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House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski

83 reviews

porcelainheart_'s review against another edition

dark mysterious tense medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? Yes
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? N/A
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

I was interested in this cult classic after reading the blurb for it on Amazon - a line of which claimed that this book was the sole inspiration for the backrooms. Having finally read this for myself, I can honestly say the blurb and description don't do this book any justice whatsoever. In fact, I think it's intentionally misleading. It makes you think you're about to read something along the lines of Coraline, where things aren't what they appear on the outside as opposed to the inside. A morbid yet whimsical story with a happy ending.

What you get instead is a slow catalogued descent into catatonic madness. It starts innocently enough, albeit dark, but progressively gets worse the more you read

and subsequently, the more Johnny reads and gets involved himself

. I see why this book has received the praise and admiration it has over the years - it captures with disturbingly accurate and horrifying clarity someone edging closer and closer towards the brink of insanity, to be finally being pushed off that edge, all at the turn of the century. It is highly recommended (and almost required) to read a physical copy of this book, especially for first-timers. The rambling passages

from both Johnny and Zampanô, directly implying that the same madness that overtook him in life has been passed on to Johnny when he began transcribing his manuscript after his death

, crossed out/destroyed sections, small details added into each section, the footnotes and end notes, and bizarre formatting all add to the oppressive feeling of complete derealization of the self, the ever-slipping grip of mental stability, and the overwhelming dread that this story won't have a happy ending. For anyone.

The lucid moments of clarity are seamlessly integrated with the slow descent into utter mental chaos, making it extremely difficult at times to tell what's real and what isn't, what really happened and what didn't happen. Many times as I read this book, I started questioning whether or not some of the personal interjections written by Johnny Truant

more specifically, the sexual encounters he seems to have with every one of Zampanô's personal readers that he manages to get in contact with

were actually fabricated by Truant for reasons that weren't clear at first. Only to learn that Truant was truthful in his admissions and fully admits where he lies about events and where he doesn't, somehow managing to keep even that ability despite his crumbling mental state.

Ingeniously enough, this book also makes you think that everything you're reading about is also real.

The Navidson Record, all the reviews and comments about the film from celebrities and movie critics, the academic talks and papers analyzing and scrutinizing mundane aspects of the film such as Will Navidson's return to the house on Ash Tree Lane towards the end, all of it immaculately detailed to the point of exceptional plausibility. It feels like this actually happened

. It lends credence to what I'm sure is a popular fan theory about the story - everything in the manuscript written by Zampanô; the film, the house, the stories and all the key players involved, occurred in an alternate reality.

The frequent discrepancies of time that are present throughout the story are more than just a side effect of Truant's obsession that eventually leads to a severe damaging of his sanity. Zampanô's madness

and consequently, his blindness

were likely caused by somehow glimpsing into this reality where a house existed in the Virginia countryside that, as he put it, constituted "

a rape of physics

" by producing rooms and hallways totally invisible to the outside world. A reality where such a house needed to be photographed and documented visually, else no one on the planet would believe it actually existed. And a house where so much evidence was compiled, it was turned into a major motion picture premiering around the world. Except that world wasn't our own.

The existence of this alternate timeline and reality, as well as a sudden rift within time itself that would make this reality cross over into our current reality, would be sufficient evidence for the manuscript's contents

especially Johnny's encounter with the band that plays at the bar in Flagstaff. Their lyrics make mention of the Five and a Half Minute Hallway referenced in Zampanô's manuscript, and they have a published copy of the very manuscript he's currently transcribing, well before he is finished with it

. The idea that something this elaborate is totally made up, by someone who possessed no post-secondary educational degrees

and who had been completely blind for well over two decades

is practically inconceivable.

If you've ever thought of what it must feel like to experience a psychotic break in real time, look no further than this book. Believe the thousands of reviews left of it on Amazon, Goodreads, Google and everywhere else that chronicles book reviews.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Vomit, Injury/Injury detail, Child abuse, Drug abuse, Blood, Death, Mental illness, Addiction, Alcohol, Animal death, Drug use, Grief, Medical content, Panic attacks/disorders, Sexual content, and Violence

Minor: Alcoholism and Sexual assault

ethanlaz's review against another edition

challenging dark emotional mysterious sad tense slow-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Plot
• Strong character development? It's complicated
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Emotional abuse, Drug use, Toxic relationship, Suicide attempt, Suicidal thoughts, Sexual violence, Panic attacks/disorders, Mental illness, Vomit, Sexual content, Self harm, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Addiction, Violence, Suicide, Medical trauma, Dementia, Cursing, Blood, Animal death, Animal cruelty, Gore, Death, Cancer, Body horror, Alcoholism, Alcohol, Infidelity, Medical content, Gun violence, Physical abuse, Injury/Injury detail, and Murder

ghostams's review against another edition

adventurous challenging tense slow-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? It's complicated
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated

2.5

I really liked the ‘main’ plot, but the formatting and pacing was hard to deal with. Core concept very cool in my opinion, just not executed well for me😅

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Alcoholism, Addiction, and Alcohol

Moderate: Panic attacks/disorders, Suicidal thoughts, Drug abuse, Gun violence, Drug use, Death, Murder, Violence, and Physical abuse

Minor: Animal death, War, Sexual assault, and Cancer

cgoiris's review against another edition

This is a difficult one to give stars. I sort of think I get what the author was trying to do. I can see multiple layers to the story, from criticising media critics to trying to evoke a deeply unsettled feeling that follows the reader beyond the book.

