A review by lezreadalot
To Have Loved & Lost by Eliza Andrews

4.0

The girl with the strange jagged lightning bolt of a tattoo, who sometimes plays like ice-water runs through her veins instead of blood; other times plays as if her heart is a mass of white hot flames.

Overall? This was really really enjoyable. This is my second experience with an Eliza Andrews novel, and apparently it was her first foray into f/f adult romance? I could definitely see the difference; I didn't fall in love with the writing here like I did in Reverie, which was written more recently (I ADORED how she wrote that book... though I didn't adore everything ABOUT the book). But in general, it was well-written, angsty, deals a lot with grief, family, trying to move on after personal tragedy.

One of the things I appreciated the most about the book is that it was butch/femme. Like I think I've said before, I like femme/femme books as much as the next gal, but oh man we don't give butch women the love they deserve in romance novels. And this did! And I loved it! (I really adored and appreciated the author's mini-essay about it at the end, and how she talks about her own personal experience being butch, and some of the fallacies about butch women in popular culture. Actually, I really enjoyed her mini-essay after Reverie too. I just really enjoyed how she grounded the whys and wherefores behind the writing of the book.)

But yeah, this had great characters whom I came to like a lot. It was paced well (...except when it wasn't, and we'll get to that) and I felt like their relationship moved at a believable clip, given everything that was happening and had happened in their lives. It was slow at first, but in a way I enjoyed. I don't often read sports romance (this might have been my first one) and tbh I don't... care........ or understand......... jack shit.......... about basketball.......... at all............................ So honestly the author deserves an award for making me invested in the games, and Alex's trajectory as a player, and making me feel the excitement. The way Alex herself was described was just...