Reviews with content warning for Toxic relationship - Once There Were Wolves

I originally saved this cause it was recommended by Leena Norms for spooky October novels, and spooky it was, although not in the way I had expected. I ended up picking it up cause it was narrated by Saskia Maarleveld, and I really enjoyed her previous work narrating Kate Quinn novels. I didn't expect it to stay with me the way it did. I am in shock. Visceral is the perfect way to describe this writing. McConaghy got me to feel every light touch and savage hit taken by the characters. She tied every aspect of the story up in a neat bow that lovingly punched me in the gut at every opportunity. I refuse to believe that a human can write like this, and yet it's so painfully obvious that a human wrote it, because what other species could describe the human experience in such a vivid way? My heart aches for these characters, who are painfully fleshed out with all their jagged edges and ugly sides. I wish more people read this book. I can't wait to read more but must stop myself from binging anything else she has written cause it just wouldn't be enough. May her fingers never tire of typing or holding a pen, may her mind never cease creating and may her soul experience every joy the world has to offer. Simply incredible.

I can't believe that I finally encountered a book where the pregnancy trope is treated with justice and respect. I was in awe at the mastery with which she ended the story, the way she made it all make sense. Every major or subplot is a full circle and that feels incredible to me

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elkcariboubiologist's review

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challenging dark emotional mysterious sad tense fast-paced

Plot- or character-driven? A mix
Strong character development? It's complicated
Loveable characters? No
Diverse cast of characters? No
Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.0

My father used to say the world turned wrong when we started separating ourselves from the wild, when we stopped being one with the rest of nature, and sat apart. He said we might survive this mistake if we found a way to rewild ourselves. But I don’t know how to do that when our existence frightens the creatures we must reconnect with.

Oy. This beautifully written, incredibly dark book pulled me in and wouldn't let me go despite how anxious reading it made me feel. Those books that can weave nature/science into a story are definitely some of my favorite. But not many writers can do it well, particularly if they aren't biologists or naturalists themselves (and even if they are!). Given that, I was amazed to find that McConaghy is neither. Is all the science correct? No. But from the very first pages, it was easy to see that McConaghy had done her research. Not only on the ecology of wolves, but on how they make people feel. In my experience, wolves are one of the most polarizing critters that exists (probably THE most polarizing). You either love wolves or hate them, nothing in between... She captured this well for the most part (except it is not likely that some of the characters could be convinced to change their mind).

The moment was unbearable, sitting there with her fur between my fingers. I had been watching her for months, learning her, caring for her. I began to wonder if what we were doing was right. If our involvement in their lives was too much. We were trying to save them but we killed them sometimes, too. We stomped through the world and crumpled things where we walked, too human, not creature enough.

As a wildlife research biologist, at times I didn't know if I was ready to feel some of the emotions this story brought up in me. I can't tell you how many times over the past 25 years that some version of the highlighted quote above has gone through my head. I know of very few biologists who question their role in that way (though they should!)...

No such thing as trust in the wilderness. … It’s only people need that word.

My main criticism: the ending was over the top. How McConaghy chose to tie everything up, honestly didn't really feel true to the rest of the story. Without spoilers, I can't say more than that.

Edited to add: I've read some of the other reviews and need to add that I have never experienced trauma like the characters of this story so I couldn't judge how well the author treated this incredibly sensitive topic. Listening to those voices, this book could be harmful or triggering to abuse victims or to their friends and family. As others have noted, the book should definitely come with trigger warnings.

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