3.09 AVERAGE


DNF at 30%

I just can’t read anymore of this. The entire book so far has been two things: constant descriptions of a hard penis (her husband or her fathers) and retellings over and over (and over) of the past rapes she endured by her father. It is very graphic.

The only other thing going on in the storyline is that her husband keeps yelling out another woman’s name (Emile) every night while he is in the middle of having an erotic dream (and we get the nightly description of his erect penis too). However he denies knowing any Emily. Her husband is also trying to fuck her every ten seconds. For example, she’s crying about the death of her sister and he’s immediately trying to shove it in her. Many descriptions.

Gross, not for me.


Thank you to Net Galley for the advanced copy.
challenging dark emotional hopeful mysterious medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

No no no can't do it. Couldn't get past ch. 3. FYI trigger warning for rape of child by father.

"All Amelia has been told about the missing four years of her life is that her husband Carl found her after the car accident that killed her father, and they lived in the city together before moving to the suburbs.

She has no reason to question his story, but she knows Carl, and she can tell he’s holding something back. When he cries out in his sleep for Emily, she suspects he had an affair during her missing time and is trying to hide it from her.

When flashes of memories begin to return, Amelia knows she can’t sit back any longer. But once she opens the floodgates, the truth is more twisted than she ever could have imagined."

This book had a good premise, but, unfortunately, I didn't enjoy it. The twist in this psychological thriller was evident almost from the first chapter of the book. Amelia is one of those female protagonists that I cannot tolerate - a woman who is naive to the point of stupidity. It was a good premise, but this book failed to deliver on many levels.

(NETGALLEY AUDIOBOOK – I RECEIVED A COMPLIMENTARY ADVANCED READER COPY OF THIS BOOK THROUGH NETGALLEY. OPINIONS EXPRESSED IN THIS REVIEW ARE COMPLETELY MY OWN.)

Amelia cannot remember the past four years of her life. She has no idea what she did during those four years, and no one, not even her husband will tell her anything about that time. In what started as a quest to find the woman her husband was cheating with; Amelia finds out so much more than she bargained for.

This audiobook was narrated beautifully; inflection where there needed to be, keeping the listeners attention. The overall premise of the book was intriguing, but the execution fell flat. With lots of crude language, I did not enjoy the book itself.

I want to thank Netgalley, and Dreamscape Media for an advanced listening copy of this book in exchange for a fair and honest review.

I figured this book out as soon as her husband said "there is no Emily".

The secret in this book is not really well hidden. It is not a bad book, I kept with it, but all the motion of the book goes into the obvious conclusion. However, the ultimate whys do hit hard. Neutral.

2.5 stars

We have the story of Amelia, a woman that can't remember 4 years of her life. It is the time after she had an accident while she was driving the car accompanied by her father. He didn't survive the accident.

Amelia starts investigating who she was during those four years and tries to remember how her life was like and what she was doing during that time. She gets a lot of push back from her husband Cal, which makes her more suspicious.

The ending was a bit predictable.

Thank you NetGalley and Dreamscape Media for this nice book!

DNF. I knew immediately that I wasn't going to like this book. I tried. The author should not be writing from a woman's perspective, everything felt so off about it. Also, there should be trigger warnings!!!
Strong character development: No
Loveable characters: No