A review by mxdevin
The Push by Ashley Audrain

5.0

“We all expect to have, and to marry, and to be, good mothers.”

I didn’t know what to expect from The Push. I went into it thinking I would simply be reading a book about motherhood with a bit of a twist. What I left that book with was an entirely different outlook on life.

Ashley Audrain created a truly masterful depiction of the persistent impact of unresolved generational trauma and the heaps of expectations placed on women and femme individuals, especially mothers. I was taken on a journey that ebbed and flowed and shone and scorched like liquid gold, and I didn’t want to put this novel down. The Push touched on so many incredibly important things: what it means to be a mother, the ways in which silence and absence can be so loud and suffocating, how crucial it is to work on ourselves and give ourselves grace, the idea that women are taught not to trust their own minds and others are taught not to trust them either. The fact of truth being different for every person, and no one truth is necessarily more correct than another. How easy it is to let yourself disappear to make room for others’ blossoming.

I can honestly say that I will be picking this book up again. I will be reading through each bit of the lives I was gracefully let into, finding myself in between the lines. If you want to read something that doesn’t let go of you until the very last page, and takes you to places you didn’t think you could go, open this.