But there were also parts I despised. Why does every woman in this book have to be profoundly damaged? Why does Bambi never really get a personality beyond motherly concern for our main character? Why does the author try to establish deep and bleak backstories with a couple of sentences, multiple times? It's already a 700 page book, trees died for this, don't be shy, flesh it out. 

I'm gonna try to do the content warnings but I'm probably gonna forget a few because there's A LOT. 

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Abandonment, Gore, Suicidal thoughts, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Violence, Sexual content, Toxic friendship, Gun violence, Self harm, Blood, Drug abuse, Eating disorder, Death, Mental illness, Injury/Injury detail, Alcoholism, Death of parent, Panic attacks/disorders, Animal cruelty, Animal death, Alcohol, Addiction, Drug use, and Cursing

Moderate: Sexual violence, Sexual assault, and Forced institutionalization

bookworm519's review against another edition

challenging dark mysterious tense fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? It's complicated
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? No

3.5

I thought this was clever and creative. It was suspensful and i enjoyed following the intertwining stories of Johnny, Karen and Havidson, and the analysis of Navidson's work. However, this book is long and sometimes does get dull in parts. The book structure may be disorienting for some and it is not recommended to those that get dizzy easily.  Overall I did  like it and I am glad I read it. 

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Panic attacks/disorders, Mental illness, and Death of parent

minzzi's review

dark emotional mysterious sad tense medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? Yes
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.0

  This is the first book I have ever read that really scared me. 
  I loved the Navidson Records, characters, the narrative and the way it was written and formatted. Truly genius. No complaints.
   However, the parts about Johnny kinda irritated me, specially in the middle section of the book. All Johnny's storys about his childhood, or the story about the dead dog were great, fitted the theme of the book perfectly, but just how convenient is it that every person who knows something about Zampanò is an attractive young woman who wants to have sex with him?
   I was having a great time learning about the terrifying maze in Navidson's house and Johnny would cut in with a random story about how he fucked a woman. It got boring quick.
   Taking that out, as I said before, everything else was amazing.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Sexual content, Animal death, Death, Mental illness, Drug use, Panic attacks/disorders, and Suicide

unfinishedduet's review against another edition

challenging dark emotional mysterious tense slow-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? It's complicated
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.75

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Suicidal thoughts, Cursing, Animal death, Confinement, Panic attacks/disorders, Violence, Death, Grief, Gun violence, Blood, Alcohol, Drug use, Mental illness, Sexual content, Injury/Injury detail, Death of parent, Drug abuse, Forced institutionalization, and Murder

Moderate: Medical content, Child abuse, Addiction, Infidelity, Rape, Vomit, Physical abuse, Car accident, and Gore

quixie's review against another edition

adventurous challenging dark mysterious tense slow-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? Yes
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Addiction, Abandonment, Gun violence, Murder, Toxic friendship, Toxic relationship, Drug use, Panic attacks/disorders, Suicidal thoughts, Animal cruelty, Child abuse, Cursing, Emotional abuse, Alcohol, Bullying, Chronic illness, Drug abuse, Suicide, Blood, Mental illness, Physical abuse, Death, Gore, and Schizophrenia/Psychosis

izzydelaya's review against another edition

adventurous challenging dark emotional funny informative mysterious sad tense slow-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? Yes
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.5

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Content Warnings

Moderate: Child death, Toxic relationship, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Alcohol, Animal cruelty, Cancer, Addiction, Bullying, Animal death, Violence, Blood, Child abuse, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Sexism, Racism, Panic attacks/disorders, and Murder

abandonedmegastructure's review against another edition

adventurous challenging dark emotional hopeful mysterious reflective tense slow-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Strong character development? Yes
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Diverse cast of characters? Yes
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.5

House of Leaves explores the very limits of what can be done with ink on paper.

A suspenseful tale of exploration into the unknown is enhanced with layers of symbolism, discussion, meta-discussion, and mythological allusions. The result is an enthralling novel, fundamentally mysterious yet deeply compelling, which invites its reader to join in the analytical discussions that take center stage from time to time. The book plays with page structure, footnotes, the fourth wall, text markup, and anything else you could imagine. It goes beyond having an unreliable narrator and straight-up invites us to question the narrator's existence; just another part of the fun it's having exploring the concept of writing (not writing - chronicling? depicting? recording? knowing?) itself. It touches on themes of cosmic horror, religion, mental illness, and the human subconscious, though if I had to pin down a single theme I'd say this is a book about absences first and foremost.

I realize I might be making this book sound like a pretentious tome that's more concerned with being clever than being readable. And to be fair, there are some pseudo-academic bits that go on for too long, and they're the reason I'm not giving this a 5/5. But the various narratives interwoven through the book are insanely well-written and evocative (not to mention disturbing), the main characters slowly reveal more of their fascinating yet flawed selves, and the references and metatextual elements add to their stories, rather than distracting from them. Even when viewed purely as a story, House of Leaves holds up extremely well; everything else is just a bonus.

A final thought: I've seen a lot of people call this a horror novel, and I get where they're coming from, but I found the text intriguing more than scary even at the most uncanny points. If you've been put off by the horror label, and would otherwise have considered reading the book, I encourage you to try it out anyway.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Physical abuse, Child abuse, Sexual content, Alcohol, Blood, Violence, Panic attacks/disorders, Mental illness, Forced institutionalization, and Emotional abuse

Moderate: Suicidal thoughts, Sexual assault, Child death, Sexual violence, Body horror, Rape, Infidelity, Death of parent, Alcoholism, and Suicide