A review by jlautry
I'll Be Gone in the Dark: One Woman's Obsessive Search for the Golden State Killer by Michelle McNamara

dark informative sad slow-paced

4.5

 Although she died 2 years before the his capture, her work contributed to the capture of the Golden State Killer. Her ability to tell a captivating story with true events and facts is unlike anything I’ve ever seen in a non-fiction piece. The parts she completed and edited read like a fiction crime novel. Paul Haynes, Billy Jenson, and her husband, Patton Oswalt, pieced together completed chapters with her notes and recordings to put together this book. You can tell instantly which of her chapters were completed before she died, versus what they pieced together from drafts, notes, and recordings. As good of writers as I’m sure they are, they just could not match her storytelling ability. I am a big consumer of true-crime media, and the stories generally do not scare me. However, many parts of this book terrified me. I felt like I was in the room with the victims or watching him from a neighbor’s backyard. It takes a really special author to bring a narrative to life like this. Here’s an example: 
 
“[The victims] weren't thinking of their neighbors, but he was. Part of the thrill of the game for him, I believe, was a kind of connect-the-dots puzzle he played with people. He stole two packs of Winston cigarettes from the first victim, for instance, and left them outside the fourth victim's house. Junk jewelry stolen from a neighbor two weeks earlier was left at the fifth victim's house. Victim twenty-one lived within shouting distance of a water treatment plant; a worker there who lived eight miles away became the next victim. Pills or bullets stolen from a victim would later be found in a neighbor's yard. Some victims shared surnames or jobs. 
 
It was a power play, a signal of ubiquity. I am both nowhere and everywhere. You may not think you have something in common with your neighbor, but you do: me. I'm the barely spotted 
presence, the dark haired, blond-haired, stocky, slight, seen from the back, glimpsed in half light thread that will continue to connect you even as you fail to look out for each other.” 
 
 You will not find a better researched, more thorough compilation of research done on the GSK than this book. She literally worked herself to death researching this case to try to find justice for his 183+ victims. Parts of this book were not as good as others. I think Paul and Billy had a fine line to walk between maintaining the originality of her work, and creating a publishable piece. There is a section consisting of a transcript of conversations between Michelle and Paul Holes. I skipped most of the 2nd half of that section because it got a little boring for me. But, I did see the docuseries that was released in 2020 that included most of these conversations. 

 My favorite part of the book is the epilogue Michelle wrote. It is a haunting letter written directly to the, then unknown, Joseph DeAngelo. Here’s how that letter ends: 
 
“One day soon, you’ll hear a car pull up to your curb, an engine cut out. You'll hear footsteps coming up your front walk. Like they did for Edward Wayne Edwards, twenty-nine years after he 
killed Timothy Hack and Kelly Drew in Sullivan, Wisconsin. Like they did for Kenneth Lee Hicks, thirty years after he killed Lori Billingsley in Aloha, Oregon. 

The doorbell rings. 

No side gates are left open. You're long past leaping over a fence. Take one of your hyper, gulping breaths. Clench your teeth. Inch timidly toward the insistent bell. 

This is how it ends for you. 

‘You'll be silent forever, and I'll be gone in the dark,’ you threatened a victim once. 
Open the door. Show us your face. 

Walk into the light.” 

--MICHELLE MCNAMARA 
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