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Graphic: Homophobia
Moderate: Domestic abuse, Suicide, Death of parent
Graphic: Homophobia, Mental illness, Violence, Grief, Suicide attempt, Death of parent
Moderate: Bullying, Child death, Chronic illness, Cursing, Death, Drug use, Hate crime, Self harm, Suicide, Terminal illness, Medical content, Dementia, Medical trauma
Minor: Addiction, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Gun violence, Sexual content, Suicidal thoughts, Transphobia, Murder, Pregnancy, Alcohol
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I honestly can't say I liked this book. I couldn't like the main characters, nor his friends. they just all seemed really boring and flat, with no actual substance to them. Like, it feels as though Aaron's only personality trait is being gay, and the internalised homophobia that led to him having the Leteo procedure and trying to convince himself that he's straight.
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I also just got confused about the timeline, and how Aaron knew Evangeline, and just all of it. I found the entire book very confusing and can't say I actually enjoyed reading it. I think it's probably one of the few books with gay representation that I haven't enjoyed.
Graphic: Domestic abuse, Homophobia, Mental illness, Suicide, Medical content, Grief, Medical trauma, Suicide attempt, Death of parent
Graphic: Bullying, Child abuse, Cursing, Death, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Hate crime, Homophobia, Physical abuse, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Toxic relationship, Violence, Blood, Grief, Suicide attempt, Death of parent, Classism
Moderate: Sexual content
Graphic: Bullying, Homophobia, Mental illness, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Violence, Medical trauma, Suicide attempt, Death of parent
Minor: Domestic abuse, Pregnancy
Moderate: Domestic abuse, Homophobia, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide attempt, Death of parent
Graphic: Bullying, Child abuse, Domestic abuse, Homophobia, Mental illness, Suicide, Violence, Grief, Death of parent, Outing, Toxic friendship
Moderate: Suicide attempt
Aaron is young adult boy living in a poor Bronx neighbourhood with his mom and brother, trying to find love and friendship and who he is, and to forget his dad’s suicide and his own attempt at the same.
In a world where technology can erase traumas and past pains, people will make choices that will reverberated, in not always a great way, throughout their lives.
This is a coming of age story with a fantasy twist.
It was a very touching tale of the need to forget, of the need to remember, of crippling memories, of choices that are not choices at all, and those that are but seem to be taken from us.
Graphic: Cursing, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Homophobia, Infidelity, Physical abuse, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Toxic relationship, Blood, Medical trauma, Suicide attempt, Death of parent, Toxic friendship
Moderate: Abandonment
I also felt that a lot of interpersonal relationships felt unrealistic, but this might be a product of my relatively sheltered upbringing. At several points I found myself thinking, "This is ridiculous, nobody would ever get into a physical fight over this" or thoughts along those same lines, but the reality is that I don't understand why anyone would get into a physical altercation over just about anything. So maybe that's just my white suburbia upbringing talking.
Finally, I found the sci-fi-ish premise to be really dissatisfying. We were simultaneously given too many and too few details in order for me to sustain my disbelief. The basic idea is that Lateo can bury specific memories for you, but the idea that memories rarely resurface even with the triggers of being in familiar surroundings where the original memories happened is just a bit too far fetched for me. The pacing of this part of the narrative was a bit odd too. Lateo was hardly mentioned at all in the first half of the book, and it was absolutely crucial to the second half of the book. I think a little more foreshadowing would have done this book well.
All that being said, I considered DNFing this one, but it did get better in the second half, so I think it was worth my time. Especially since it was an audiobook, so I listened to it while cooking.
On that note, I felt that the choice of audiobook narrator was questionable. This story is told from the perspective of teenagers, and having a middle-aged dude narrate it...did not sound right. Furthermore, the voices the narrator did for the different characters were spotty. I was expecting to be able to tell who was talking from the different sorts of cadences and accents he was giving the different characters, but, especially when two characters were having a back and forth dialogue, their voices started blurring together and it go difficult to tell them apart.
Graphic: Homophobia, Suicide, Suicide attempt
Moderate: Domestic abuse, Hate crime, Physical abuse, Violence
Minor: Racism
“I’m more happy than not. Don’t forget me.”
“Happiness shouldn’t be this hard.”
This book was a complete roller coaster. One of my students recommended it so, of course, I had to follow through and let them know how I felt about it. I'll be real, I thought I was going to get an angsty teen novel, and it was that, but it was also so much more than that. It was fast-paced and angsty, like I said, but it also included so much more about relationships and trauma. So definite trigger warnings for suicide (attempted and successful), emotional abuse, grief, death of a parent, hate crimes and medical trauma. There are probably more that I'm forgetting but those are just the rapid fire ones I could think of off the top of my head. I enjoyed the time I spent with this book and I am definitely going to give Adam Silvera's other work a try. This was his debut novel and, again, it was good, it just felt a little lacking to me. There were times when the writing felt a little clunky and awkward. There were some points where I feel like it dragged on just a bit too much because of all the different elements. But for a debut, it's pretty solid. I may even put my copy in my classroom for my other students to enjoy.
Graphic: Bullying, Death, Emotional abuse, Hate crime, Homophobia, Panic attacks/disorders, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Violence, Medical content, Dementia, Grief, Suicide attempt, Death of parent
Moderate: Sexual content, Alcohol
Minor: Cursing, Domestic abuse, Abortion