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Emily Wilde's Encyclopaedia of Faeries by Heather Fawcett

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adventurous funny lighthearted mysterious relaxing medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

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lighthearted relaxing slow-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: No
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

Really liked this one. A bit slow at the beginning, stayed mainly for the cozy vibes and the FMC's personality and dark humour. Started to pick up the pace around the 25% mark, but still remained a simple read, without major action scenes or complicated worldbuilding, which I enjoyed. I was kind of thrown off a bit by some gory details that showed up in random places, specially because the rest of the book was very "light" on that aspect. I wish the romance was a little more developed, Bambleby's actions
a.k.a. proposal
fell kind of flat. Definitely will be reading the second one.

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Plot or Character Driven: Plot
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

This is one of the books I give 5 stars and a sparkle for being one of the books that will stick with me forever. I absolutely adore Emily. While she is not canonized as having autism in the book, due to her difficulty expressing her emotions and communicating with others, I often refer to her as "Our Autistic Queen".
I loved how closely the village becomes with her by the end, and how even when thinking of how they have become her family, she is still lost on what degree of physical affection she should give them when bidding farewell. And after she chops of her finger to avoid the enchantment of the winter fairy king, and then goes to him anyway because she just "has to know how the story ends", I found myself screaming "Emily!" at midnight alone in my house. (Talking to yourself at midnight at book is a sign of a very good book.) I also loved the development of Wendall throughout the book. When he was first introduced, I thought he was going to be a dry, doting scholar. But with the name-dropping of him being fae at the beginning of the book, to the characterization of his combination laziness and obsessive-compulsive cleaning and sewing disorder, I fell in love. His charm and Emily's wit make such a beautiful combination, and his proposal was the chef's kiss. I love how well they balance each other out, especially seen in the scenes when he helps her integrate with the village and when she forces him to do proper fieldwork. And while the footnotes were annoying to being with, I liked how they not only added to the validity of Emily's character, but also set up the second book.
All in all, one of the best books I've ever read. I will mourn this series when it is finished, but love it all the while as I wait for more.

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Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

A couple of things: books need to stop being advertised as romantasy when the only "romantic" event was the FMC saying she liked the MMC's hair, and the MMC professing his love for the FMC out of absolutely nowhere. Considering that even in the book summary, it says "she'll have to unlock the greatest mystery of all - her heart", Emily Wilde barely unlocks her personality.

I genuinely do not know what the plot was supposed to be: academic fantasy; romantasy; general fantasy. Because it began as a light fae academia, and slowly but surely descended into chaos by page 200. Somehow it ended up in Cruel Prince territory with absurd professions of love, an act of self mutilation, and fae royalty. Also the events of the last 100 pages were so erratic and at times out-of-character for the FMC, it didn't suit the story at all.

The events of the story happened at odd paces, with weird and vague descriptions on how conclusions were being made, and also events just being too conveniently solved. For this reason I don't thing the diary entry style of chaptering did it any favours.

This would have worked so much better as a rivals to friends type relationship in an academic setting for sure. There was no chemistry between the characters for a romance to be justified in 315 pages personally.

That said though, it was a great concept and I would probably read again (just in case it was a result of reading it out of season with this having a more winter vibe), and I liked the idea of the academic research into different fae cultures. I am hoping the sequel explores this in more depth. The worldbuilding was fantastic, the writing was mostly descriptive and was easy to read at a nice pace. Just kinda lost the plot a bit towards the end there. Could definitely have been more academic.

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Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

This was so fun and delightful and casual. It was just such a pleasant read, the more relaxed tone emphasising that.

The plot was consistent and largely casual. Things were happening, but not wild displays of action. The characters would learn things, do things, advance the plot, but in more casual feeling ways. It suited the story’s feel very well.

The character also all felt very dynamic and real. Each one felt unique and different. This variety of character also leant to interesting relationships. I especially appreciated the variety of women in the book and how unique each one felt. Though my favourite character was Shadow, easily the best character and goodest boy. The interest of the characters and their dynamics also really leant to the book’s subtle romance. It snuck up on me and when it did, I was delighted.

I especially liked the world building and how fey lore was handled in the book. Everything drew me in and kept me fascinated. It was also delightful when I recognised some of the lore and I liked learning more. The faerie lore was just so interesting and I’m looking forward to read more of the series.

I only have a few more notes for what I enjoyed. Which are the amazing performance of the narrators, the framing device of the story being told in Emily’s journal, and the casual approach to queerness. Overall a great read, I definitely recommend it.

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adventurous dark funny informative mysterious tense medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Complicated

**Second read (Feb 2024)**
This has become a 5-star on re-read!

My first re-read of 2024 couldn't have gone better because this was an absolute delight! I remember enjoying it well enough when I first read it last year but I also recall feeling slightly disappointed by the ending. Those same thoughts do not hold on re-read and I'm happy to say that I loved it so much more this time. It could be because I was listening to it on audiobook and annotated the heck out of it too which made me feel more immersed in the story.

Emily Wilde's isn't a fast-paced story and neither does it have a concrete plot beyond Emily researching the most elusive Hidden Ones to complete the final chapter in her encyclopaedia of faeries, which she has been working on for most of her adult life. It's very much a cosy slice-of-life fantasy that moves along at a steady, although not particularly rapid, pace. We're treated to Emily's POV through her journal entries and being who she is, it does read very academically and that might not be to everyone's taste but I thoroughly enjoyed it because of how well it captured her personality.

I found the world-building exquisite. This is a historical fantasy set in a world where faerie studies are a very real thing and the existence of fae across the world have been chronicled and catalogued and numerous studies have been pursued. It shouldn't surprise you to know that you will come away from this knowing a whole lot more about faeries than you ever did before—at least, that's what happened to me and I loved the whimsical, enchanting and utterly terrifying nature of these creatures. The way the faerie world is explored and dissected through Emily's journal entries is magnificent and although I have no idea what I will do with all this information, I'm delighted that it's been imparted!

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adventurous slow-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

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Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Complicated
Flaws of characters a main focus: Complicated

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<b> TW: hand injury -
on page traumatic non-medical finger amputation
</b>

I flew through this book. It's an easy read. And yet...

Wtf, Fawcett, this was supposed to be a feel-good, cosy, whimsical book with low stakes!
A finger being violently and unexpectedly self-amputated with an axe does not fit the vibe!
And this trauma wasn't even necessary for the plot! It happened for the stupidest reason! Literally not much would have changed if this character hadn't done it.
Emily was still taken prisoner anyway and she was still ensorcelled by the faerie without the ring--and finger.


This leads me to the character issues I had with this book: the protagonist is very mousy, bland, and stupid. While I love an academic or scientist protagonist and characters who make stupid mistakes, Emily Wilde was honestly as bland as a plain baked potato and barely competent despite her academic position and experience. She has no wildrerness/camping survival skills whatsover. She fails to consider basic survival at all while doing research in a polar island in the dead of winter around the 1900s. Right. Like has she even gone to another field trip before? Supposedly she has, but it doesn’t seem like it… Lucky Bambleby the love interest was there to save her ass. 

It doesn't help that we get the story from Emily's journal entries and she writes as blandly as you would expect for someone with the personality of a filing cabinet. It's not like she's cute in her reactions, or even relatable or understandable; she's not weird enough, and her behaviors cannot be explained by her autistic coding either. Yes she is autistic-coded, but in my opinion this isn't integrated enough or well into the story and it's also not a justification to be incompetent at her job putting not only her own life, but others' in mortal danger. It would have honestly been so interesting if she was actually more explicitly autistic, and see how she navigates academia and field work, her struggles but also successes, maybe see how she interacts differently with certain people vs faeries and let's her connect to them in ways others can't. How others actually make mistakes with faeries she doesn't, because she actually does take into consideration her expertiese with them, like with the love interest. And especially considering there’s a changeling plot here, so considering how the myth has been linked to the treatment of neurodivergent, specifically autistic people in the past, it could have been an interesting point of discussion. But the book never does anything with this plot. It’s just there. It's all so vague here. 

Honestly think I read a different book to everyone else. And I'm not saying the book needed to focus entirely on her neurodovergency, but please give us some sort of focus! The book is like all and nothing at once. Why is she the protagonsit? Aside from her making the encyclopedia, I can't think of one. I am seriously amazed that she managed to survive this long to finish writing it... Emily shines the best when she's interacting with faeries, yes, as it's her area of expertise, that until she also makes amateur stupid decisions WITH the fae that put her survival, their coworkers, and the entire village at risk. She's a boring version of the antisocial academic archetype like Temperance Brennan. And it would be fine, only I don’t think it’s a successful iteration of the trope. 

Temperance might struggle a lot with neurotypicals and social stuff, but she is empathetic towards other cultures as an anthropologist, she is smart, she makes sometimes seemingly strange decisions or says weird things, but she’s professional and aware of her limitations and she instead uses her academic knowledge to study cultures as a whole, and try to make guesses of individuals too. Which is such solid character work. Temperance speaks about her struggles, and you can see them clearly (and yes the character is not perfect, it’s a product of her time), but she is never belittled by the narrative nor any neurodivergent misstep or “quirk” equated to inadequacy. I can’t say the same for Emily Wilde. 

Speaking of, Emily wins over the village people pretty quickly from one chapter to the next for someone who managed to antagonize the entire place in the first hours after arriving to the island. These locals are fickle! I had no problem with her misteps with social interactions (honestly, same), but she fails to even consider local human cultures and traditions of the people who interact with the faeries daily. As if the two cultures are completely isolated from each other, which is a huge academic faux pas. It never even crosses her mind! Like you can be autistic/neurodivergent and still understand or consider theoretically how the two would impact each other. That’s what a good fae-anthropologist  would do. (Side note, I do not consider her a biologist because of the focus of her work and she’s dealing with human like level of intelligence and culture in the fae, not other animals.) And she seems to not learn a lot from this big mistake. Ultimately what the villagers know of the local fae is irrelevant to the plot, cause she’s the scholar, the foreign savior in the end. It was such a missed opportunity to make social comparison and commentary on human vs fae behavior. But no… 

This is my problem with cosy fantasy (or sci-if) as it exists now: it has none of the emotional stakes of the rest of the genre, none of the depth, but it wants you to care about the characters and themes just the same. But it doesn’t work like that. Because if nothing matters and nothing happens, then why should I care? I need more. I can’t even interact with a book the way you would a cosy video game, so I get nothing out of this aside from wasted time. I need you to earn my emotions for the book, my thinking about the themes, my attachment to the characters, my time I spend reading honeyed scenes. (And this book wasn’t even that cosy anyway! So what was the point?!)

