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deckleeditproof's review against another edition
adventurous
challenging
dark
emotional
reflective
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
3.75
I was kinda expecting him to leave the ashram sooner. The end kinda happened all at once
Content Warnings
Graphic: Emotional abuse
asha_m's review against another edition
challenging
dark
sad
tense
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Child abuse, Religious bigotry, Suicide, Emotional abuse, Death of parent, and Domestic abuse
Moderate: Transphobia and Religious bigotry
tetedump's review
dark
sad
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Plot
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.25
Content Warnings
Graphic: Blood, Child abuse, Animal death, Emotional abuse, Gaslighting, Suicide, Adult/minor relationship, Car accident, Death, Domestic abuse, Homophobia, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Physical abuse, and Racism
allergy reactionnu_reads's review against another edition
dark
emotional
reflective
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? N/A
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.5
I want to start off by saying that this book delivered a completely different story than what I was expecting via the synopsis. Technically the synopsis was correct in what you described as a story inside the book, but I was definitely expecting more of a contemporary fantasy than contemporary.
Despite the book claiming to span across many times, it is mostly linear safe for a couple of flashbacks and flash forwards in the earlier books. To me the book was more about Kalki and him trying to reconcile with the traumatizing family/father. He was lied to from a very young age, and being told that he had to bear the burden of his parents sacrifices. In a way this coincides with a lot of themes in South Asian culture where we have this fake reverence towards beings that are godlike, but not actually caring about them as individuals. Allowing our ability to put them on a pedestal of reference and divinity to essentially not let us treat them in a respectful and humane manner.
Despite the book claiming to span across many times, it is mostly linear safe for a couple of flashbacks and flash forwards in the earlier books. To me the book was more about Kalki and him trying to reconcile with the traumatizing family/father. He was lied to from a very young age, and being told that he had to bear the burden of his parents sacrifices. In a way this coincides with a lot of themes in South Asian culture where we have this fake reverence towards beings that are godlike, but not actually caring about them as individuals. Allowing our ability to put them on a pedestal of reference and divinity to essentially not let us treat them in a respectful and humane manner.
But his horrible person of a father was of course only thinking about himself and of the fortune that he could make. The main themes of this book like religion/seduction of belief is basically told through the trauma that Kalki goes through at the hands of a narcissistic parent who will do anything for power, including but not limited to, marketing a blue baby as a god too desperate worshipers and forcing his family to play along because he prefers to manipulate people into furthering his own agenda and his own plan (one that is very flimsy upon close inspection).
It's a disturbingly beautiful book, with the writing style so simple yet loud and incisive. It's essentially Kalki retelling his story, looking back at his time at the ashram with nostalgia and bringing us into the crux of his naivity during his childhood. It really forces you to think about how badly people want to believe in something (not necessarily just religion), and even after the "illusion" falls how there will still be people choosing to believe in the lie because it brings them comfort and is better than confronting their entire worldview falling apart.
It's a heavy book, especially in the child/domestic abuse area, so I encourage anyone who's not in the best place mentally to tread lightly. But if you're able to read the book I wholeheartedly reccomend it!
Content Warnings
Graphic: Domestic abuse, Child abuse, Emotional abuse, Physical abuse, and Sexual content
Moderate: Infidelity, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Abandonment, Death, Grief, Sexual harassment, and Stalking
Minor: Cultural appropriation and Kidnapping
renniewest's review
dark
emotional
reflective
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
3.0
i have mixed feelings about this book. it explores very a interesting concept of a child being manipulated into thinking he is a god, and it also explores questions of belief, faith, and the varieties of people with different types of beliefs. this book introduces some very meaningful conversations but i don’t know if any of them are done justice.
the abuse and manipulation kalki endures is very impactful, and it’s understandable that this would affect him as an adult when he realizes what he’s been through, but the book ends leaving kalki in a perpetual state of traumatized. i wanted better closure for him, and if i’m going to be honest he disappointed me in the end. i also really wanted him to give lakshman a big fuck you in the end, so that was really disappointing.
i also don’t like the attitude with which believers are depicted in many scenes, either with pity as victims of manipulation or blind idiots. i really don’t know what this book was trying to say.
the abuse and manipulation kalki endures is very impactful, and it’s understandable that this would affect him as an adult when he realizes what he’s been through, but the book ends leaving kalki in a perpetual state of traumatized. i wanted better closure for him, and if i’m going to be honest he disappointed me in the end. i also really wanted him to give lakshman a big fuck you in the end, so that was really disappointing.
i also don’t like the attitude with which believers are depicted in many scenes, either with pity as victims of manipulation or blind idiots. i really don’t know what this book was trying to say.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Death of parent, Emotional abuse, and Gaslighting
Moderate: Death, Grief, Physical abuse, and Mental illness
nyertryingtoreadeverything's review against another edition
adventurous
emotional
reflective
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Suicide and Emotional abuse
bookishcori's review against another edition
challenging
reflective
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
3.5
Content Warnings
Graphic: Death of parent, Emotional abuse, and Domestic abuse
Moderate: Suicide and Blood
gattolinos_nerdy_nook's review against another edition
challenging
dark
emotional
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
3.0
This is not the kind of book that I would usually pick up. I tend to find literary fiction underwhelming and meandering at the best of times. They tend to feel like they have no structure to me, and sadly this book is no exception. Now this doesn't mean that the book is bad by any means, it just means that this type of genre and story telling is not my cup of tea. I actually think if you enjoy literary fiction you will probably enjoy this book. I just didn't.
Though out this book I was waiting for something more engaging for me to happen. Characters came and then left so quickly that you don't have time to feel attached to them. This makes it hard later in the book to even care about the characters because they won't be relevant in two chapters time (an exaggeration of time but they did come and go quickly). I found that I had no real connection to the story as Kalki was not a very interesting character despite his circumstance.
So for this book I thought it was interesting at times, hence the 3 stars and that fact that I didn't DNF it, though by the end it does leave for more to be desired as the ending felt very unsatisfying to me.
Though out this book I was waiting for something more engaging for me to happen. Characters came and then left so quickly that you don't have time to feel attached to them. This makes it hard later in the book to even care about the characters because they won't be relevant in two chapters time (an exaggeration of time but they did come and go quickly). I found that I had no real connection to the story as Kalki was not a very interesting character despite his circumstance.
So for this book I thought it was interesting at times, hence the 3 stars and that fact that I didn't DNF it, though by the end it does leave for more to be desired as the ending felt very unsatisfying to me.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Toxic relationship, Suicide, Physical abuse, Domestic abuse, and Emotional abuse
Moderate: Drug use, Alcohol, Abandonment, and Sexual harassment
Minor: Transphobia and Animal death
racheloddment's review
challenging
emotional
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Death of parent, Child abuse, Grief, Emotional abuse, Alcohol, Death, Religious bigotry, and Suicide
Moderate: Transphobia, Vomit, Homophobia, Cancer, Drug use, Blood, Sexual content, and Misogyny
dourdino's review against another edition
dark
emotional
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
3.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Death of parent, Child abuse, Emotional abuse, and Gaslighting
Moderate: Suicide and Self harm