Reviews tagging 'Suicidal thoughts'

Giovanni's Room by James Baldwin

158 reviews

e_r_q's review against another edition

emotional reflective sad medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Strong character development? Yes
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Diverse cast of characters? Yes
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

"I feel in myself now a faint, a dreadful stirring of what so overwhelmingly stirred in me then, great thirsty heat, and trembling, and tenderness so painful I thought my heart would burst."

Despite being only 150 pages long, it did take me a while to read Giovanni's Room. It's definitely a lot to digest, it's very literary and emotionally intense, but those are also exactly the reasons I love this book so much.

With his powerful prose, it feels as though James Baldwin is reaching across time, right into the depths of my Queer soul. Honestly, sometimes it even hurt to read this (in a good way).

Giovanni's Room is a story of self-destruction, identity, shame, repression, alienation, gender and sexuality. It's a tale that examines the destructive forces of toxic masculinity, and internalised homophobia and misogyny. To quote Baldwin himself:

"It's about what happens to you if you're afraid to love anybody."

It's tragic, explosive, emotional, frustrating and deeply meditative. David is a very flawed person, but still I related deeply to so many of his experiences with his sexuality. And at his worst and most toxic, David also reminded me of all the shitty queer men I've had terrible experiences with. Baldwin somehow puts into words so many tumultuous feelings I myself have experienced before. It's genuinely astonishing.

"But if I were still able to feel affection and if he had seen it in my eyes, it would not have helped, for affection, for the boys I was doomed to look at, was vastly more frightening than lust."

Baldwin is a master at writing. The way he plays with tense/chronology/structure is especially ingenious. While very literary, his writing isn't impenetrable, and is still filled to the brim with complex themes, intensity, symbolism and poeticism. Every sentence is so perfectly crafted, and there are so many quotes that just took my breath away.

I honestly can't do this book justice with words. Just read it. It's life changing.

As I finished this book in a graveyard, bathed in the gleam of the Spring sunlight, the striking potency of the climax involuntarily caused me to frantically hold the book closer to my face. And when it was over, with that haunting denouement, I closed the book and sat there for a while in silence.

"No matter how it seems now, I must confess: I loved him. I do not think that I will ever love anyone like that again."

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Content Warnings

Moderate: Suicidal thoughts, Death, Toxic relationship, Homophobia, and Transphobia

Minor: Misogyny and Sexual content

annkimn's review against another edition

dark emotional reflective sad medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? Yes
• Loveable characters? Yes
• Diverse cast of characters? Yes
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

Absolutely gorgeous. Explores the pain of queerness the pain of love in words that were so accurate and breathtakingly beautiful. Reading Baldwin left his voice in my head and I felt like he was digging down into my own spirit to touch and name things I hadn’t been able to name in quite the same way before. 

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Content Warnings

Moderate: Death

Minor: Suicidal thoughts

marija_m95's review against another edition

dark emotional sad medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Strong character development? Yes
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? Yes
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.75

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Misogyny, Child death, Homophobia, Murder, Suicidal thoughts, Toxic relationship, and Violence

Moderate: Sexual content

savanha_reads's review against another edition

4.0

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Content Warnings

Moderate: Addiction, Alcoholism, Murder, Classism, Death, Domestic abuse, Alcohol, Body shaming, and Suicidal thoughts

adararising's review against another edition

dark emotional reflective sad medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Strong character development? It's complicated
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Alcohol, Homophobia, Classism, Suicidal thoughts, Biphobia, Death, and Rape

goddessofwhatnot's review against another edition

emotional reflective sad medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.0

Far sadder than I was expecting.  If this book is any indication, the level of self-loathing experienced by queer men at this time must have been unimaginable. 
Reading this was like bobbing out on the open ocean, life vest on, but seeing nothing but wave after wave of misery and devastation coming your way

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Toxic relationship

Moderate: Alcohol, Alcoholism, Homophobia, Infidelity, Bullying, Murder, Suicidal thoughts, and Sexism

Minor: Death, Self harm, Miscarriage, Misogyny, Abandonment, Child death, Pregnancy, Xenophobia, and Biphobia

arsmithwick19's review against another edition

emotional reflective sad medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Strong character development? It's complicated
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.5

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Content Warnings

Moderate: Death, Homophobia, and Murder

Minor: Miscarriage and Suicidal thoughts

anushareflects's review against another edition

challenging dark reflective sad tense medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Strong character development? No
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.5

A bold story to have been written in the mid 1950s. It’s a tale of homosexual love that, pressed by the times in which it plays out and ideas of masculinity that are held at the core, lead to the destruction of two lives with significant consequences. I wanted to love it more but sadly I didn’t, but I think it’s a courageous work that deserves to be widely read. So far though, I prefer Baldwin’s non fiction work more. 

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Content Warnings

Minor: Death, Suicidal thoughts, Domestic abuse, and Suicide attempt

kendal_reads's review against another edition

reflective slow-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Strong character development? It's complicated
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.0

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Alcohol, Death, Toxic relationship, and Homophobia

Moderate: Sexual content, Misogyny, Murder, and Suicidal thoughts

Minor: Transphobia

khakipantsofsex's review against another edition

emotional reflective sad medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character

4.5

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Misogyny

Moderate: Homophobia, Suicidal thoughts, and Murder