And here’s the thing, I would forgive this book not being that cosy if it had given me something else to work with, maybe it was the marketing that was wrong saying it was cosy fantasy. But this book has nothing else of substance to offer. No social, anthropological discussions, no exceptional writing to carry it, no discussions of neurodivenrgence in history, no romance, no deep character connections, no fascinating characters (aside maybe from Bambleby), no interesting subversion of fae folktales, nothing. Truly a nothing burger. 

Honestly, the love interest, Bambleby, was a much more engaging character and perspective to follow. I wish we'd gotten the book from his point of view. I loved his attitude, friendliness, drama, vanity, obsession with interior design and that he's an excellent tailor. (I half expected the love interest to be a local from the island but him being Emily's co-worker works too.) If only we've gotten even more banter from them, though. Or more romance. More anything! It’s such a lackluster romance. 

Also, I found it a little weird that the two interns/students just leave at some point and they have no consequence in the narrative at all. Why were they even there?! Haha, what a waste of pages. How awesome would it have been if Emily herself had a female student/intern with her, maybe one who also struggles with social stuff, and this student is the one who falls in love with the village's wood-chopping lesbian? Then we actually have stakes
when that couple get's in trouble with the faeries in the latter part of the book and Emily and Bambleby have to go save them
. Then it would also provide a social connection to the village other than Bambleby doing all the work for Emily instead of her having to actually try and connect and understand these people’s way of life. But no, we get a boring bland generic Sapphic couple from the village instead. Literally the two of them are only there to be the damsels in distress and that's it.

While I enjoyed this book for the most part (up until that traumatic bloody injury thing happened out of nowhere), I was also left wanting much more from the romance and the setting. I was expecting either a little tension and sensuality in the veins of [book:The Cruel Prince|26032825] Folk of the Air trilogy, or more swoony, sweet romantic moments between the pair like a historical romance. And I got neither. And yet somehow the relationship is also pretty rushed. While the banter between Emily and Bambleby is pretty good, they didn't connect deeply enough for me or had a truly romantic moment. (It doesn’t mean it had to be physical, but there’s no intimacy, no connection beyond colegial banter.) They rarely talked about deeper topics, about themselves outside of what we already knew from the get-go, or shared soft touches, or soft words or had heated interactions charged with sexual tension. Nothing. We get nothing but a
rushed marriage proposal in the last chapters for some reason?


The setting wasn't that well integrated into the story either. I can't help feeling it was a little interchangeable; there was nothing about the village being in a cold Nordic island that truly affected much. It could have been set in a tropical town too and it would be pretty much the same story but with beach faeries instead of ice faeries, because the fae we get are pretty generic and forgettable.

The writing is pretty good though, some of it could be a tiny bit more polished but some scenes had really cool imagery too--the frozen lake market, the old white cursed tree, etc. I wish it was far more atmospheric and the ice and snow and cold played a bigger role, though. If you’re gonna set a story in the arctic, you better take advantage of that setting. It would have helped a lot to elevate this story. Also they somehow are so close to the north pole yet they can easily travel by ship to and fro during both early winter and early February in the equivalent of our 19th century??? Yeah, I dont live close to the artic but even I know that would be the dead of winter and it would be hard to reach such a place unles you have like a modern plane or icebreaker ship or something. Also, no polar night?? 

I do love me a black shadow puppy dog as animal companion, though. He was the best part of the story. And the little forest ice faerie who loves a good fashionable cape is also precious.

The story overall is engaging, fast-paced, but sprinkled with a lot of awkwardness. I initially rated it 3 stars, but the more I think about it the more annoyed I get. Like I said, this book truly was an air sandwich for me. Was it a romance? Not really. A fairy tale? Nope. A deep exploration of human cultural and social aspects reflected and challenged by these faerie folk? Also no. (Huuuuge missed opportunity here.) A dark haunting faerie book? Not really considering the tone and content of the rest of the book. An exploration of a neurodivergent character and her navigating life and academic research?? I mean, if you squint, maybe.

I don't understand what was this book even trying to be? It didn't seem to know its goal and didn't deliver on the promises in the premise. It's not romantic enough, atmospheric enough, historical enough, academic enough, adventurous or epic enough to be anything but a disappointment. I am half tempted to read the second book because of Bambleby, but I'm also thinking I would rather read something else. Was I just misled by the marketing??

Edit: I've heard that the second book isn't "as good" as the first one. And since I didn't like the first one, I'm not going to continue this series.

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