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I loved this so much, I devoured all in a day, completely unintentionally. once I started I just couldn't stop. I love molly and I got so angry at all those around her treating her poorly and taking advantage of her. her character reads as possibly autistic, and even though it's not explicitly stated, I'm sure it's intentional.
I will absolutely be picking up more from Nita Prose in the future, I had a blast with this one!
Graphic: Ableism, Death, Grief, Murder, Gaslighting, Toxic friendship, Classism
Moderate: Drug use, Terminal illness, Medical content, Injury/Injury detail
Graphic: Ableism, Bullying, Cancer, Death, Terminal illness, Death of parent, Murder, Gaslighting
Moderate: Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Infidelity, Physical abuse, Abandonment
Minor: Ableism, Addiction, Bullying, Death, Domestic abuse, Drug use, Emotional abuse, Infidelity, Physical abuse, Suicide, Terminal illness, Toxic relationship, Grief, Death of parent, Murder, Alcohol
Graphic: Ableism
With that being said, this character is very clearly coded to be autistic - despite the fact that the author never says this, it is obvious to any autistic folks or anyone who knows anything about autism spectrum disorder at all. She describes her various sensory issues, spends a great amount of the book talking about how she does not understand social situations in any capacity, she takes everything literally, she is a stickler for routine and does not stray away from the familiar, not being able to make small talk and being aware of this, etc.
As an autistic person, it was clear as day from the first few pages.
In addition, she has confirmed this in interviews, saying she used to work with high school kids with "very specialized needs" and implies that this was an inspiration for the character.
With that being said, it is an ignorant and harmful portrayal of an autistic person, rooted in stereotypes. Molly, as a character, feels both incredibly artificial and infantilized. She is an adult, lives on her own, pays rent, and is in all other senses of the world, completely independent. Being cut from a similar cloth and being a grown adult, I felt like the character was incredibly unrealistic - and this would be fine if the character didn't meet nearly all of the criteria for ASD. It feels like the author is attempting to shove every single autism stereotype into every chapter of the book, especially during the first half or so.
In reality, our lived experiences aren't like that. Through having to navigate a neurotypical world as autistic people, we often pick up on things like social cues and conversational context, even if we don't understand them. We also learn to "mask" our autism enough to present as neurotypical to the world - in fact, this has to be done oftentimes just to feel safe in certain situations. Molly would have, at least, picked up on enough through her decades of life to know when someone is probably not being literal. Toward the end of the book, she does start to pick up on this, even using a puzzle as an analogy of finally putting the pieces together and saying "I am learning to be less literal" when in reality, if she can understand this on her own now, she would have done this a long time ago. We don't get the luxury of being able to stay blissfully unaware of how our autism affects other people. From an early age, we are told how it inconveniences society (even if we have no idea we are autistic), and learn how to hide it so we inconvenience people less.
She is also told she is "such a special girl" by all of her coworkers and friends, and through most of the book she is infantilized, like a lot of neurotypical folks love to do, despite the fact that she is a grown adult.
Again, this character being written this way would be fine if the character didn't meet nearly all of the criteria for ASD and the author didn't imply she based her at least partially off of disabled children she used to teach - but she does, and she did. Despite the fact that this is a fictional character who is not specifically stated as being autistic, she is clearly written as such - and this is a real condition with a real community of real people who are already marginalized and discriminated against for the exact stereotypes she's basing this character off of. Doing this character and disabled folks justice would have been writing her correctly, stating her as autistic, and then making the points of people mistreating her clear, but none of this was done and the message is convoluted and lost in translation.
Graphic: Ableism, Bullying, Death, Murder
Moderate: Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Physical abuse, Grief
The atmosphere was also a bit lacking. I was reading, but not picturing the scenes very well. I also had a hard time placing the setting. At first it seemed like it was set in England, due to how the characters spoke, but through the course of the story, I believe it's supposed to be some nebulous city in the US. It just would have been nice to have a clear idea.
My bigger gripes are with the characters, especially our lead, Molly the maid. She seems to have been written to be on the autism spectrum, and that was the part I was most excited about as I am also autistic. Unfortunately, it didn't land right personally. Autism is a spectrum and all autistic people are different, but Molly felt a bit too exaggerated, and it's never explicitly stated in the text that she is autistic, even though the setting is modern. She was written to be very naive, in my opinion, and oblivious to too much. She's supposed to be 25, with a whole life of masking behind her, but she never exhibited those skills. Neither did she seem to stim, nor did she have shutdowns or meltdowns when things got too much (and there were moments that should have done that to her). Instead she 'faints'. I don't know, it just feels like ASD wasn't fully researched. I also just didn't understand her reasoning for some of her actions. They barely made any sense to me, and annoyed me, especially at the end.
The ending probably brought the story down even more for me. It was annoying and revealed information we should have known in the story, not after it had wrapped up.
Graphic: Terminal illness
Moderate: Ableism, Cancer, Death, Domestic abuse, Murder, Toxic friendship
Minor: Drug use, Infidelity, Alcohol
Moderate: Ableism, Murder
Minor: Drug use
Graphic: Ableism, Bullying, Mental illness
Graphic: Ableism, Bullying, Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Death of parent, Murder
Graphic: Ableism, Cancer, Chronic illness, Death, Drug abuse, Drug use, Physical abuse, Terminal illness, Toxic relationship, Trafficking, Murder, Gaslighting, Toxic friendship, Abandonment, Classism
Moderate: Addiction, Bullying, Cursing, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Infidelity, Xenophobia, Police brutality, Grief, Death of parent, Alcohol