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Death Valley by Melissa Broder
4.0

"im here because i put myself here. or because i was put here? because im supposed to be here? because new age jargon. because of my father. because illness. because my husband. because avoidance. because nature. because man vs. nature. because im not supposed to be here? because hubris. because a novel. because i was lost to begin with. because everything we love we will lose. i am here because a cactus."

anticipatory grief is hard. it looms and it's scary. it makes you angry. it makes you shake. it makes you run. it's an act of self-preservation, right? the further you run, the further away you get, the less it will hurt. wrong!!!!!! turns out you should love everything with ur whole heart bc u will get hurt anyways. u will get hurt, but it's bc u loved something SO much.

"'love the unbecoming!'"

running away means you miss the love that's waiting for you. self-preservation only works so much. life is a self-fulfilling prophecy. it's what ya make it. sometimes that means running away to a desert where no one knows you- and almost dying. you only run so far before you find yourself running back.

"it's a beautiful, hot lava kind of sunset: orange and purple clouds; the mountains cloaked in quiet shadow; the sun a burning fruit on the horizon altar. if i weren't on my hands and knees, crawling for my life, i might even enjoy it."

i liked the overall message of this book, delirious desert visions and all their glory. i think i have a hard time reading books that are a little 'too present' if that makes sense. why is reddit a main plot point we keep coming back to? it takes me out of the whimsy i guess. i feel like it gets dated pretty quickly and tries a little too hard to be quirky. could have done without out it. also it used the word 'guffaw' twice. other than that, pretty sweet. using a cactus as her 'bell jar', so to speak, was very different and weird and i enjoyed it. forgive yourself when life gets scary.

"we are falling into the sunset. falling into the night sky. maybe the night sky is kind. forgiving. we have both been forgiven a thousand times. being human, always new things to forgive."