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Overall, it’s a very interesting book, very self-reflective and empowering (her will for independence is at times very inspiring), but I do think it will be a one-time read for me because some parts were just too hard to read through. The first half was very interesting for me, Esther is such a multi-faceted character who I found super odd at times, but super relatable at others. Side note, I loved Sylvia Plath’s description of food haha.
But in the second half it got slower and a lot darker which made me step away from the book for a while because some aspects were too touching.
Nevertheless, I feel the ending wrapped this whole book together, and made me appreciate the story and the MC. I feel like everything was wrapped well, and we get a clear ending on everything.
I guess what I’m trying to say is although Sylvia Plath is an author I observe from afar because she triggers me, I appreciate her work so much, especially this as it is her only novel and it is considered to be semi-autobiographical.
Graphic: Death, Mental illness, Racial slurs, Rape, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Forced institutionalization, Suicide attempt
The reason I didn’t dnf this is because the author is dead (actually by suicide) and I thought it quite rude to do so. Now some may say my rating is rude but I suffered through 244 pages of something that I should have, in fact, marked off as a dnf because this is my first ever 1★ rating. Of course I also was trying to see what everyone else was seeing, that maybe I wasn’t, to warrant over a million reviews, over 3 million copies sold since it was released, and an average rating of over 4★s. I just didn’t find it.
The writing is subpar at best. The synopsis says, “Sylvia Plath masterfully draws the readers in” I’m sorry, who and how? I felt zero connection to the characters or the story. I understand it follows a very dark, heavy, sad, emotional topic and that’s about the only thing that kept any ounce of my interest.
I read 154 pages of what felt like “fluff” to me. There is far too much unnecessary information and I say that because it either tells me absolutely nothing of importance or doesn’t do its job to draw you in or connect you to the characters. This book is only 244 pages long and it took me until I was 65% of the way in for something to trip me up into feeling anything at all. Personally I feel if you are going to write a book like this and it’s a short book, you need to captivate a reader within 20 pages or less. Not only that but the last 50 or so pages where there was the most happening at once, is what needed to be drawn out the most. Something would happen or be said and then 2 pages later it was like I missed a step because we jumped from point A to point B so quickly that it was a missed opportunity to really get us feeling something and deeply attached.
I’ve come to the conclusion that you can be manipulated by an author to believe a book is good if it’s about certain topics. This is one of those books. Because of course the topic is sad and you feel compelled to think it’s good.
Graphic: Death, Racial slurs, Racism, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Suicide attempt, Schizophrenia/Psychosis
Graphic: Body horror, Confinement, Cursing, Death, Eating disorder, Racial slurs, Self harm, Sexual content, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Forced institutionalization, Blood, Medical content, Grief, Medical trauma, Suicide attempt, Gaslighting, Toxic friendship, Dysphoria
Graphic: Mental illness
Moderate: Suicidal thoughts, Forced institutionalization, Blood, Suicide attempt
Minor: Death, Suicide
Here are some of my favorite quotes:
“I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.”
“The silence depressed me. It wasn't the silence of silence. It was my own silence.”
“But when it came right down to it, the skin of my wrist looked so white and defensless that I couldn't do it. It was as if what I wanted to kill wasn't in that skin or the thin blue pulse that jumped under my thumb, but somewhere else, deeper, more secret, and a whole lot harder to get.”
“The floor seemed wonderfully solid. It was comforting to know I had fallen and could fall no farther.”
and many more.....
I really liked this book, I read this book exactly at the time I needed it most. And I think this has become one of my favorite books of all time, I loved it.
Graphic: Death, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Suicide attempt
Graphic: Death, Mental illness, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Forced institutionalization, Suicide attempt
Minor: Vomit, Death of parent
Graphic: Confinement, Death, Mental illness, Physical abuse, Racial slurs, Racism, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Forced institutionalization, Blood, Medical content, Medical trauma, Suicide attempt, Abandonment, Injury/Injury detail
Graphic: Death, Drug use, Fatphobia, Mental illness, Self harm, Sexual assault, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Medical trauma, Suicide attempt
Moderate: Racism
Minor: Homophobia, Pregnancy
Graphic: Death, Suicide attempt
Graphic: Chronic illness, Death, Mental illness, Misogyny, Racism, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Blood, Medical trauma
Moderate: Alcoholism, Drug use, Blood, Cultural appropriation