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For any fans of character studies, Shakespeare, and darker stories, I would 100000% recommend.
Graphic: Ableism, Bullying, Chronic illness, Death, Drug abuse, Drug use, Sexual content, Suicidal thoughts, Toxic relationship, Medical content, Abandonment, Injury/Injury detail
Graphic: Chronic illness, Sexual content
Graphic: Ableism, Chronic illness, Drug use, Medical trauma, Alcohol
Moderate: Sexual content, Blood
Minor: Suicidal thoughts
Graphic: Ableism, Suicidal thoughts, Medical content, Medical trauma, Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Sexual content
Minor: Death of parent
Apparently some people found Miranda's POV tiring, but I was engrossed. Awad does love her "can't tell if they're still experiencing reality" protagonists. I work in the medical field so the discussion about chronic pain was doubly haunting to me; I don't ever want my patients to feel unheard, to become this hopeless, although I understood the struggle of treating an "invisible" illness. Other than the Weird Brethren, there was probably a bunch of other parallels to Shakespeare's work that sadly went over my head. I already enjoyed this so much, I can only imagine how cool it must be to have that added perspective. Even the interview with the author at the end made for great reading, with the explanations about how theater/performance/pain can intertwine.
I'll leave a few of my favorite quotes here because I don't know what else to say other than I LOVED THIS, it was so freaking good.
Graphic: Ableism, Chronic illness, Mental illness, Suicidal thoughts, Medical content, Medical trauma
Moderate: Drug abuse, Drug use, Sexual content
I am literally begging authors to stop using the magically disabled and tragically disabled tropes in their books. it really shouldn't be this hard.
I also felt like Awad was trying to have an unreliable narrator but made her so unreliable that half of the story was lost. we only needed one sentence from a onlooker's pov to make the entire book make sense, but we didn't get that. instead, we got a bizarre ableist fever dream without any clear messaging. wild.
Graphic: Ableism, Body horror, Chronic illness, Drug abuse, Drug use, Mental illness, Suicidal thoughts, Blood, Medical content, Medical trauma, Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Death, Misogyny, Sexual content
Minor: Physical abuse, Rape, Alcohol
Graphic: Chronic illness, Drug abuse, Medical content, Medical trauma
Moderate: Addiction, Body horror, Sexual content, Toxic friendship, Injury/Injury detail
Minor: Death
Graphic: Ableism, Chronic illness, Cursing, Drug use, Infertility, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Self harm, Sexual content, Grief, Medical trauma, Gaslighting, Abandonment
I appreciated the Shakespeare mentions/references and the deeper symbolic meanings and connections that Awad made (and I'm sure I missed a lot of them).
The reason why my rating is comparatively low is that it was not an enjoyable read, it was quite painful to be honest (but which was the point, so Awad achieved it). It made me think a lot and helped me understanding what people who suffer from chronic pain go through, but other than that, I did not really connect with the story nor the characters. I think, it was just a bit too dark (and thus very tiring) for me.
Graphic: Chronic illness, Violence, Medical content
Moderate: Addiction, Sexual content
Graphic: Chronic illness, Mental illness, Medical content, Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Body shaming, Drug use, Alcohol
Minor: Sexual content