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decie's review
challenging
lighthearted
reflective
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Emotional abuse and Fatphobia
Minor: Death of parent and Grief
bookishmillennial's review
challenging
emotional
funny
hopeful
reflective
sad
tense
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
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The reason I like to go into books blindfolded is because I like to go in with absolutely zero expectations. This book was a great example of why that worked so well; I of course knew the basics, that this had a fat main character (I read it as part of a reading challenge me & my friend @themargherita.s on IG are hosting, #TheDiverseBaseline), and that the main character was a teenager. That's about it! I was delighted to find a vulnerable exploration of a sixteen-year-old Puerto Rican teen's experience being fat, Brown, and artistic in the Massachussetts suburbs.
This is very much a character-driven novel presented to us as a slice-of-life for Charlie with slower pacing. We meet Charlie's best friend Amelia, who is Black and pansexual (and thin!), Brian, who is Korean and has two moms, and Charlie's mom, who is obsessed with losing weight and makes it crystal clear that she wants Charlie to lose weight too. There is a bit of a plotline around a crush and an award ceremony, but most of the book meanders through as Charlie struggles to find her footing with each of her relationships.
About those relationships:
The reason I like to go into books blindfolded is because I like to go in with absolutely zero expectations. This book was a great example of why that worked so well; I of course knew the basics, that this had a fat main character (I read it as part of a reading challenge me & my friend @themargherita.s on IG are hosting, #TheDiverseBaseline), and that the main character was a teenager. That's about it! I was delighted to find a vulnerable exploration of a sixteen-year-old Puerto Rican teen's experience being fat, Brown, and artistic in the Massachussetts suburbs.
This is very much a character-driven novel presented to us as a slice-of-life for Charlie with slower pacing. We meet Charlie's best friend Amelia, who is Black and pansexual (and thin!), Brian, who is Korean and has two moms, and Charlie's mom, who is obsessed with losing weight and makes it crystal clear that she wants Charlie to lose weight too. There is a bit of a plotline around a crush and an award ceremony, but most of the book meanders through as Charlie struggles to find her footing with each of her relationships.
About those relationships:
- Charlie and Amelia: I deeply related to and appreciated the representation of this kind of friendship. It is so clear that Amelia rides hard for Charlie, but she doesn't recognize how her privilege of being smaller/thinner operates in every day settings. She doesn't realize Charlie can't just borrow clothes from her, and that going shopping is not that accessible for people in Charlie's clothing size either. Amelia is also posited as the girl everyone wants, the attractive one, etc. Charlie can't help but feel forgotten and hidden in the shadows behind Amelia's spotlight. Charlie knows Amelia does not have malicious intent, but it's hard to not be jealous of or upset with Amelia when Charlie constantly feels like the "fat friend" or like a direct line to Amelia for people who want to pursue Amelia. I felt their dynamic, and especially their argument towards the end, was so realistic and I loved the complexity of teenage friendships represented here.
- Charlie and Brian: I know a lot of people probably hated their third-act conflict, and I get it. I really do! However, this also felt so realistic for me! It made me cringe, thinking about how much I have let my fear of looking stupid keep me from making choices that actually probably would have felt so fulfilling and nice. Charlie has been made a fool of so many times because of her proximity to Amelia, and she can't help but try to protect herself and her heart when it comes to Brian. I could see exactly where Charlie was coming from, even if it sounds goofy or immature. She is 17, let her be 17??? This totally tracks for how I handled conflict, rejection, and disappointment when I was a teenager (not everything is about me, but I really do get why she made certain choices!). I was also sympathetic to the way that Brian got frustrated with Charlie, and was glad he called her in to really reflect on the choices she was making.
- Charlie and her mom (whose name I am forgetting, I'm sorry, I listened to the audiobook and I'm blanking): Woof. Big old woof. To be frank with you, the reason I connected so much to this book was because of the rampant fatphobia that Charlie experienced, and a majority of it was from her own mom. I had been dieting from adolescence up until a few years ago, and along with this, was an eating disorder. The religion of thinness in our culture fucks up people beyond belief; I ache for the 18-year-old Brittany who compared herself to her friends, celebrities, and classmates, who aimed for some unattainable goal to feel worthy and beautiful, as if that was the only thing I had to offer the world. Charlie's mom actively emotionally abuses her throughout the entire novel, and while it was challenging to read, I was so proud of Charlie towards the end for how she moved forward with how she felt about herself and her body, regardless of her mom's expectations and fatphobia. Charlie's mom is not unique; there are plenty of people in this world spouting off some fatphobic bullshit, but I hope with more stories like these, and with more of us speaking out against that harmful rhetoric, that we can foster more body neutrality and body respect, little by little.
My favorite part of the book was the night of Charlie's big birthday party, because it was a turning point for her, as Charlie recognized and named what she needed in that moment to be content.
Ultimately, I don't want to spend my entire life hating my body, and hating myself. This book was a reminder that diet culture fucking sucks the life out of any joy in the room, fatphobia does NO ONE any good, and that love, especially parental love, should not come with conditions. I think I *needed* this book at this specific moment in time, and I'm really grateful I read it.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Gaslighting, Emotional abuse, Cursing, Child abuse, Toxic relationship, Eating disorder, Fatphobia, Body shaming, and Alcohol
Minor: Grief and Death of parent
lesleygetslit's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Fatphobia, Body shaming, and Emotional abuse
Moderate: Grief
skye_era_books's review against another edition
challenging
emotional
funny
hopeful
informative
inspiring
lighthearted
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.75
I love Charlie. I love Brian. I love Amelia (sort of). I hate hate hate HATE Charlie’s mom. Anywho, fat rep? Brown girl rep? Queer side character rep? Written by Crystal Maldonado? Count me the fuck in.
