Reviews with content warning for Drug abuse - Crying in H Mart

Zauner’s writing is impeccable: emotional, thought-provoking, witty. The book invites us to partake in her nostalgia for her home, her family, and the Korean dishes that connect her to her mom.

The story is heartbreaking and gorgeous. It is raw.

I enjoyed it immensely.

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4.5

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3.75

i really enjoyed this book. i didn’t know who michelle zauner was before reading but i definitely intend on listening to some of her music. i think memoirs are like taking a peak into someone’s diary and this was done really well.

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4.0

I went into this book having heard that it was about the experiences (both good and bad) of an American woman of half Korean half White descent. I expected this to be more about the racial injustices thrown her way or how she had to deal with finding her identity and sense of belonging while navigating being "too white to be korean, or too korean to be white". Although I would have been interested in reading the former, I was very surprised at what this book fully encompassed. This book is a love letter to a very strict parent that wanted the best for their child, even if their relationship was destroyed while raising them.

The only mistake I made in opening this book was to choose to read it while visiting my parents during Thanksgiving break; it made me even more sentimental and concerned for their health and well being. While I do not condone some of the rhetoric between Michelle and her mother, Michelle loved her mother and this book made me be more aware of the love I constantly have for my parents no matter what.

Michelle's relationship with her mother was tumultuous while growing up.

They were constantly getting into fights about school, and how she wished her mother was more "motherly"; an example of which she compared to how her mother once yelled at her for climbing a tree and then falling off, then berating her because she scraped herself in the process. Eventually, their relationship was torn apart around the time of Michelle being in high school, where she nearly failed out of school and had admitted to wanting to write music instead of attending college. Her mother let her live on her own to try out the "starving artist" lifestyle while barely out of high school. They even got into a physical fight, where her mother told her she got an abortion so she wouldn't have another child because Michelle was so rotten. Michelle eventually got into a college on the other side of the country, Bryn Mawr, and moved to the east coast. This gave them the breathing room they desperately needed.

Michelle eventually found out that her mother had

found cancerous (or similar enough to cancerous) tumors in her stomach. This changed the dynamic of their relationship immediately. The majority of this book revolves around the love she feels for her mother, and how she did everything she could to help take care of her and make the last years of her life happy and filled with joy and experiences before her death. They went on trips to Korea, cooked together, watched k-dramas and tv shows pirated from the local asian grocery mart. Michelle did the best that she could to give her mother as happy of an ending as possible.

This book is a love letter to her mother, but also a critical analysis of her father.

She acknowledges that her father could have done so much more for her and her mother. He had a rough upbringing due to his fathers active combat PTSD, and had a history of addiction. He also cheated on his wife long before she grew sick, with Michelle discovering on their original family computer ads and correspondences for escorts for hire. Her father had a problem with driving under the influence consistently, and even totaled his car at the end of the book. He unfairly put a lot of his emotional weight onto Michelle with her mothers passing, when they should have been leaning on each other equally.

Between all of this, Michelle does recount her experiences of trying to find a place of belonging, although not as majorly as the content on her parents. She discusses feeling like an outside in different communities because she is too far from the norm for any of them, "too korean or too white". It was heartbreaking to read about how she was very alone in a lot of this until her adult years where she forged meaningful relationships with bandmates and her significant other, Peter. It made me so so happy that Peter was as supportive as he was. He hung in there through all of Michelle taking care of her mother, and their life choices like school and jobs plunging them into long distance. I did long distance with my now fiance for years, it was incredibly difficult but worth it in the end. It seems to have worked out for Michelle and Peter as well, since they got married right before her mothers death so that she could attend the wedding.

The ending of this book had a nice turn around where Michelle talks about her success in later years. Her music has granted her some limelight, and she even starts touring internationally. This book comes to a close following her tour and how the last show is in Korea near some relatives. She is able to go there and it almost feels as if she has some closure, being able to live her dreams creating music and spending time with those she loves.

This book is beautifully written. It will make you ugly cry and put you in a horrible mood the entire time but it is completely worth it. It reminds you of how the relationships with the ones you love most, whether they are blood family or found, are the most important thing even through some of the hardships (obviously not all hardships).

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4.5

This was such a crazy experience, I’ve heard good things about it here and there and since I loved Zauner and her music discography, I decided to pick it up. I didn’t pick it up for months until I decided to bring it for reading material on the plane and I really did just devour this in the span of 4 days.
Zauner’s descriptions for her family and food are so vivid it really does make you feel at home with all the memories you’ve experienced. There’s so many things that tickled a part of my brain where I know something similar has happened in my life being an Asian immigrant in Canada.
Crying in H Mart is a perfect celebration of life and family and I loved so many bits of it even if some of it is as mundane as reminiscing the many times when someone cooks you a meal you will never forget and trying to make it years down the line. This book does a lot for me and if you’re a fan of biographical books and or Zauner in general, I’d highly recommend this book. It pairs well with Psychopomp and Soft Sounds from Another Planet.

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