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All the White Spaces by Ally Wilkes

6 reviews

ezwolf's review against another edition

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I really really really wanted to like this. I love queer horror and this seemed like exactly what I’ve been trying to read. But oh my gosh I was so incredibly bored. I kept thinking “okay once I hit 20% the pace will pick up”. It did not. The plot is probably about to actually start but I just can’t make myself keep going. 

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samferree's review against another edition

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adventurous dark emotional sad tense medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

Cold Horror (winter, arctic, Antarctic, etc.) is one of my favorite subgenres, and this is one of the best I have ever read. It's a meditative, melancholic, gripping, terrifying story set in a slightly alternate timeline in which Antarctica had not been more fully explored by 1920 when the protagonist and his party set out to try to reach the South Pole. Jonathan Morgan is a young trans man who lost both his brothers in the final days of WWI and is determined to fulfill their ambition of becoming Antarctic explorers. What I really love about this book is how Wilkes juxtaposes the horror and unfathomable slaughter of WWI with the desolation of Antarctica, and plays on themes of self-perception, social identity (and rejection), (suicidal) masculinity, guilt, and personal loss. They are all masterfully woven into the narrative and lead to a satisfying conclusion.

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ofbooksandechos's review

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challenging dark mysterious tense slow-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

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billie_budd's review against another edition

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adventurous dark tense slow-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix

3.5

I really, really wanted to love this book—on paper it has all the elements I want in a book right now, all at once (polar exploration, interwar period, trans protagonist). And others who are interested in some combination of those elements would probably find this well worth the read! But there was a lot that didn’t quite come together for me.

There’s about 50-75 pages in the middle where everything felt disjointed (in what I can only read as an unintentional way); quotidian things were happening but I could barely tell what they were, or if they were important, because they were interspersed so heavily with flashbacks and memories. Past that part there’s less of this muddled feeling, but it was a struggle to get past the middle of the book.

I also really missed relationships in this book, especially because there’s so much down-time plot-wise, on the ship, on the ice. But I didn’t feel that really any relationships between any characters were developed in any real way, even though they all spent so much time in exceedingly close quarters and enduring events that could have changed or strengthened their relationships in really significant ways, and several of them knew each other pre-plot. (An exception to this is the Randall/Clarke dynamic, which I felt was complex and genuine and changed compellingly over time.) I was frustrated by how much of the time I really wanted to be reading a conversation and instead was just watching someone hammer in some nail, lost in thought.

Some of the horror elements were genuinely spooky but I did feel that they could have been carried off better if the tension in the book as a whole had been carried better instead of feeling as flat as it did, and weighed down by various chores and memories—if the protagonist had ever felt present enough in his surroundings to show that tension.

All that said, I found the narrative of the protagonist’s transness and struggles with family transphobia very well done, and very well integrated with the plot’s main conflicts. This was a great read just to get to hang out with him (and in high-adventure places and scenarios typically considered all-cis-male-only, no less), even if by the end I wished I had been given a view of him and his expedition comrades that was somehow more personal.

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cmaples's review against another edition

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adventurous dark emotional mysterious sad tense slow-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.25

This was the very first time I've ever browsed the horror section and picked up a book about a character who's like me--a trans man. And a horror book at that! What a perfect combination. 

There's so much to like about how Wilkes handles the trans narrative here. It's historical fiction so it doesn't use any modern language to describe Jonathan; the word "trans" is never mentioned. But he is undoubtedly a trans character; he makes that very clear. 

So many things he mentions resonated with me, too. Little details like hating being called a "late bloomer," people using your full name against you because they know you hate it, and the demand to behave ladylike. The joy at seeing yourself in the mirror for the first time. 

And so there I was, 1/3 of the way through the novel when I realized I loved Jonathan because he's a great reader-insert for trans people. And that's both a strength and a flaw. The problem is, for so much of this book I really had no idea how Jonathan felt or who he was. He'd get irritated easily; sometimes I could tell why, and sometimes he seemed really uncharitable to other characters and I couldn't figure it out. He just doesn't seem to have transparent internal struggles, and despite narrating the book in first person, he doesn't let us in on what he really thinks about a lot of the other characters and events. There are times where if feels like he's just going with the flow, along for the ride, without much of an opinion about where that ride is going. 

All that being said, I really enjoyed this book and I value the representation a lot. 

If that's not what you're here for, it's also got a lot of other things going for it! The arctic setting is really terrifying. It's hard to *not* think about the Thing when you read it, but thankfully it stops short of being derivative. It just has that same, deserted in the deadly white Arctic with something very dangerous, sort of feel to it. Though the horror takes a while to ramp up, it goes from eerie to full blown terrifying. I loved a lot of the other characters and some of them got good development and had interesting secrets of their own. If you like historical fiction & horror, I recommend you check this out. 

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blklagoon's review against another edition

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adventurous challenging dark emotional hopeful inspiring mysterious tense medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated

5.0

I haven’t been this engrossed in a book in a long time. The descriptions truly chilled me to my bones, I understood the cold. Spooky and mysterious to the end, with just a touch of gore. And a trans protagonist in horror? Where his gender was a minor detail and there was actual plot not relating to gender? Incredible.

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