Content Warnings
Moderate: Fatphobia, Body shaming, and Bullying
Minor: Grief
mrsherrera's review against another edition
emotional
hopeful
inspiring
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Toxic relationship, Grief, Bullying, Fatphobia, and Racism
cover2covertx's review
challenging
emotional
inspiring
reflective
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
I don’t think I’ve ever read a book that brought me back into the mind of my teenage self until this book. It’s funny, charming, heart breaking & real. I loved this so much ♥️
Content Warnings
Graphic: Fatphobia, Body shaming, Eating disorder, and Grief
Moderate: Death of parent and Genocide
Minor: Sexism
behindherpages's review against another edition
emotional
funny
hopeful
lighthearted
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Body shaming, Bullying, and Fatphobia
Moderate: Grief, Eating disorder, and Death of parent
fatalisticshrug's review
emotional
hopeful
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
2.0
Cute and easy to read, but I have notes:
1) Yes, it’s important to have a fat person be the main character and we need more of that, but I wish their fatness wouldn’t always have to be at the center of the story.
2) The writing felt a bit unnatural at times. Some conversations didn’t feel authentic, like there was no way two emotional people could articulate their thoughts this clearly in an intense conversation. Also a good author can tell me what the protagonist has just realized/learned about themselves or a situation without having the protagonist articulating all these thoughts as if they were writing a diary.
3) Keeping this vague to avoid spoilers: the character development and “resolution” of the problem felt staged and too fast. Life is messier than that.
All in all this book gives you something to think about, especially if you haven’t dealt with fatphobia yourself before, but it wasn’t what I hoped it would be.
1) Yes, it’s important to have a fat person be the main character and we need more of that, but I wish their fatness wouldn’t always have to be at the center of the story.
2) The writing felt a bit unnatural at times. Some conversations didn’t feel authentic, like there was no way two emotional people could articulate their thoughts this clearly in an intense conversation. Also a good author can tell me what the protagonist has just realized/learned about themselves or a situation without having the protagonist articulating all these thoughts as if they were writing a diary.
3) Keeping this vague to avoid spoilers: the character development and “resolution” of the problem felt staged and too fast. Life is messier than that.
All in all this book gives you something to think about, especially if you haven’t dealt with fatphobia yourself before, but it wasn’t what I hoped it would be.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Body shaming and Fatphobia
Minor: Grief
monicalaurette's review
emotional
inspiring
lighthearted
sad
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
4.0
“Life may be shitty. But in moments like these, everything feels like it might just be all right.”
This book was like a hug to my younger high school self. Now I wish I was more like Charlie growing up - as I’m a little like an adult version of her (just white, so maybe not an adult version). I picked up this book without knowing anything about it one day at the bookstore. I knew that I at least had to give it a try for my past and present self as a plus-size girl & woman.
I enjoyed following Charlie in this book. Her and I are very similar in the way we see the world and some of the people around us in our lives: so that was great to unpack with myself while reading 😅. At the beginning of the story when she was getting ready for the dance and her date - I was so nervous about how that scene would play out that I just didn’t pick up the book for a while. I didn’t want to read any fat-related humiliation: but to be a slight spoiler: don’t worry it’s not that way, it’s not like a big scene in front of everyone like I thought it would be. After I was able to get past that point in the book I read the rest of the book in two days through work.
“And now I’m not sure I ever want to think about loving someone ever again.”
There were really only two things I didn’t like about the book, one of which was the third act break-up from a relationship & friendship. I knew that she’d find out Brian asked Amelia out first as it was in the summary, but I didn’t realize how close to the end of the story it would be - and then the following reconciliations afterwards I felt were very fast and didn’t give as much as I wanted from the self-esteem journey that Charlie went through at the end. I wished there had been more of that part to experience.
The other part I didn’t like was how many parentheses were used to convey an additional thought or clarifying bit of information from in Charlie’s head. I’m not against that type of grammatical piece, but I felt that it was used too much when those additional thoughts could have just been part of Charlie’s inner monologue and almost (to me, mind you) aged her down below sixteen/seventeen.
Besides those two things though, I found that by the end I really liked the book and found a few tears in my eyes. I hope that this book stays a great book for young, plus-size girls to let them remember that they deserve that happy ending and just a happy life in general. If I had gotten this book while in high school I know I would have loved it. Charlie may have even been an inspiration to change my life sooner, but it’s never late than never to make Charlie proud.
“It’s the first year where I don’t waste my wish on being skinny; I wish for more happy moments like this.”
Content Warnings
Graphic: Body shaming, Bullying, Emotional abuse, and Fatphobia
Moderate: Death of parent, Dysphoria, Grief, Panic attacks/disorders, and Gaslighting
Minor: Toxic friendship and Sexual content
rachreadshella's review
emotional
hopeful
inspiring
reflective
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Grief, Body shaming, Death of parent, and Fatphobia
Moderate: Cursing
Minor: Racism