A review by adam613
Loop by Brenda Lozano

4.0

"Change. Unlearning yourself is more important than knowing yourself."

While recovering from an accident, the narrator of Loop awaits her boyfriend's return from Spain after the death of his mother. Written as a personal notebook or journal, Loop brings us on the narrator's ruminations both heavy and on the lighter side. With reference to Proust, Shakira, and Jorge de la Cosa and many others, she shares her innermost thoughts in a truly unique read.

"All stories are a deep ocean and a puddle at the same time."

Brenda Lozana has written a wonderfully insightful and quirky novel about life inside the mind of a 30-year-old female in present-day Mexico City. Filled with all the modern-day trappings and life, the book follows an almost stream of consciousness writing which I found to be incredibly close to how the human mind actually works. Finding patterns and impermanence in the world around her, the narrator is a relatable character. Her mindis trying to make sense of the universe in a whimsical and magical way that brings the reader not only closer to her but to themselves.
"Jonas and I are about the same height. Our notebooks are the same size. This makes it easier for the notebooks to have sex."

"Am I getting closer or am I getting further away?"

The narrator wonders the same things that I wonder and her reflections on themes such as family, loss, love and friendship are insightful and relatable. With Loop, Brenda Lozano has written a fragmented yet succinct piece of literature about what it is like to feel stuck in this loop called life. There is impermanence and acceptance that we all are searching for like the narrator. I did not know what I was getting into reading this, however, being a Charco Press publication I had a strong inkling and can now properly confirm that this is a more than worthwhile read.

"Maybe all this could be put another way, but if there's now ideal person there are no ideal words. So there can be no ideal story."