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Play It as It Lays

Joan Didion

3.9 AVERAGE


"What else are you tired of."
"I don't know."
"You're getting there," BZ said.
"Getting where."
"Where I am."
challenging dark emotional mysterious reflective tense fast-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: No
Loveable characters: No
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
dark sad tense fast-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: No
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

Its fascinating how in her head I felt despite it being written in third person, how much I felt I knew in so little words written. I've had imaginary arguments with the blurb on the back of the book and everyone who calls Maria 'aimless', 'erratic', 'apathetic' because I'll always struggle to condense my Maria into something so simplified, palatable, and clinical. To say this disregards her every attempt to play with the cards dealt. To say this denies her complexity.

'I know what 'nothing' means, and keep on playing.

Why, BZ would say.

Why not, I say.'

It's not indifference to life, but the acknowledgement of its absurdity. Maria defies the conflation of nihilism and apathy or pessimism. She continues to play because she feels and wants things in spite of knowing it's nothing. She's not emotionally hollow, she's philosophically positioned.

I suppose Maria represents a nihilist in its truest, least reductive sense.

It's odd to rate this book in terms of stars. It's not a good read. But I couldn't put it down.

I read didion because she doesn't want to be liked. And her characters don't either.

I rated this highly because folks should read it: it's an unapologetic look into the loneliness and depravity of upper class white society, and the ways that depravity is taken out on women's bodies.
dark emotional sad fast-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
challenging reflective fast-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: No
Loveable characters: No
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

my entire personality going forward will revolve around loving this book
dark sad tense slow-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: No
Loveable characters: No
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
challenging dark emotional reflective fast-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes