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Přátelé, lásky a ten ohromný průšvih by Matthew Perry

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I’ve had this book in my (Kindle) library for a long time now. I remember I read the foreword by Lisa Kudrow and thought that I’d get back to this book another day. I was in a reading slump so as a Friends, and Chandler, fan, I thought it deserves my full attention so I’ll just read it later. Unfortunately, I didn’t know that that “another day” would be the day Matthew Perry would pass away. 

Before I begin my review, I do want to say that as I am a fan, this review will most likely be biased.

I started watching Friends about 12 years ago. I binged all episodes in under a week— and it was the happiest week of my life at the time! I laughed until my belly hurt, I cried watching a series for the first time, and I felt that these six characters had become my friends. And whenever anyone asked me the difficult question, I’d always say that Joey and Chandler were my favourites. Joey for his innocence, and Chandler for his jokes. 
When I first found out that Matthew Perry was battling addiction, my heart hurt. And today, too, my heart hurts. So much. 

Each page of this memoir was written with his soul. It helped us see the battles he fought every single day. When he was making us laugh, he was struggling for his life. Reading the first paragraph after he wasn’t with us anymore was even more heartbreaking:
“Hi, my name is Matthew, although you may know me by another name. My friends call me Matty. And I should be dead.“ 
Ughhhhh💔

Yes, there’s repetition, yes the “storyline” isn’t linear— but this is his story, and it’s his call on how he wants to say it. I felt like I was inside his head, and that, in my opinion, makes a memoir brilliant. 
While reading this, I often found myself asking: if I was as famous as him and struggled the way he did, would I have the courage to be this honest? Probably not. It could have been very easy for another celebrity to gloss over the bad things they did in their life and not own up to their mistakes. But he was honest; honest in the hopes that his candid memoir would help at least one person struggling to know that they’re not alone. 

I can’t even begin to imagine how difficult and triggering it must have been for him to write this, and for that, and everything I said above (and all the thoughts that I am yet to untangle), I give this five stars. 

Thank you, Matthew Perry, for everything you’ve done. I hope you’re finally at peace. 
Gone too soon.

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Wonderfully told by the man himself, with that classic Matthew Perry humour, while letting us in with such honesty and vulnerability. He made no excuses for his past, while also opening his heart to the daily battle with addiction and war against himself he was facing. It felt like a deep conversation with a good friend who I felt like I could have sat and conversed with for hours...which in some way I guess I did, however 1-sided it was. Witty until the end who deserves to be ranked among the best of the funniest of entertainers we've been lucky to have. I just hope he has now found the joy he so long searched for, yet gave so freely to millions. Rest In Peace Matthew Perry.

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OMG. have the tissues near by. my heartstrings ate frayed. you are such a amazing icon and your life has shown no money or fame can bring happiness. there was so many roads in your life that could have lead you to success, family, love and so on but your own personal demons kept getting in you way, may you be at peace and rest now. take it easy. thank you for letting us have an insight too your life and thank you for being the one to tell it to in audio. 

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This was the most heartbreaking, tragic memoir I have read, especially given Perry's recent untimely death. It did make me understand the disease of addiction more than I ever have before. Knowing that Perry didn't want to die (he states this repeatedly), and that he loved and wanted kids makes me just ache for the happy ever after he never had. 

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By the end of the book, at age 52, Perry had finally gotten his life together and kicked all his addictions. He had so little time to enjoy it. I really hope that his death was not the result of a final relapse. 

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