j3nnyl1 's review for:

Maurice by E.M. Forster

4.5

emotional reflective sad medium-paced

Plot or Character Driven: Character

Strong character development: Yes

Loveable characters: Complicated

Diverse cast of characters: Complicated

Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

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this is the first book i’ve read in so long. the past 5 months i’ve been trying to drown out my brain by numbing it in any way i can, and now i’m out of it, life seems a little brighter even if i am always alone with my own solitude. i can’t help but think of myself as the wizard of loneliness (nathan4you), constantly craving connection, yet it always seems to get away…..and that’s okay! but like maurice, all i know is love. i relate with maurice’s repression, although i will say my adolescence was more similar to clive: i felt lost and like a broken cog in the machine and therefore hated myself + rebelled against anything that told me i didn’t have a right to be free.

i feel like i explored myself too young because now there seems to be nothing else to explore. there is no discovery and now i just am stuck in my head…..

lowk maurice relatable asf cuz yes the first love of my life also had a period of “lol i’m not gay anymore also i don’t love you anymore i love the opposite sex  😍” 

this book portrays gay suffering so well like yaaaaaas gimme heartbreak that feels like i’m getting stabbed repeatedly in the heart by the person who was my everything and my whole world…..

ALSO YEAH when i was 12 i would think sinfully about women and then i would pray to God to make me normal and STILL i feel immense guilt when i think about how much i burden my christian immigrant parents but alas what can u do…