A review by noa_ashley_
Only the Small Bones by C.P. Harris

  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes

5.0

"Looking at him made me feel seen in both good and bad ways." - William

I can't describe how much I love this book and writing style, so I'm going to try. This is the first book that I've read by this author and I just feel that she is going to be my new found favorite author, the way she puts raw emotions into words is so beautiful.

I love hurt/comfort so much in books and this book had it all. Make sure to check the trigger warning because I cried a lot. Ryan is so traumatized and William helped him work through that, the level of understanding each other on a deeper level, William made sure that Ryan's boundaries were protected and he gave him room to grow, to start healing in his own way. The situation were Ryan lived with William in it's self wasn't for a healthy reason, William had his own reasons why he wanted to help others but he worked on having a healthier relationship with himself. William is very self aware and sometimes he needs other people to look at the situation as well even though it's hard, he needs to work on himself too in order to do his job and he deserves to be happy, to be best version of himself for him and his partner. I love the relationship he has with his mother and how she opened up to Ryan. 

Ryan is non-verbal but he communicates in lots of different ways, writing, texting, showing what he wants and needs. He made a lot of big steps and a big reason is that William sees him, gave him time and stimulated him to slowly open up, eventually he wanted to get help and get better. Both their stories are heartbreaking but there's an understanding between them. It was hard for William to open up about his past and feelings but he kept talking and that really helped Ryan feel less alone. At some point Ryan started writing, making his own food and slowly getting used to being touched. Those are all big steps for him, unexpectedly they helped each other heal and it was raw, beautiful and painful. Some behaviors weren't healthy and sometimes they made mistakes. Nobody is perfect, the characters aren't perfect. I'm very glad that I read this book and that I found this author. I cried a lot and it was all worth it. 

Please check the trigger warnings because this was a lot but I needed this emotional book. The mean focus of this book was healing and not the romance, it's a slow burn and it felt right. This book is perfection. I received an ARC copy of this book.