4.24 AVERAGE

reflective medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
emotional sad medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
emotional inspiring reflective sad medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Complicated
Flaws of characters a main focus: Complicated

"You can't make people love you the way you want them to."

What a beautiful line, I feel like this book does such a good job of balancing the struggles Ludzio faces; on one hand, he struggles with a communist government and comes face to face with political connection's immense influence on quality-of-life, but, on the other hand, he also spends the whole book battling with his sexuality and the stigma around it. The history of the time was highlighted well despite Ludzio's sexuality and relationships taking the forefront, tastefully highlighted but not overpowering the main themes of the story. Janusz and Ludzio had a tragic ending, however, it leaves you feeling not so much angry and as hopeless, feeling like it was inevitable given the circumstances. Ugh just sooo well-written I really loved this book and I genuinely teared up a little at the end because I can't imagine the pain of losing your orignal home to leave for a place that can never truly become your new home- home becoming alien and the alien never quite becoming home. Like. Simply put..holy peak...also I js love when Polish people write about Poland because of all of the little references that you just can't exactly hit unless you're so deeply tied to the culture.
adventurous challenging emotional hopeful informative inspiring reflective sad tense fast-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
adventurous emotional inspiring reflective medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
dark emotional reflective sad fast-paced
emotional sad medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: Complicated
Flaws of characters a main focus: No
challenging emotional reflective sad fast-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Plot
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: No
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Complicated
emotional inspiring reflective fast-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
emotional reflective medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

I could have kept reading for 100 more pages I was so invested in Ludwik’s story. I think the retrospective tone worked really really well here. Last few pages were so heartbreaking.