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Moderate: Cursing, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Sexual content, Toxic relationship, Gaslighting
Moderate: Mental illness, Sexual content, Toxic relationship, Injury/Injury detail
Minor: Panic attacks/disorders, Death of parent
Graphic: Cursing, Sexual content
Moderate: Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Toxic relationship
Minor: Blood, Death of parent, Injury/Injury detail
Graphic: Mental illness, Toxic relationship
Moderate: Infidelity
Ada and Wes are clear soulmates. From their physical attraction to the way they bounce off of each other mentally, itโs obvious. I love a romance, and the romance in this book was great, but it isnโt what drew me to these characters. What drew me to Ada and Wes, and to Swift and Saddled as a whole, is how accurately it portrays depression, anxiety, self-esteem, trauma, abandonment, and more. I felt seen by both Ada and Wes, and, on a day when I really felt like giving up, that was just what I needed.
Swift and Saddled portrays depression so realistically. We donโt see the ins and outs of a low day, but we do see the constant torment, dread and unease that comes with knowing when your next Big Low is coming or when your coping mechanisms are eventually going to give out on you. Itโs a when, not an if. Not a lot of people get that. Wes gets it. Lyla Sage gets it. I get it.
Wesโ description of depression was perfect: โdepression wasnโt a logical disease โฆ it was impossible to predict โฆ not if, but when I would sink into another dark hole and have to decide to claw my way out.โ Living with a depression requires you to make choices every day, to take your meds, go to therapy, take a walk, whatever works for you. I really appreciated seeing the choice and the genuine hard work and effort it takes into just living reflected so accurately in this book.
I am a depressed person, but I am also a lonely person. Both Ada and Wes speak to me in so many ways. Adaโs loneliness and, frankly, complete lack of self worth are engrained in me. They are a huge part of who I am. Some days, I canโt figure out if they contribute to my depression or are caused by it. Either way, Ada not remembering a time when she wasnโt lonely registered with me so completely. Everybody has someone or something, but not me and, at the start of this book, not Ada. Having a character like Wes read her so well and want to show her that she has so much value was lovely. It made me feel bad for my friends who so badly want to do that for me and tell me so. Maybe, one day, Iโll be as brave as Ada and let someone in. I hope so.
Swift and Saddled wasnโt as horse-y as Iโd have liked, but it makes sense based on Ada and Wesโ day to day. Iโd love to see more of their lives in the future to see how their days work with their own animals, so hopefully theyโll be popping up a lot during the rest of the series.
I donโt think this review, if we can call it that, was coherent, so Iโll summarise:
- Depression is portrayed so accurately in this book, and I am truly grateful for that
- I understand Ada on a spiritual level. I want her happy ever after. She deserves it. I wish weโd gotten some more context around her ex (how they met, where he went etc), but I feel like I know her all the same.
- Wes chooses every day to keep on keeping on and I am so proud of him
Iโm going to have to come back to this for a proper read and review when Iโm less emotional but, for now, Iโll say: thank you, Lyla Sage. You donโt know me and you didnโt know I needed your words but you gave them to me anyway.
Moderate: Confinement, Emotional abuse, Mental illness
Minor: Misogyny, Panic attacks/disorders, Toxic relationship, Forced institutionalization, Gaslighting, Abandonment
Graphic: Sexual content
Moderate: Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders
Minor: Toxic relationship, Abandonment
Graphic: Mental illness
Moderate: Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Toxic relationship
Minor: Grief, Death of parent
Graphic: Emotional abuse, Sexual content, Toxic relationship
Moderate: Cursing, Mental illness, Alcohol
Graphic: Sexual content
Minor: Emotional abuse, Toxic relationship, Abandonment
What I liked:
- The overall length of the book is short, so even though I started to get annoyed with the characters, I didnโt read the book for that much longer before it was over.
- The side characters in the Rebel Blue universe.
My issues:
- While I do have length for what I liked, I also feel like it is a downside. Because of how short the book was it led to the author telling a lot rather than showing. For example, the female main character says she had this bad breakup from her ex-husband where she felt she was controlled, but there is barely any emotional connection to that. Just vague descriptions about how the main character felt without any details or flashbacks left me not understanding the motivations of the main character. The main character also kept saying, I like to be on my own yadda yaadda but none of her actions really aligned with this loner mentality. If there were more examples or if she just showed us rather than telling us it would have made it more compelling and the main character less annoying. I think the main character was annoying to me because I didnโt think she was self-aware.
Also a big pet peeve in books is when some details are unnecessarily not factually accurate. For example, there is one character who just graduated law school and is not admitted to the bar. The other character had that recent law school graduate review their contract rather than hiring a lawyer. That is not allowed! There are very strict rules that if you are not licensed to practice law you canโt practice law like giving legal advice on a contract. I find these unnecessary inaccuracies quite distracting because they take me out of the story.
Iโll probably continue the series because they are short and easy to read.
Graphic: Cursing, Sexual content
Minor: Toxic relationship