A review by coffeecakesandbooks
Ich will doch bloß sterben, Papa by Michael Schofield

4.0

This book is very intense. When it comes to mental-illnesses, such like schizophrenia, we all hope that there will be a kind of recovery. But schizophrenia is incurable. This book tells the story of family trying to find out why there daughter January is acting different from other kids. She has imaginary friends - loads of them - changes her own name and wants to kill her baby-brother, although she loves him. Januarys behaviour and her mental-illness prooves the family hard. Never can Jani be let alone with her brother and only one parent. There has to be found new ways to organise their family lives. This books shows the journey of the family trying to figure out Jani's disorder. In the beginning none of the doctors and psychologists think that theres such a huge disorder like the later diagnosed schizophrenia.
The author publices his story to raise awareness to mental-illness and that not only adults are confronted with schizophrenia. He shows how difficult it is to do the right thing for your child - dealing with doctors who can't believe that his child is actually mentally ill.