that used it consistently throughout. It was interesting to see how similar it was to my southern dialect—enough so that I would occasionally slip into it while reading—but also simultaneously so different that I had to use context to understand the general meaning.
And the detail is *chef’s kiss.* After reading a certain revelation, I am tempted to go back and re-read to see what details I may have missed, or forgotten about while waiting for all the simultaneous timelines to come together. I’ve already seen a few while getting quotes for this review, so I know they’re there. But I’ll do that reread when I get the physical book for my shelf.
“𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒊𝒏’𝒕 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒑 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒉𝒆𝒓. 𝑵𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓.”
“Lastly, missing children of color, we have not forgotten about you. We will continue to fight and give you a voice. You matter.” – Tiffany D. Jackson, Acknowledgments
Content Warnings
Graphic: Child abuse, Bullying, and Grief
Moderate: Domestic abuse, Murder, Ableism, Child death, and Death
Minor: Drug use, Miscarriage, Vomit, Homophobia, Sexual content, Lesbophobia, Racism, and Alcohol
implied prostitution;macaroniapie's review against another edition
challenging
dark
mysterious
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Racism, Bullying, and Homophobia
fatkidatheartreads's review against another edition
dark
emotional
sad
slow-paced
3.25
The ending to this book is probably going to haunt me for the rest of my life. What a sad and harrowing book! Monday deserved so much better.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Bullying, Racism, Murder, Emotional abuse, and Violence
candaceallison's review against another edition
challenging
dark
mysterious
sad
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? No
4.75
This book was so captivating. I thought the author wrote teenagers very well. Did anyone else think that Claudia and Monday’s relationship was a little codependent?? I think this was based on a true story, the case of Mitchelle Blair. The timeline was really confusing and difficult to follow at times. I like stories that are sometimes told out of order but the chapter titles made it hard for me to follow where we were in the timeline. After a reveal at the end, it makes more sense why the author did that. It was still challenging to follow. The narrator is excellent!
Content Warnings
Graphic: Child abuse, Child death, and Murder
Moderate: Homophobia and Racism
Minor: Toxic friendship