A review by classicsandromances
A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara

5.0

some thoughts about my third reading of this book. this book is traumatizing, there's no denying that. however, only after two years i've realized how hope drive it actually is. don't get me wrong, what happened to jude and his ways of coping were heartbreaking. nevertheless, he had hope - hope for his 'little life', hope of being loved, of being able to work for himself, of being accepted, of accepting himself. even though at times it seemed like there's no hope left, jude managed to surprise me with his willingness to fight and to still expect the best even while expecting the worst. it's a little hard to explain, fingers crossed that you understand what i meant with this review.

noelle's review of this book also made me look and see this novel in a different light, or rather the hype around it. i get that it's a beautiful book, there's nothing wrong with that, and it makes you feel all the sorrow, all the joyful moments, all the trauma. but we really needn't glorify the experience while recommending the book to others.

yes, this review is chaotic, i know. but it's mine. thanks for reading x
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second read: it still hurts
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i feel like someone took away something that was very dear to me. i feel like my heart has been ripped out and torn to little pieces. i wasn't ready to say goodbye to those characters and i don't think i ever will. which leaves me with one, simple solution: to read this book over and over again. to make myself live through this pain, sorrow and happiness, once again. to cry my eyes out, unable to breathe. again.
thank you hanya yanagihara, you have ruined me.
thank you for jude and willem.
thank you.

(yes, i have laid in my bed, hugging this book after finishing it for almost an hour. i am not ashamed)