A review by corylevialexander
A Confession by Leo Tolstoy

5.0

Second read through. Understood it way more and accordingly enjoyed it way more. Also, sometimes books just find you at the right time. His description of "faith" is beautiful and complex. I can't sum it up too well but will lay down first some thoughts I had a week ago and some thoughts I had once he started to describe his "faith."

Before hand:
""Agnostic existentialism is a type of existentialism which makes no claim to know whether there is a "greater picture"; rather, it simply asserts that THE GREATEST TRUTH IS THAT WHICH THE INDIVIDUAL CHOOSES TO ACT UPON."

Importantly, all of this leaves the possibility for an individual to act upon an apparent truth that there is a greater picture and meaning to existence. To me, this ability to recognize the apparent absurdity of having knowledge of the ultimate why but refusing to fall into nihilism, while also attempting to act as if you have knowledge of the ultimate why and that it is good is conceptually what I consider to be God. God to me is the ideas or truth that I can without hypocrisy act as if there is a greater meaning to life and that it is good while fully acknowledging my own apparent impossibility of actually knowing it to be so."

During and after:
"To think of God as a being means nothing to me and and as such serves no purpose. What serves me it is to think of God as being meaning and as such a purpose."

This book is amazing.